We've been friends for ten years
and he's been loving me for nine.
I don't know what I'd call it
but I know his love is divine.

We've talked about the past and the present
to patch things up for the future
Still I wondered where we'd be
and what it is I would nurture

We've been through a lot of things,
tough times and whatever life brings
I know we're not in a hurry but there are things bothering me
If he'll leave again, where will I be?

He told me to trust him and to have faith
We still have time and he's not yet too late
Well then, I'll take the bait that we'll be just fine
After all, he's been loving me for nine.

Will you whisper to me those words?
Sweet words protected by Knights and conquered with swords?
Words prized by Queens from the revered lips of Kings?
Words soft and fragile as butterfly's wings?

Whisper to me those words while they are still true.
Whisper to me those words while they still hold the meaning of me and you.

Loving you is Happiness
A once-upon-a-time bliss
Granting a short-termed longing
Of my wishful soul

Loving you is Sadness
It's cruel, too afflictive  
Pounding my heart with pain
Blinding my eyes with tears

Loving you is Insanity
Stirring feelings that are not right
Keeping me up during the day
Giving me nightmares at night

Loving you is Paradox
Common sense can't explain it
Logic seems helpless
It's contradicting as it's true

Loving you is Death
The ruin of every song
The fall of my sanity
The undoing of it all

Love is gentle. Love is quite,
Like any distant star.
Love is beauty. Love is music,
Soothing as night winds are.

Love is patient and unselfish
Divine, true, neutral, fair
Love is ageless and immortal
Lost love is just somewhere.

And the heart that love abandoned
Nurses a tender scar
Softly stabbing, and yet still sweetly soothing
Just like the night winds are.

I've said it so many times. Do I have to say it more?

Are your ears that deaf not to hear my cries?
Are your eyes that blind not to see my tears?
Is your heart that hard not to feel my pain?
Are your hands that tired not to reach out?

Tell me.
Make me understand.
Don't leave me hanging in the limbo of questions.
Don't make me create things in my mind.
Don't make me shut everything down.

He was positive.
He brought out the best in me.
He made me realize things with wisdom and clarity.
He erased all insecurities.
He made me see the other side of the world with glee.

He was negative.
He brought out the worst in me.
He made me angry and mad with so much ingenuity.
He wounded my pride and distorted my complexity.
He burnt my patience until it was gone entirely.

He was neutral.
He never put blame on anyone or anything.
He stayed silent during the times my mind was on chaos.
He never took any sides though it was obvious I was at fault.
He remained to be a listener and gave judgment by default.

But in everything he was,
in everything he is,
he would still remain to be my "once twisted dream".