What I can't seem to figure out
Is that
When I look at you
My heart lights up
It burns bright and fierce
Sharp and strong and thrilling
And yet
My mouth turns down
My eyes frown
And the singing flame in my heart
Burns like shame across my cheeks
The gears in my head freeze
Even as my heart begins to melt
My flesh crawls
Even as it tingles
At the thought
Of you on my skin
I want you close
Even as I want you far
I want to let you in
But I can't

• You're not a burden
• It's ok to be struggling
• It's ok to tell people you're struggling
• Please tell people you're struggling
• Don't suffer in silence. Tell someone. Get help
• It's ok to need help
• The world is more beautiful because you're in it
• You are worth it
• Thank you for existing
• You're beautiful
• Please stay alive
• If you're looking for a sign not to **** yourself, this is it
• People love you
I love you

Maybe roses having thorns isn't the issue,
Maybe it's our need to touch everything that's beautiful

i'm always okay

I am no longer mad at you
I forgave you a long time ago
I just know you will never change
That's why I had to let you go

I wish upon eternity
For how things used to be
I wish upon eternity
For life as younger me
I wish upon eternity
For a trip back to when happines was reality