Hey, mom!
You are the woman
I adore the most
You said I am your treasure
But did I already told
That you are my worth and so
What is treasure without worth?

Daddy!
I am your little angel
And always will be
Even the day I marry
I wanna be called your baby
Your arms are my guide
I just wanna be by your side

What's up, big bro?
Remember the souvenir
You left on my forehead?
Dad almost killed you then, did he?
I'm laughing again
I could clearly remember
More fights than smiles
Yet I know deep inside
We are each other's ally

Every days of my life
I'll thank God
For knitting our paths
As an embroidery of a special love
And it's called family
You are my family;
My beloved;
My living Sanctuary

Everything so nice

Is untrue in my eyes

Am I blind?

Can't see the goodness behind


I'm a fool to believed

But it's better to be fool than to leave

The wonderland of our dreams

Where faded memories screams

If I am to be lost,
I want it to be in your eyes
If I am to be drowned,
I want it to be in your love
You're everything I see
Please, don't rescue me

and that is why
to be fool in love
is okay... I mean...
to smile for littlest reason
and sing lalala
the cheesy lines, PDA's
that's okay

but to fool your love
is never okay,
remember: you aren't a ****.








or are you? hmm

Ikaw ang takbuhan sa mga oras na walang wala..

Ang ibig kong sabihin sa walang wala ay yun bang walang wala na kong maibuhos na luha,

Walang wala na kong malapitan,

Walang wala na kong makapitan,

Wala nang gustong makinig,

Wala nang interesado, naubos na kasi ultimo ang para sa sarili.

Ikaw lang ang natatangi.

Ang lakas pala ng loob kong magalit sa mga mang-iiwan, naisip kong wala rin pala akong karapatan.

Ganoon din ako..

Binitawan kita kapalit ng kasiyahan.

Nakangiti ka sa akin habang hinahatid ako sa napakagandang hantungan.

Baligtad na ang mesa.

Nandito na ko.... muli.

Lalakad patungo sa iyo na may dala dalang pluma at papel

Iguguhit ang pait, ngingiti dahil ito na naman tayo sa puntong ito at hindi ko mahanap ang mga tamang salita

Nalimot ko na ata ang tamang pakikipagtalastasan.

Alam kong mauuwi na naman sa tipikal na kamustahan.

Hindi ko inakalang babalik tayo sa nakaraan habang umuusad ang mga kamay ng orasan

Mapagbiro.

Hindi ako handa sa pagsalubong ng taon

Bakit ko nakikita ang mga aninong matagal nang nilamon ng liwanag

Bakit muling nagdurugo ang mga sugat na matagal nang naghilom

Hindi ako naniniwala sa swerte.

Walang swerte. Walang sumugal na hindi natalo.

Buti na lang mayroon akong babalikan.

Ikaw yung kaibigan na hindi lumilisan.

Matagal ang isang taon,

Sumulat ako ng mga tulang kawangis mo

Binuo ko sila na parang mga bahagi ko

Akala ko ay tapos na...

Kung ang pagsulat ay paglaya, hindi ba dapat ay nakakalag na sa akin ang tanikala?

O mali.. baka wala talagang paglaya

Paano kung nililibot ko lamang ang malawak na hawla nang may huwad na pag-asa?

Minasdan ko ang obrang nilikha ng dekada,

Makulay, sa unang tingin ay puno ng pangarap

Parang nobelang nagsasalaysay, at kapag naroon ka na sa kasukdulan ng tunggalian,

Nanaisin **** isara ang pahina..

Makikiusap ang nobela sa isang pagkakataong sana'y siya ay tapusin hanggang huling kabanata...

Napaluha ako ng matindi dahil isa pa lang trahedya ang nobela.

Teka.. teka..

Buburahin ang ilang metapora.

Masyadong madrama.

Malayo sa imaheng gusto kong makita at ipakita

Ngunit tila hindi hawak ng aking kamay ang panulat,

Hinablot nang marahas ng pusong gustong kumawala

Ganon ata talaga sa muling pagkikita pagkatapos ng matagal na pagkakawalay...

Puno ng emosyon.

Magugulo ang burador, wala nang patutunguhan ang tula.

Hindi bale.

Hindi naman dapat na maging maganda ang porma ng tula,

Hindi importante ang sukat at tugma,

Sa susunod na babasa ka ng tula,

Nagbibigay ka ng tunay na pag-asa sa may akda.

Kasinungalingan ang bigkasing masaya ako, ngunit aaminin kong may tuwa, may katiting na pagsigla sa muli nating pagkikita,

Maraming salamat, Sining ng Malayang Pagsulat.

byernes.
isang araw lang pala ang hahatol
sa bawat oras na hindi tayo ang sandigan ng isa't-isa
isang araw na puno ng pagaalinlangan ngunit sa huli
ay natiyak ng puso kong hindi panaginip ang lahat
isang araw na tumapos sa lahat ng pangungulilang
akala'y hindi na mawawakasan
isang araw lang pala ang magtatanggal ng lahat ng mga takot
dahil paano kung sa pagtatapos ng araw na ito'y iiwan mo rin ako..
isang araw, at sa unang pagkakatao'y nahawakan ko rin
ang iyong mga kamay, sa iyong tabi natagpuan ang panibagong tahanan
wala nang kilometrong pumapagitan sa ating dalawa...
wala na mahal, pangako
at sa oras na matapos ang natitirang oras ng araw na ito
pangako, hindi na tayo kailanman paghihiwalayin ng tadhana
kahit pa humakbang na tayo palayo sa isat-sa
at kahit pa ilang kilometro nanaman ang sa atin ay papagitna
tandaan **** dala mo ang puso ko, at nasa akin ang iyo
naniniwala akong hihintayin mo ako at ganon rin ako
magtatapos ang marso bente dos ngunit hindi ang pag-ibig ko sayo
marami mang araw ang dumating ngunit ikaw at ikaw pa rin ang hihintayin


hanggang sa muli, mahal.

Midnight is a wonderful phenomenon
A transition of a last night and a new day
Just like how we said hello
When the night says goodbye
I never thought nor imagined
That I am destined
To meet such a lovely soul
I met my angel in the midnight
And everything's heaven since then

I hate the nights
when I'm missing you
and can't do anything
to hold you, to tell you
how much I really do
I just miss you
and can't help but cry over it
til it brings me to sleep
I used to love it
there's no pain when sleeping
but tonight, I found you there
and it's not a dream anymore
but a nightmare
of how you still
push me away in other world
but what I hate the most
are the sudden wake up's
when it's dawn, cold and lonely
then reality will remind me
my nightmares are reality

I saw the moon tonight
round, full and bright
it reigns over the darkness of skies
down to my almost teary eyes

The moon followed me home and
I imagined it was you then
it made me smile
If it's with you, I want another mile

Tonight, it is so sad and cold outside
I nevermind, I would beg the heavens all night
tell the moon to embrace you for me
If by chance that you looked up too and see

There I was, I stole the moon and wore it
distant, but every night when I miss you
I'll shine to you, and tell the stars to do it too
Darkness can no longer hide you away from me.

Movies.
Who does not like movies?
It is something that satisfies
Those dreams that will always be dreams

And so it was a tragedy
A tragedy ended in beauty..

still confused why sleeping hours
was dubbed as rest
and why do falling asleep
is just as scary as jumping on a dangerous cliff
how will I ever be at rest
whenever I lie down on my anxiety bed
all I feel is the burden of being pressed
through my mind and flesh,
weary, bothered and stressed
I was never at rest

Our universe always says no
But my heart will always go
Into the pockets of your soul
Like being yours is her role

This is not a romantic movie
But if you just notice me, I think it will be

-

if ever that you would meet
one of my poems again,
don't pay attention on the words
seek for my heart instead
then listen to whatever your heart says
and that's it..
the most precious thing in the world
let our hearts find its way back home
you own my poetry
so as you own my love

Thinking of something poetic,
All I'd think about is you..
You are my poetry.

Nasaan ang dulo ng walang hanggan
Hindi ko hinanap ngunit natagpuan
Nasaan ang pangakong binitawan
Ang daang madilim na iyong inilawan
Ikaw rin ang pumatay ng sindi
Sa mga tanong na ang sagot ay hindi
Ikaw ang aking inaasam na sana
Sana masilayan kita sa bawat umaga
Sana ikaw na lang, ngayon at bukas
Sana hindi nalang ito ang wakas
Nasaan ang dulo ng walang katapusang ligaya
Kapag ba naroon na sa puntong hindi na masaya
Bakit mo binago ang takbo ng tadhana
O siguro'y una palang, hindi na tayo ang itinadhana
Nasaan ka nga ba talaga?
Ibubulong nalang sa hangin ang iyong halaga
Ipipikit ang mata habang sinasambit ang isa pang sana
Sana'y bumalik ang kinang sa'yong mata, malaya ka na
Alam ko na kung nasaan ka ngunit bakit?
Pangako. Magkikita tayong muli sa langit.

2020 is not enough to love you,
Let me still do for another year and more
365 days of I don't know
But I'm certain that we'll pass it through
Because I love you and you love me too
To more prayers that we will share,
To more problems that we will fix,
To more tears that we will shed and wipe away,
To more laughters that we will have,
To more ups and downs that we will encounter,
To more fears that we will conquer,
To more adventures that we will say yes to,
To more celebrations that we will rejoice,
To more mourning that we will grieve,
To more dreams that we will dream,
To more achievements that we will achieve,
To more memories that we will make,

We will be there, we will do it all together

I know I'll die and when it comes
I want no flowers displayed
I will hate you if you offer flowers at my wake
Why didn't you do when I was alive?
When I can enjoy the moment,
When I can feel special and loved,
It's unfair for you to give me flowers
At the time when I am withered,
Couldn't breathe,
Not able to appreciate,
And not able to say thank you for it.

Have you ever felt nothing
While carrying so much heaviness
In your heart?
Have you ever said nothing
While having that deep desire to scream out loud
Have you ever understand nothing
Because you are continually hearing everything
That confuses you, your identity, your worth?
Have you ever see nothing
But blurry, shady, foggy made up truths

Wait wait.

Have you ever loved that nothing?

Because I'm starting to.

too relaxing but i can't sleep
this silence is sinking me deep
I smiled at the sky before i weep

she's wise -
but not in love
harshly aggrieved
badly deprived
gave everything
left with nothing
I told you...
she's wise
but not in love
she cared
but got scarred
she giveaway
but had sent away
she did best
til she became less
I told you
she's wise
but she did it
because she was in love.


she learnt.
better she get wiser
I hope, in love.

oh! where did I go
slamming the door of regression
taking a step forth progression
I'd dive into the sense of thousand fears
knowing that it was a million tears
would go anyway
that's the only way
the road that's breaking
is the path I'm taking
my legs are now tired
but my will was fired
.... like the gun
no, not fun
it was an unending maze
of nowhere but craze
don't worry, I'll take care
all they would do is stare
as I was running
but realized, I'm not moving

I was drowned in my memories
Of how everything used to be,
I built a big reservoir inside my heart
So I can vividly see and feel them
When they turn oblivion to everyone
When they turn oblivion to you

inside the cold body of the grinning devil
resides a weeping angel
handcuffed hands of torment
chained body of toil
angelic voice echoed as curse
poisoned and lingers through out
The devil will sin
while the angel still sing
psalms of praise and worship
There's still hope to find
for a good soul with a monster appearance
There's still salvation for the bad
Divinity is bigger than any evil
Near is the coming.
As the Day is approaching,
The hope will find us, the angel and the devil
O Iisoús Sozei.

I will gently strum your chords in the key of G
and sing the lyrics of my heart to thee
if you promise to listen very carefully,
so do I will play our music eternally.

We're just staying under the same roof
Eating the same foods, sharing the same goods
How about the "how was your day?"
How about the thank you's and I'm sorry
How about the hugs when we fail
How about the forehead kisses when in pain
You all just said I love you when all I want is to feel it
We supposed to be a whole
But over the years, we are just pretending
We are just pieces that has been gathering together
I am sorry, I ran out of adhesive 
Now, I am comfortable to watch us broken.

Para sa Pusong Iniwan
: A Spoken Word Poetry by Stephanie Dela Cruz

Umuulan na naman pala
Basa na naman ang kalsada
Malamig na naman ang dampi ng hanging nagmumula sa bukas na bintana
Gabi na rin pala, nalipasan na nang gutom,
Nakapatay ang ilaw sa kwarto, pero maya’t mayang binibisita ng liwanag ng kidlat
ang malungkot na gabi
Ang hirap pala ngumiti kung may luhang dumadampi sa mga pisngi
Nakakatawa kasi eh. Buti pa ang kidlat bumibisita
Buti pa ang kidlat, may hatid na liwanag, tapos yayakapin ka ng kakaibang lamig ng haplos ng hanging dala nito
Mabuti pa ang ulan, bumubuhos na parang malayang-malaya
Bumubuhos kasama ng mga luha
Bumubuhos kasama ng mga sakit na iniwan
Bumubuhos kasabay ng pagluha ng pusong iniwan.

Umaga na naman pala
Buti nalang nagising ng maaga
Haharap sa mesa, at kagaya ng nakasanayan, magtitimpla ng mainit na kape
Tatangkaing gisingin ang diwa, susubukang palitan ng init ang hatid na lamig ng gabi
Iba talaga ‘pag hinahatid ka ng sariling paghikbi sa kapayapaan ng mundo ng mga panaginip
Doon kung saan walang sakit, yung bang walang imposible
Heto na naman, panibagong araw
Araw-araw kong nasisilayan ang sigla ng sikat ng araw pero bakit dama pa rin yung dilim kinagabihan
Hindi pa rin matanaw ang liwanag
Tinangay mo kasi
Sinama mo sa pag-alis
Bakit naman kasi ang bilis? Hindi man lang ako nakapagpaalam

Tanghali na pala
Oras na ng kain.
At tulad ng dati, inaaya pa rin nila ko kumain
At tulad ng dati, tumatanggi pa rin
Kasi alam ko pupuntahan mo ko tapos sabay tayong kakain
Dun sa dati, sa paborito natin
Tanghalian na pala
Pero imbis na sa pagkain ay sa telepono ako nakatingin
Hindi man aminin pero sa loob loob ko’y naghihintay pa rin
Para sa iyong “kumain ka na ba?” o “Puntahan kita, kain tayo”
Hingang malalim, yung may kasamang matinding damdamin

Ilang tanghalian pa at malilimutan rin kita

Malilimutan ko rin yung ningning sa’yong mga mata kapag kausap kita
Yung mga biro **** corny pero tatawanan ko pa rin kasi habang binabanggit mo yun, natutuwa  ako
Natutuwa ako na kasama kita
Natutuwa ako na kausap kita
Natutuwa ako kasi akin ka
Natutuwa ako kasi ang cute mo, para kang batang masayahin
Natutuwa ako kasi magkasama tayo
Natutuwa ako kasi solo natin ang bawat sandali
Natutuwa ako kasi ikaw yan at mahal kita

Yun. Tumpak! Mahal pa rin kita.


Matagal na rin pala.
At hindi na tulad ng dati
Memoryado ko na lahat ng pasikot-sikot ng pagkatao mo
Ginawa kasi kitang mundo ko
Mahirap.
Masakit.
At para lang malaman mo, hindi kita kinabisado na tila mga salita sa paborito nating kanta para lang limutin
Mahirap.
Masakit.
Hindi naman kasi kita ginawang mundo para lang lisanin
Pero hindi naman talaga kita nilisan, mahal.
Ikaw yung nang-iwan
Ikaw yung sumuko
Ikaw yung bumitaw
At matagal na rin pala
Nung sinabi mo sakin na “Malaya ka na” alalang-ala ko pa. Yun yung panahon kung kalian ayaw kong lumaya. Ayaw kong lumaya sa pag-ibig mo. Gusto ko masintensyahan ng habang-buhay na pagkakulong dyan sa puso mo, sa buhay mo.

Pinilit ko kumapit pero kinalagan mo ako, pangako, pinilit ko pero pinalaya mo ako

Matagal na rin pala
Mahirap pa rin.
Masakit pa rin.
Ako nalang ang hinihintay. Siguro’y panahon na.
Para sarili ko naman yung palayain ko
Hindi naman siguro kailangang pilitin
Hindi naman kasi ganoon kadaling kalimutan ang isang taong naging parte na rin ng pagkatao ko
Pero para sa ikalalaya ng pusong iniwan
Para sa ikagagaling ng pusong lubos na nasaktan
Sisimulan ko na…..                makalimot.

Pero teka…


Umuulan na naman pala.
Wag naman sana pero ayan na, papatak na naman pala


Maaalala na naman kita.

I never met someone as beautiful as you
Enchanting, all that you do is lovely to me
I can't get enough of your lovely eyes looking at me
No number of kisses will be too much for me
I want them all
I want all of you,
I smile whenever I see you smile
Because it's the cutest thing I've seen
You are so special, how are you even real?
How are you even mine?
You are my great love, my great treasure
I love all of you, even the things you dislike about yourself
You are so perfect to me ♡

Kung may pluma lamang ang puso
Isusulat nito ng malaya ang mga salita
Na hindi mabigkas ng mga labing tikom
Sapat ang tinta nitong pluma
Pamalit sa takot na pumipigil sa sarili

Kung may pluma lamang ang puso
Hindi na kailangan pang pagtakpan ng ngiti ang bawat sakit
May buhay ang plumang ito
Alam niya ang kanyang silbi, ang maghatid ng katotohanan

Kung may pluma lamang ang puso
Isusulat nito ang bawat pagkakataong nais niyang tandaan
Mga alaala na dala ng kasaysayan

Kung may pluma lamang ang puso
Maipaparating niya ang bawat pintig
Ng ligaya o sakit
Malaya ang plumang ito
Walang magbabawal kung ano ang dapat at hindi
Walang pipigil sa pagkawala ng tunay na kulay ng bawat pintig nito

Kung may pluma lamang ang puso
Ito'y susulat ng tula na magsasabing ikaw lamang ang magiging papel na nais nitong sulatan

Kung may pluma lamang ang aking puso,
Ikaw ang nanaising maging papel
Malaya ang plumang ito at ikaw ang kanyang pinipili
Buhay ang tinta ng plumang ito
At sa iyo, bilang papel, nailathala ang pinakamagandang kasaysayan ng pag-ibig
Na binigyang buhay ng
isang pluma at papel

poems
aren't
a
big
deal
until
you
realize
that
it
is
written
for
you
and
meant
for
you

; I witnessed the diminishing
last glance of glimmer,
blast of galaxy in my own
rugged almond-brown iris
before it turn all pitch black
from a well-known being
to a now stranger soul
everything and everyone
turned into a total vacuum
but of broken pieces;
of broken promises;
of torn relationships;
of torn heart;
of glitched perception;
of glitched beliefs;
of shattered self;
of shattered life.

I then, see through my eyes
a total different land
eccentric logic of wisdom
everything I knew became untrue
like a pool of treacherous
I turned around til it focus
my eyes somewhere in event horizon
where there is no exact beginning
but certainly never-ending
oh Gaia, look what you've become
Look at your self
look at me
holistic brevity of keen evil
stealing happy pills
keeping on their hidden pockets
shining argentum of sharpened utensils
a girl wishing a nightmare
a boy doing the nightmare
i run, run and run faster
before I could ever sense danger
but the thing I realised
is that no matter how I runaway
the more I came closer to trap
my flesh reject the force
thrown helplessly on it
drowned in fiery of pleasure
this must be a false paradise
a dungeon of cruelty clothe in beauty
no one will truly admit
no one will ever notice
a need for freedom and peace
no, not the fake, short-term ones

an outcry for help from my voiceless mouth
Finally echoed in Foreverland
A Great Voice answered
In a very powerful splash of pure purity
That nothing and no one could withstand
Hoping in a certain foundation

I could finally see goodness
my eyes turned into color of life
tears of blood finally washed
wipe out all the imperfections
not even a single dust remain
people of the same eyes as mine are gone
to a much better place
moved to the permanent residence
my eyes witness perfection
no, not the fake, short-term one
eternal rejoicing
forever singing
songs of glory
End of mourning
Start of praising

i murdered him
my very first intention;
to end his life, his good for nothing life
my dagger is double-sided blade
and i stabbed him with no mercy
in my already lifeless, stonecold eyes
pulled it to the deepest depth
til his heart beat its final last beats

///.............../?????????

i tried to **** him
the version of him whom he hated,
the devastated him, the persona he never wanted
the one who bleeds a bad blood and suffers
the one who's dragging him to hell
the one who's taking him away from my arms
the part of him that's trying to **** the original him
and everything that makes him crave for physical death
i tried to **** him

and i never succeeded.

Second chances
Are not a chance at a second time
It is for a millionth
that been given in every second I see you
in your pleading eyes
leaving me astounded, heart melted
I can't take to throw you away
just the way you did to me
And tho every chances I've give
Is a chance I take away to myself
To receive what is best
It is never you, I knew it
But you are the chance I desire to have

i am an anxious overthinker
and that's not cool, i hate it

Look at the galaxies
Up upon the skies
Wait and see a meteorite
Whisper away your fright
say the adjectives of perfection,
the secret dreams of affection
Don't let this night pass
without receiving the joy that'll last
see the oceans of million lights
clothe it and illuminate the nights
You're meant to shine
An everlasting carbine
Show the world your beauty
You're not the trash they see.

If you wanna leave, then leave
But don't take my shattered heart with you

​i still hate the girl that i am obliged to deal with every single day
but i confess that still i wake up to give her another try
allow her to make mistakes
take the guilt, and apologize
for what's only accounted to her
allow her to breathe and take a break
allow her to cry when she's sad
allow her to burn when she's mad
allow her to love, to bleed in love
and somehow, to be loved
yes, i still do not like some parts of her
but i finally understood that
she is also human
and she is me.

she is nothing but a coward cry baby
for those who never witnessed her bravery
she is nothing but a burden
for those who do not pay attention to her soul
she is nothing but an anxious, ill woman
for those who has no intentions of knowing why
but she will continue to blossom
for those who believe that she is always worthy
she will continue to add some array of light
for those who hoped for her when she was hopeless
she will continue to believe that joy is real
for those who never leave her side when she was grieving
and she will continue to be a soothing kind of blessing
for those who prayed to receive a blessing like her

She is a catastrophe
of mixed tornadoes and thunders
She's always seen as destruction
in the eyes of the near-sighted
But over the massive fogs of doubts and distrust,
after the tranquility of her strong winds,
There is calmness in vibrant paradise of her love
And even it requires a long time and bravery to reach for her soul,
Do not stop.
I hope you'll travel a little farther against all of her odds
In the end, you will meet her again
Dressed in florals, blooming like a sunflower
Her smile is peace in a golden sunset

You have to meet her as a catastrophe
To be worthy of her beautiful love.

It all starts with I want to
Like
I want to gather myself
Even if it is parted into many pieces
I want to see myself
Ceasing the fire that is fed by insecurities
I want to be better
At being myself, not to be somebody else
I want to be that good daughter,
Even if I think I'm not that smart
I want to find peace and live it
Even it is too chaotic to start right now
I want to gather myself
And build all of these

It all starts with I want to
And I wanna end this with I will.

kung wari mo sanang kumalag
sa mga pangakong itinadhanang matibag
wag mo sanang limutin itong sinag
ng pag-ibig na nagbalik ng liwanag

nawa'y hindi pagsisisi ang kapalit
ng mga ngiting unti unting nawawaglit
bumuo ka ng isang sining na marikit
mula sa mga piraso kong lupaypay at gulanit

ngunit hindi ako isang malaking pasanin para sa iyo
hindi ako isang sumpang magdadala ng pagguho
hindi maaari, hindi ito ang nararapat sa iyo
maalaala mo sanang pag-ibig din ang paglayo


hindi ako nakakulong, ako ang tanikala
patawad, sinta, piliin mo ang lumaya

How many dives
Into the memory lane
Should I take
Just to finally
Fall asleep. 🙃

imagine, the time when we all learn the art of living
rather than just continuous breathing
there'll be no more lies
there'll be no more cries
we'll all have our sun shining through
and we'll look at the same skies of blue
peace will be at hand
and earth will be a happy land
wave farewell to the terror of the nights
terminated are the painful fights
For there will be no more battle
inside the heart of a love-filled human vessel
words synonymous to sadness will exist no more
genuine happiness will be felt down to its core
you'll be surprised at how forgiveness
could be the starting point of a new fortress
and it will be available for all
no more pain if anyone will fall
there in our paradise, you can sing and dance and groove
without the fear of judgment of how it is going to be not that good
there in our paradise, you can have enough sleep in peace
with still the urge to wake up, tiredness of minds will cease
there in our paradise, no complications to love
you don't have to wear a mask to be loved,
nor to pay for it, for to love only requires yourself
and in our paradise, there'll be no more lonely self
there in our paradise, no more broken nor complete families
For there will be only one, resilient over hundred calamities

yes love, I promise you all these.

what you imagine today, will be our paradise tomorrow.