she told me that she feels useless
but i doubt she has the slightest glimpse of idea
what it is like to wake up every morning
and feel like the whole world is upside down
that every breath i take ignites my throat
and every sip of water drowns me
that i haven't felt like a human being for months
and i simply feel like i've lost my purpose to be alive
but has there ever been one
i am lost yet i don't want to be found
my demons beg me to run away
but how could i when i know that they'll come too
i have a desire to **** to destroy
i am a walking chaos
and no mather how hard i push myself
how hard i try to be human again
i fail and i am starting to give up

ох как искам да си тук сега
и да пеем глупави песни с цяло гърло
в 3 сутринта
без да ни пука кого ще събудим
искам да си тук сега
и да сме по пижами в 1 на обяд
да закусваме с пуканки
как искам да си тук сега
и да се бием с възглавници
да те прегръщам
и да не те пускам
да пеем и
да крия лицето си в одеялото ти
докато гледаме страшни филми
да седим до късно
и очите ни да се затварят
ох как искам да си тук сега
да те докосна
да сплета косата ти
и да те утешавам когато
изтървеш пента кил отново
по най-глупавия възможен начин
искам да пия горещо какао
в пет сутринта на терасата
докато ти седиш до мен
и искам просто да си тук
дори и да мълчим
искам да усещам присъствието ти тук

i live in a house with closed doors,
people who are so cold, so angry.
i hate this
i can't stand sane no more

oh, how i love
the music when it's so loud
that i can't hear anything
but it
and, oh, how i love
this cold night
how it embraces me
with all my flaws
and i miss the flowers
that used to grow in my mind
oh, they were so beautiful
but now they are gone
and, oh, i dream of a picnic
in the woods
with my three friends
and, oh, god, how can i
be so blind

And here we are again
after all these years
sitting on the same couch
it feels so good to be here right now
with you
drinking alchohol until we forget who we are
and how much time we've wasted
acting foolish and ignoring eachother
we're talking about the same ****
we did 2 years ago
and still i love listening to the same story
over and over again
even when the music is loud
and  i can't hear you
oh baby i've missed you so much
don't leave me again