I sure wish
you'd uv
come over
today

but I think
I told you
not to
bother

Have I explained
how smart I am



Copyright@2019 Dennis Willis

i never know
what to say
i try my best
but i fade away

i'm so lonely
i want to talk
i have no friends
so instead i stalk

come over here
i think in my head
no one hears
so i lie in bed

I fell today and my leg has a bruise,
But I don't need to say this to you.
Not like you care.

I woke up earlier than usual today.
But you knowing this has no use anyway.
Not like you care.

I was there for you when they weren't.
Yeah telling you this hurts.
But it's not like you care.

Give me extra pills to borrow.
And I won't be here tomorrow.
Not like you care.

We've been together so long.
Ive never been the type to wear makeup or a dress
so why are you so surprized when I tell you I'm a man?
I have not changed who I am
Just...what I am.

You are trying so hard to understand,
To except the things going on.
All that plus your daily life
I understand this is hard.

You've always liked my *******
My wide female hips.
I'm so so sorry,
But I cannot pretend anymore.

I tend to fall into a complacent obsession
Over unhealthy attachments

That will lead to me self-harm

And carving suicidal thoughts along

The dotted lines of my veins

Just so I can portray my favorite role

Once again -
The victim

I hope one day it’s just a memory and not an activity.