The Winter Jester

Sep 2016

m i a

i didn't want you to leave,
it's just that my thoughts and anxiety,
got the best of me,
i begged you to stay in my mind,
but my mouth was saying otherwise,
i was yelling at you,
screaming lies,
but if you listened a bit harder,
you would have heard my heart's cries,
i really didn't want to let you go,
i guess
i just wanted you to know
.

i'm sorry, i love and miss you all very much. ♡

#love #friends #self #hate #anxiety #stupid #lovers #sorry #apology #forgive

Sep 2016

m i a

i'm a f r a i d

the dogs are barking even louder than before,
it seems as if though america is waging war,
everyone is locking their doors,
no one knows who to trust anymore,
i'm sitting here looking left and right,
not knowing why there are all of these fights,
it's getting harder for me to sleep at night,
my nightmares are getting worse,
this life is a curse.

i'm afraid for this generation. i'm afraid for the world. humans ruin everything.

#war #afraid #teen #young #you #me #us #humans #worried #recent

The Winter Jester Sep 2016

9/11/2001

Tuesday, September 11, 2001, a sad day in American history a day of grief and mass lost. A day of confusion and fear. A day where more than fear itself was to be feared.
The September 11 attacks killed 2,996 people and injured more than 6,000 others. Deaths included 265 on the four planes, 2,606 in the World Trade Center and in the surrounding area, and 125 at the Pentagon. These deaths were cruel and unnecessary. These people died early than they had to. 40 brave men and woman took down a hijacked plane to stop it from possibly crashing into the white house or the capitol building, where congress was in session that day. A total of 44 people died on that plane, that includes the 4 hijackeres. A memorial was built for all the deaths on that day but it will never be enough for the people who lost their friends and family.

#honor #sad #past #memory

May 2016

m i a

[ opening up again ]

i slowly began to open myself up again,
so i can see the galaxies flow from within,
so i can see the stars fall apart,
just like my heart did,
the only bad thing about this is,
i'm going back to where i started.

this is a personal poem, so most of you wouldn't understand this.

May 2016

m i a

[ you're going to be okay ]

sometimes,
we have to isolate ourselves,
from the world,
to truly defeat,
the demons under our feet,
the nightmares,
that won't let us sleep,
and the negative things,
that make us weep,
in order,
to keep
our minds awake,
so our terrible thoughts,
will stop causing our eyes,
to create lakes,
and so,
our lips will pause it's mistakes,
and so,
we can remind ourselves that we'll be okay.

i've been losing to anxiety so much lately, but maybe i just need some alone time, to strengthen myself. im going to be okay.

#anxiety #her #him #you #me #tired #emotionally #them #mentally #physically

The Winter Jester May 2016

Question(2)

If I killed myself tonight, what would you do?

Meant to be a questions from someone you love more than anything else.

#suicide #pain #death #question #perspective #deep #simple #reactions