I am never loved
Safely.

There are always conditions upon conditions and expectations that never end.

And there is always at the end of every relationship and every friendship I've ever had,

"You're just too much."

Well ****** take yourself out of my life if you were too pathetic and weak to keep up.

Too scared of the booming thunder..
You cowards.

Pack your bags if you're not ready
To live in the wilderness
Of a mystic's heart
And let her rain beat down
Upon your bare naked skin.

Don't come to me expectating rainbows.

I am ******* darkness
With a fury buried so deep inside
From the constant rejections.

My grief and heartbreak
Have no qualms about
Striking you where you stand
With my raging lightning
And a scream that crackles
Against the sky.

I wake every morning
With a heavy body
And a burning heart.

I tire
By the end of every night
And I just want to hang
This burning desire
Up on the rack,
Like a soaked coat,
Dampened by utter confusion
And the turmoil that brings.

Even though
I pour salt water tears
On the coals
And watch the steam carry toward the sky;

It means nothing by sunrise.

With light of the sun
It sparks again,
The burn to understand.

The yearn I have to know
All that I Am
And the one who created it.