Beyond darkness
There is no light
I try hard to see
Even in the night

What is this light?
That all talk about
My eyes are restless
My vision is a doubt

I try to see the sun
With my bright eyes
Nothing as per reason
Maybe it's all lies

Yet, I try again to see
But this darkness
Won't fade away
Instead it's drowning me

Blind! That's what I am
Leaving in a world
With no light to guide
And hence being called,

The blind...

©sim

I loved you faithfully for years but you love another,
And told me to stop my feelings because it's a bother.
We were friends yet you chose someone else - - - her,
And said that she's the one,  the road to your forever!


Sometimes you held and kissed her gently in front of me,
I was standing there fighting hard to control my jealousy!
My eyes might flicker, my smile falter and my voice break,
Actions I could hide by sighing but feelings I never fake.


I wanted to shout to you "Please look at me and love ME!"
Or do something to set my emotions, my love for you free.
I wanted to run and passionately rain kisses all over you,
But as always white turned black and red changed to blue.



I am still here standing and that my heart isn't really aching,
Looking at you, I just only hear it  quietly and rapidly breaking.
You never knew that tears fall every night from thinking of you,
For despite all the pains you unknowingly caused, I still love you.

The moment I saw you walking towards me,
I was staring at your eyes.
It was sparkling, sensual yet passionate.
It caught me off guard.

The moment you share your life,
Little by little, I linger more.
As naturalistic ambiance seduces me,
Making me want you more.

The moment we walk in the night district,
It wasn't just an ordinary walk,
You keep on knowing me more,
Yet, I'm scared of letting you know.

I'm a slacky icky man, rather a woman.
You're a goddess fallen from the dawn
As we get closer and closer
I was so afraid in falling for more.

Would you rather be seeing me?
If giving you a chance,
To love someone like me?
It's a heaven pretending to be like hell.

love me now like you did before
Hold me tight and never let me go
Is the words that replay at 5:00AM
When I'm walking out the door
I took your heart and I broke it
Destroying love
Sabotaging feelings
Just to be alone
And cry myself a sleep
This is what you call Bittersweet

Looking at myself at the mirror
I see a girl that's been hurt
Broken trusted and lost of faith
I see a flower that has not yet bloomed
Fragile thing she is

Questions upon questions she thinks
Rambling through her mind she's confused
By people she love that's so called to be her life
Tears flow down the creases of her face
As a lake flows down a gentle creek

To think she would be full of life
Be able to light up a room as she walks in
Warmth vibe to others that couldn't explain it
Beautiful life created by God himself
It's ...

Continuing to not just the inner
But outside image that I see true
Carving and shaping this shell body
Hoping it would help improve this person in front of me ...
Do I need to say more

I hope
at least one versions of you
will fall for
one versions of me.

In this world you're either happy or sad there's no in between

Sitting, curved down
with my legs folded.
Dark cold, in ragged gown,
I've been scolded.

Hatred poised the innocent flower,
wilted the bud before bloom.
Eluded from its growing power,
and vased me in this dark room.

Several days without water and food,
the flower froze as in a frame.
Bonney structure lay as good,
player was done with his game.

No ashes sprinkled in my name,
No final words uttered in grace,
No one even came to claim,
And thus, closed went my case.

But I am, still not free,
from this bound of hope.
My spirit, searching for those three,
who later tied me up with a rope.

My spirit would not rest,
till all three are dead the same way.
Making them feel at their best,
I'll make sure, they all pay...



©sim