I prayed,
and you came.

I'm still praying,
but I know He'll take.

All those caterpillars
that became butterflies
had turned back into caterpillars
after all those times.

All those times
we spent as lovers
have come to this now our honeymoon stage is over,
the Law of Diminishing Returns is taking over.

What is it, you ask?
I'm no lawyer to take just,
but I'll explain it to you my love,
everyone goes through this, not just us.

Economists says,
the more you have something,
it worth to you less.
That's what we are, that kind of being.

The more we spend time together,
the less the pleasure.
The more we give,
the less we appreciate.

But hey, don't fret.
It doesn't mean we don't love each other,
or that we love each other less,
It's just nature, I guess.

I think it's a good thing,
to have this kind feeling.
Since I have the tendency to be obsessed,
this, I think is for the best.

Also to prevent from being satiated,
or from being dependent,
to stand up with our own two feet,
and from time to time, miss a kiss.

Because we cannot give what we don't have,
we should learn what they call the greatest love.
It's to love yourself so you can love,
with it, you can give all the love you have.

If I am complete and you are as well,
we can support and love each other very well.
Without missing a piece of our identity,
without having doubts in ourselves.

So this law, my love, is just a proof,
that we are getting more mature.
In our love we are more sure,
that whatever obstacles, we can endure.

I gave her three roses

Firstly, a true rose
Fresh with its thorns
But I don't want her to think
That like the rose, my love will die and shrink

So I gave her another rose
A plastic rose
One that won't die and is forever
She won't think of it as fake, that's what the first rose was for

My love has no equivalent price
So I gave her the third prize
I learned how to make an origami rose
And made it in front of her, to symbolize my love is full of effort

I gave her three roses
"I love you" was what it says
And she was a rose
Loving her was loving her beauty and the pain of hugging her thorns

Tick tock tick tock
Our love, it's like a clock
With a battery about to wear
It causes paranoia I swear

Tick tock tick tock
Our love, it's like a bomb
Not knowing when it'll explode
We accepted it and explored

Tick tock tick tock
Like a medicine soon to expire
Taking it like my life, on it relies
Overdosed, like I wanna die

Tick tock tick tock
Like every New Year's countdown
But this has nothing to celebrate for
It's the time when our hearts will mourn

Tick tock tick tock
It is God's way to mock
I am just a human; He is God
I cannot do anything but to just absorb the shock

I saw you staring blankly in your room
You were lying down, like energy has nowhere to bloom
Mama always deliver you food
You don't eat with us anymore

I heard you cried, Mama told us about it
I understand why and my heart wrenched
I wish I can do or say something, anything
But I don't know what act or words will be soothing

I know your body misses to puff that smoke from a cigarette
It is hard to stop, friends who've been there told me about it
But you had to, we've been telling you to
And because your body is also disappointing you

I wonder where your sweetness has gone to
Maybe they literally seeped into your blood and runs through
Maybe I had inherited it in my veins too
Don't worry I am proud, because this is from you

Worrying has been your hobby lately
Because our youngest still has one more year 'til she finishes her college degree
The house, electricity, water expenses, and the money
Because you could work no more, as per your exhausted and old body

I wanted to tell you that everything's gonna be alright
But, Papa, I cannot lie
I honestly don't know if it will
I am also doubtful, I am also worried

But Papa, as your eldest, I am ready
To take on the responsibility you carried
I know, I know, it'll be heavy
But I can do it, don't worry about me

You have worked hard enough
See, we already came this far
If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have had
The best family I can wish for, and the best of life

So please, be energetic again
Please eat with us again
Please dry your tears
Please get well

Please tell us those sweet-nothings
Or the corny jokes that had us laughing
And we'll tell you, you're still the most handsome being
Our eyes have ever seen

So get a lot of rest
This is just an obstacle, a test
Sit back and relax
Just watch your eldest, just watch

I'll take your hand and shake it
Congratulate you and inside my pocket
I'll take a letter that contains this
Little message I call a poem

I'll give it to you and then
I'll probably smile weakly but it's genuine
All my best wishes to you I'll send
Then I'll leave, holding my tears as much as I can

You see I wrote this way back when
She was mine and I was still her present
For some reason something happened
A battle we can never ever win

But anyway the reason I wrote this
For you and for her, but mainly for my peace
Cause there are things you should know, you really need
So jot down notes and to me you should heed

You should learn the art of making surprises
Not to force it to you, but that's what I've started
You should continue, so that she won't feel different
It doesn't matter what kind, just be consistent

Don't write her poems
I would like to leave that gesture as mine
To separate myself from you and from them
To trademark myself in her mind

Understand her vanity, it's what defines her
Support her confidence, don't make it crumble
She'll share this within you, you'll soon discover
So, won't you agree she's the most beautiful?

Be open to her, tell her everything
She likes to tell stories, make sure to listen
Be funny, keep her smiling and laughing
Even if being stupid is what it means

There will be times you'll feel unsure
Just always be reminded of your love for her
Do not let your love and faith falter
As her love for you will vanish next to never

Don't ever hurt her, oh don't you dare
Do remember that I still care
I will have the upper hand in case
You won't have it fair and square

Finally, love her like you'll never love again
Give her your full loyalty and be firm as you can
Because she is worth it and that is what she deserves
You'll never find anyone like her I swear

But still after all I wrote
I prayed that I won't need to pass this letter on
That I'll just keep this letter to myself
And will reread this in the future as a reminder

Because I don't want to leave her side
I don't want to be just her past
I want to be her present and future
And somehow prove that there is forever

However, if you were true
On second thought, I won't be giving this to you
No, because I don't want you to have a clue
Because I'll be bitter if she and I were through

Now, I am not even sure why I'm writing this
Maybe, just in case, I give this warning
To myself and to you, a future intruder
Or maybe, to at least have myself a souvenir

I thank you for being her past
And for not making it last
For all the heartaches you cast
For being her eyes’ ***** dust

I thank you for making her like you
To be close to the one you love true
In a short time you made her fall for you
Even though your intentions weren’t true

I thank you for all her friends who turned their backs on her
Also to those friends you hurt whom she hold dear
Thank you because she held back liters of tears
Because of you, she gained a lot of fears

I thank you for taking advantage of her weakness
Because of that you had her first kiss
She was fond of that memory the least
To the extent that she wanted it all to be erased

I thank you for making her like and love someone as useless as you
I can say I’m better than you with a slight difference in value
Because in front of her or not, I always stay true
Even if it took a long time, I waited for her to say I do

I thank you, for she found her real friends
Those who won’t ever leave no matter what happens
She treasured more those who stayed in every means
She knew who were for keeps, and it all made sense

I thank you for that ugly first kiss
No worries, I replaced it with more bliss
It was so magical; she considered it her first
I sealed her lovely lips with my lips

I thank you for all those hard times
She became much stronger after leaving it all behind
I became her outlet, to me she sometimes cries
But I make sure after that, she’ll brightly smile

I thank you, you who almost got a wonderful girl in your hand,
You probably had the girl, who any man would want
That’s why I thank you for not giving a ****
To the girl who I truly love with my soul, heart and mind

Yes you are!
Why do you think otherwise?
Forget the future and the past
You are the present, you are the now

You may have thousands of foe
But no one can remove you from your throne
No force can revoke
The spotlight is yours

You are the chosen one
She chose you over thousands
Realize the advantage you have
Utilize the power inside

No need to fear
No need for insecurities
Not even jealousy
Neither things you foresee

For they are veils
Used to keep you from knowing
That you are the protagonist, the prince
The one who'll save the heroine

-

*I am writing this to you
Me, the confident version of you
You have probably forgotten about me
So I'll have you take a good look at me

Because I need to end your trilogy
The last one is full of negativity
I'll take the steering wheel and shift gears
I'll take it from here

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but the date of a user's membership to Hello Poetry is also a factor.

If a user is a new member, it is much easier for his/her poems to trend.
It is a cool thing because trending acts as a form of encouragement.

However if you've been a member for a while, having your poem trend is harder.
Which is a cool thing as well because you already leveled-up and its now a challenge!

My poems rarely trend
Guess I'm not a trend-setter

Many years were wasted, dreams that were broken
We cannot go back like molded bread
I've been enduring, I've been waiting
For your fire to rekindle again

Do you think you're the only one who regretted it?
I've brought butter for our bread, but its too late
The fire you said I had lost
You're oblivious, its the fire you had blown

Are you tired of bringing me home?
Are you tired of hearing me mourn?
I didn't mean to exhaust you
I just want you to notice me too

After a tiring day, I have to fetch and bring you home
If not, we'll end up fighting very soon
That's what's exhausting, 'cause I too, have things to mourn for
Which you never noticed, 'cause your hands are already full

I said, "This is enough.", you said, "I'm tired."
I ran away, tears fell even without a try
Unanswered questions, "Aren't you going to run after me? Don't you love my anymore?"
I never looked back, but how I wanted you to not let me go

You said you've had enough, I said "I'm tired"
To hold my tears and run after you, oh I'm very tired
Unanswered questions, "Don't you want to stay? Don't you love me anymore?"
You never looked back, but how I wanted you to stop so I can hold you close

If I can bring back the time
If I can bring back the time
I won't run away anymore, I'll stay and tell you I love you*
I'll run after you and stop you to tell you I love you.

In life there are puzzles that remained unsolved
Words that were left unsaid even if you're bold
Things you wished for yet you can't get a hold
Things that will keep you thinking, life's too cold

Will the great sun take its chance?
To close the gap of their distance
Towards earth, it'll make its love begun
Which can also result to earth be gone?

If only gravity would be reverted
So that rain won't be the one falling instead
So that the other way can also be tasted
By the one who has always been falling dead?

If a bird and a fish fell for each other
Who's willing to lose its breath to be together?
Wouldn't being apart much better?
Though it'll lead their hearts to death closer

A dog has always been a man's best friend
But even loyalty can have its end
Especially when the master himself can't mend
The longing of a slave to be more than a friend

An author writes what's in his mind
Creates a character of a different kind
Later on wishes for it to exist in real life
Though he knows it won't happen, deep inside

Once upon a time
There were fairies called, V fairies
Fairies who were so beautiful and fine
It was magical, their existence

They lived inside maidens
Who were ought to protect them
In return, the fairies embodied them
With purity as shiny as a diamond emblem

These fairies were sought by every men
For they are the greatest gift that can be bestowed to them
That's why they seek for the perfect maiden
From whom this wish, they can attain

The maidens were set on a journey
To find warriors who are worthy
Warriors who love sincerely
And will vow to cherish them for eternity

The fairies those times were well-respected
They were treasures almost impossible to find
The fairies were boldly protected by their maidens
They are only given to those truly worthy ones

Fast forward to this generation however
Through time, the maidens eventually are weakened
They have let their guards down
And thought all men were worthy of the crown

The V fairies are not given anymore
They are forcefully taken, oftentimes with gore
They are taken due to curiosity, or worst
Taken because of lust, then perpetrators disappear like ghosts

Fairies became men's collections
More fairies, more rights to boast
More manly they are than before
More wins at the competition they build on their own

Maidens lost their credibility as the fairies' protectors
They didn't care about them, like they're not part of them anymore
Throwing them away when they're bored
Not caring if many men do hoard

V fairies were not gifts anymore
V fairies were taken away even without the promise of forevermore
V fairies were simply picked up like on a shopping galore
V fairies were disrespected, to adore no more

But there are beliefs that some of the fairies survived
Living within maidens who stood firm and with their best, tried
To find worthy ones and battle with the wicked
To let the fairies stainless and protected

There are beliefs also that worthy warriors are still there
Who still respects and cherish the value of the diamond emblem
Who knows how to wait until the fairies are given to them
And knows how to take care of their chosen maidens

With these beliefs there's still hope for the future
That the responsibility of a maiden to its fairies will be nurtured
A hope that this will be passed on to generations after
In a hope that V fairies will have a happily ever after

The way we dress
The way we deal with our feelings
The way we talk
The way we walk

Our hairstyles
Maybe even the activities we want to try
The people we fall in love with
And the people we chose to stay in love with

Everything is because its comfortable for us
Everything is because its who we are
And we don't want to hide anymore the truth
But this gives chance to others to persecute

To others, it seems we are wrong
Maybe we are, but who'd really know?
Even though we never pointed fingers at anyone
But what we seem to them is a walking wardrobe malfunction

Friday, 11:00 PM
You said we got to get going
Wait, what? What, wait.
I haven't even started yet

We started walking against my will
As crowds started piling
My throat is drying
But I gotta speak

With weakened knees
I say my feelings
I couldn't even explain
What, why, how, when

You say you don't know
You say you're not sure
Believe me, me too
Take your time to think things through

Saturday morning
I was full of bliss
I've conquered my fear
I was full of cheers

Things stayed the same
No awkwardness to blame
We will remain as friends
I'm fine with that ending

Sunday evening
I started to regret
I shouldn't have said it
I shouldn't have made you think

I thought the truth will set us free
But it only did to me
It caged you to see
Futures with uncertainties

My feelings caused you turmoils
I should've been the only one who suffers
Because I selfishly uttered words
That should've remained gagged in silence

Here is the risk I've taken
Spiting me right in my face
Was it even worth it?
To have you experience unintentional pain

Back to Friday, 11:00 PM,
My throat should've dried up to the extent
That it can't speak
That it won't speak

Take me back to Friday, 11:00 PM
My knees should've been so weak
That I wasn't able to make it to our meeting
And this, wouldn't have happened

Monday, as another weekday starts
We can hear both virtual pens being dragged
To courageously write words that are cowards
'Cause my knees will probably be spineless from this day forward

To be a good writer or a poet
You have to be good at wearing shoes other than your size
Size 1, 2, 3, up to size 10
Even if it falls off your feet or too tight, you just have to try

Not only shoes, also all other kinds of footwear
From socks, sandals, flip flops, and slippers
High-heeled, boots, flippers and sneakers
Even barefooted, if there's nothing else to wear

Then, walk with it, run with it
Feel the calluses and feelings it brings
Up until its soles are wearing thin
Then, write the experience

We need no one's approval.
We are poets, not pleaders.

When your poem doesn’t work
Or you cliché lines make you look like a dork
Neither your sweet words got her head turn
It seems you were so hot and her tongue got burned

When she didn’t react with what you said
Though for her heart to throb, it was meant
When it wasn’t brought on topic yet
Maybe it was too worthless she forget

When she’s not in the mood to reply back
When it seems you’re talking to someone whose mouth is shut
When simple smileys from her are all you got
When you messaged her a whole lot

Fear not and keep calm
Maybe most of it is all in your mind
Stay cool and try to understand
Be reminded to be as patient as you can

“She’s probably busy
But she even sought time to text a smiley”
Chant that to yourself and be as positive as you can be
Because getting emotional isn’t the key

Take time to ask her what’s wrong
You’ve probably done something without knowing so
If that’s the case, whisper a “Sorry” or sing a song
Make her feel that you’ll never let her go

It’s better to trust then regret
Than doubt then regret
“I love you”, in those words of her, you should always place your bet
Believe in her instead of your weak speculations, that, you shouldn’t forget

Who are you?
Are you the one inside rock sanctuaries?
Built from pennies without taxes?
Made by white-robe-wearing prisoners?

Who are you?
Are you the one preached by those on the streets?
Those who wear dresses and suits
By those who ask for money without receipts?

Who are you?
Are you the one described by those thick books?
The one who is mighty and all good?
Omniscient and wiped off all those who are rude?

Who are you?
Are you the one who's love is unconditional?
Yet the one who said there's only cold and warm?
The one who denies the existence of something lukewarm?

Who are you?
Are you the one who's perfect?
But you created what everyone called "mistakes"
The one who said those mistakes' feelings are fake?

Who are you?
Are you the ultimate judge?
The one who taught to point out faces with muds
Without first looking in the mirror which is a must?

Who are you?
Everyone is presenting their own clues
Who are you?
Even though they know no one is really a hundred percent true

I believe I know you
Not because of scripts
Or from others' beliefs
I just somehow feel I know you

Others might not believe the 'you' I know
Because they have their 'you' of their own
But I will not shove my 'you' down their throats
Just to reign their 'you' as the ultimate truth

Who would usher
the ushers?

Who would protect
the protectors?

Who would support
the supporters?

Who would sing
for the singers?

Who would give
for the givers?

Who would write
for the writers?

Oh my Cassiopeia
My queen; queen of Aethiopeia
Yours is an unrivaled beauty
No one can complain about your vanity

You love me
I love you more
Cepheus your king, how I wish I would be
To be with you forever and sit beside your throne

No, I'm not Cepheus; he probably is yet to come
I wish I'm your Cepheus, but I'm not even an Adam
But I can be your Cepheus if you let me, yes I can
Though I can't see your constellation from where I am

You can boss me around
Toss and turn me upside down
You can throw tantrums, those I won't mind
Forget being king, I'll be fine as your servant

You're a constellation, still I'll make a wish
Can I wish forever? No? Then let me love you at least
Let our love blossom, 'til my last breath vanish
Maybe I'll also become a constellation next to you, like what happened to Ray and Evangeline

XCIX + I
= C
100 poems down
100 poems written without regret

A, B, C, D, E, F, G, H, I, J, K, L, M, N, O, P, Q, R, S, T, U, V, W, X, Y, Z*
I've used them all up, is there more to say?
Ah, just wait and see!
Special characters, numbers, oh yes I have more than yesterday!

I love you so much
Said you love me as much
But on the way to earth's hell
Because we were persecuted
People said you were with me
But you firmly denied me

You still haunt my dreams
Turn it into nightmare
As if you still own it

Like the undead
You still walk my mind
In there, you should already be gone

I already killed you
I did right?
Or it wasn't bull's eye?

And so again I'll raise my ******
Ready to hit you in the head
This time, I won't miss