Do I want you?
I know you want me,
But do I want you to?

You're gorgeous and fun
Whilst I'm silent
Ready to turn away and run

Has it been too long?
Am I too far gone?
Because I can't hold on,
To this neverending sad song

Can't go to sleep again
This is when I miss c*caine
Or anything else
In my brain
In my veins
To numb the pain
Before I go insane

But I've come this far
Hanging by a thread
Looking for a missing star
One amongst the dead

I wish I could show you
The real person inside me
The things I truly can do
And who I can be

I've always been lurking
As well as searching
Through the darkness
Of my soul's promise

"We'll be united once more"
Oh how death I would adore
To melt down to my core
Or wash up cold ashore

See the expressions of apathy
And see mal-sympathy
I've broken and I've torn
Around me ever since I've born

I miss't to feel numb
I used to be so fun
Nowadays I've been shunned
From all that I want

So this' what I've become
Someone with seams undone
So I'd understand
If you'd reprimand
All that I am
And ever will be
For I'm only sand
Blowing away at sea

When the clouds moved away
I could see the sun again
First the rays carried words that
Spoke in a form I cannot give
To the paper I write on.
You made those words clearer,
I had to utter them in a way, I
Knew others could understand.
I started with the things I
Wanted, but ran empty again.
You gave them more meaning
In my head, than I could on paper.
My poem had to end, but my
Heart kept those tiny whispers close
Forever

My fountain pen
Has gone dry,
But when I dipped it in ink
For a second try
I couldn't utter
What I needed to
Nor what I wanted to

I know not where I am
Neither do I know
Where I need to be
I know who I am
And what I want to become
But there's many more
That needs to be done before
I will be the person I want

I'd say I see galaxies in you eyes, but dear, your beauty cannot be limited to a few billion years to burn out
No
I see the big bang in your eyes
The start of life,
Of something precious

I wish, I wish
I never played your game
I wish, I wish
I never knew your name
I wish, I wish
I never abandoned *******
I wish, I wish
I could get rid of this pain,
clear up my brain
And cleanse these veins
I wish, I wish
I wasn't going insane

I can still see the stars in her eyes
And I can feel the skies in her hair
I long for her touch
And I miss her too much
Although we can never ever be
I still want her near me;
It causes me much pain
Yet I go and se her again
Just to feel like another galaxy
Has been born within me

My mind:
Filled with memories
Of unkind
And remedies
For pain

My brain:
Is going insane
By the very thought
Of any distraught
Coming to you

It's a war in here,
I need you dear

One day the gods will stumble,
The universe will crumble,
Death tolls will be double,
Earth will only be rubble,
And gravity will be fubble

The same day the oxygen will become toxic
As will trust
Become trustable

When you're dehydrated
And get that cold feeling inside
You'd never expect
That it's the same feeling
As when you're heartbroken
Or just grieving the process
Of suddenly being alone;
Just a few pills
And I'll be okay
I'll be o...kay

You have an unique aura,
A fluorescent light if I may
Keeping me calmer than Buddha
And leaving me with nothing to say

The problem is;
You're not here
Or maybe you are and I don't see
And the pain is sheer
Brighter, the dark may some day be

Today was dark, and I fear tomorrow may be too
Today I really needed you, and tomorrow I might  too