Its not you
Its me
That was cliche
Don't you agree?

It hurts me more
that I caused you pain
by rejecting everything you do
You've got nothing to gain

I don't like you
Not the way you do
So walk away
What I say is true

I don't want to upset you
You have to understand
This is better than false hope
I know this isn't what you have planned

I am not the one for you
We are not meant to be
Don't make this difficult
Just stop fighting for me

Stop trying to convince me
I don't feel the same way
Just let me go
We aren't close friends anyway

Please stop
You're hurting yourself more
Its all wishful thinking
I'm not the person you should adore

I'm sorry
That's all I can say
I'm sorry
That it has to end this way

Through strings and wires I've walked
Never lacking courage or hope

But now I'm utterly empty,
Just an infinite space with thousand black holes,

digging through my screaming soul
Only hollows within me that fail to contain echoes,

though I've felt my tears scream,
on every track they course down my cheeks

Slowly, I sink into the oceans of wide holes,
into the betrayal, misery that makes my home

It's not honey, flowers, and butterflies
and not care and a love on high

It's built of bleeding thoughts,
pricking my heart with needles scalding hot

Puncturing through my wounded existence,
and lost clemency tumbling through dark shadows

My sky is red and clementine
because all my hues bleed

They bleed a deep red of melancholy
Seeping through the clouds of despair, slowly

I watch as I sit numb on shadows
Just wishing to fill these hollows

And smile because I have courage to still believe
in those fairy tales I could never defeat.

Someday maybe I could stop,
weaving threads of darkness into hope.

Until then I'm a doll with no features
Wearing another facade, just a cheater.

Because I've cheated so much
One every breath and every dream I've touched

Now I'm just waiting for truth to rend me apart
from this tired body, and bleeding heart

                                                                -MAY

you make me
want to write
about only the best of things,
but
although i write from my heart,
my heart can't get past the wall
that my brain has created
to keep the sadness at bay.
s.s.

happy anniversary
you let me **** your flaccid ****
then let me go
naked
wet
exposed
nothing but your ***** sheets
to shield me from your sting
"i dont feel the same way"
you said
every
word
a
nail
in
my
coffin.

A lost friend
Once again I write to you
And all I do is sit and think.....
Only about you without a blink…
From all that has happened I wish I could learn
That life isn't always what you desire
Knowing what I'm writing is all so true
You ignore the meaning of all of this
But all I see is the first time we met
I don't know why this happened to me
Meet me for 5 don't let me wonder
All I want is for you to reflect on
That this for me isn't a show
Don't forget the moments we had
The day you left I was sad
   By Besnard Jn Leys

There's a haze-around the thoughts of you, a soft filtered glow,lighter in the corners and warm splashed flares that fill the frames.
Were there flowers in your veins, petals soaked blood that blossomed across your cheeks?
Maybe this is why your lips tasted of lavender. Are we the love we have made, are we more than the breath
that rose and the blush that spread and the shaking hands holding shaking backs?
I never knew my memory i could come saturated with texture and temperature and the sensation of your hands on my crotch.
I swear there is a garden chest
I know i can feel you blooming
I will trace the roots across your flesh, and i cannot stop licking my lips.

The achiever meets the benefactor.*
This can work quite well, provided that Cancer has no objections to the grand projects Capricorn frequently gets involved in and Capricorn allows Cancer to be in charge of their private sector.
Once they become attracted to one another, they're eager to solidify their relation and don't mind the prospect of building a home together. A family is fine, too.  They mean it when they commit.
But they continue to compete about the leadership and about whose plans should win when they have conflicting intentions. The relation can be noisy at times, when the two strong wills collide, but they can take it. It's a process by which they improve their relation, even when it seems like the very opposite.
Actually, they are both stimulated by it.  A lasting peace would make them confused and worried, sensing that something is missing and worrying that their love is fading.

ready to walk off the edges,
meet death like heath ledger
in a why so serious endeavor
no wonder a cyclone's furious forever
spit heat into ocean long ago
a sultan asunder
royal hurricane candy,
empty pantries,
a mother with a sweet tooth
weeps for her family.
a nauseating oder of mildew seeps
into good news
fancy
anger and regret
shared on set
get antsy,
hands up, waist deep
road a river.

Remember me with a smile on your face. Forget the bad parts- hurting me, uncertainty and almost losing our minds from not knowing where we were going. Forget my tears and the day you didn't eat because I ended things. Forget the fights and the bad jokes about leaving that weren't funny at all. Rather remember me by the good parts. Dancing together and kissing me at midnight in that little town street. Remember the smell of vanilla, oranges and jasmine on my neck. Remember laughing like old friends and the taste of strawberry fizzers as you waved goodbye on our first date. Remember the lace texture of my bra and the feeling of my fingers caressing your scar under your left eye. Remember how I looked at you - singing and playing on my piano. How I couldn't stop smiling whenever I saw you. And remember the park at night. City lights and the taste of cigarettes. Remember how whenever you said goodbye, I looked at you with big, disappointed eyes. Remember my voice at 2am over the phone and how you said you didn't know what to do because you liked me too much. Remember our bodies entwined and my breath on your neck. Skin on skin, under blankets and in over our heads. Hands and lips and teeth and it was just as emotional as it was physical. I adored you with every part of me- body, mind, heart and soul. Please know I had so much love for you. Feel it, hear it, taste it, smell it and look back and ask yourself, why you could never see it.

I have eaten the Sun.
Now I crave the Coming of the Yellow,
Starvation hunger  born within the heart of a star
I am forever Free.

Touch Me
I'm Yours....

Reason named St. Catherine's
Hiding place of Eternity
It is the Veil of Pleasure.

Meniscus of Opportunity,
torn by Willingness    
Heavens Journey
In the desire to mate with God.

How can I lie to Any
It Is this Communion that I seek..
Not as the Being
but as the Lover

Passive waters of the Soul
touched by Heavens Desire
I am Harvested Queen

Heart of Listening,
Fulfillment
as the Desire of Sound

Graced now pleasures
with the Ring of Adoration.

............

You can't run and you can no longer hide,
Sometimes you wonder if you can ever still fight.
When your only weapon is a broken blade,
And all your willpower is your glowing hate.
No, you cannot stay here,
You can't fight when you're overcome by fear.
As you feel the despair deepest in your inner core,
You know you must flee even once more.

Don't dare to cry,
Your tears won't take you high.
And don't you ever dare to fall,
Just stand there tall.

Keep on running,
Keep on fleeing,
Just keep on smiling,
Keep on hiding.