It was an ugly face you turned on me
It was a heartbreak in secrecy...

He painted his face each morning
In the most eccentric colors.
To make her forget the dullness
Of the world around her.

-Toska

Yes, I deserve spring.

I did not know I had a heart until you broke it

At night as I lie awake I beg
To let me live as many lives
As there are stars in the sky

When she forgot my name, even the earth had trouble carrying my heavy heart.

I hate them for making me hate myself

Clouds often make me wonder if I could suddenly disappear too

With bare hands
And nothing to lose
Into the air
I built a tower for two

Only lately it has just been me
My head it hurts
Where have you been?

If people were colors

You would be bright blue

And as a simple grey

I would probably get lost in you

The only thing that makes me cry is the time that keeps passing me by

The walls knew,
My pillow too,
How much I missed you

And this time when he screams tears from his throat he lets himself cry too.

In the eye of the storm
I found your glistening ones

And in the midst of the chaos
We sat hand in hand

And watched as
Destruction enveloped us

I saw a man and his drowning dog walking in the rain
Teardrops on his cheeks and a storm raging in his brain

And, no,
I don’t want to forget
The talking
About everything and nothing,
The nights
Dancing under the moon and
The days
Laughing under the sun.
I don’t want to forget
But I can’t bring myself to remember.

And when the lover of the stars
Found himself on the deepest pit of the ocean
He finally understood that all his life long
He had made the wrong choices

I'm haunted by a life
Of what if's and could have beens

giving meaning to meaningless things is like drinking poison
it makes you hollow

I threw myself into the deep. Little did I know it would scar me, climbing out.

A day from you is far to many
My worn out heart is not yet ready
Tonight as I stood shivering on the dock
Tears on my cheeks, with every breath a cold fog
Horns were blaring as you were being taken by the tide
And I wonder if it’s possible to freeze inside

On a sunny afternoon in the midst of june
You finally found the courage to tell me
What you had only told the moon

The tide hit her forever unexpected
Loss and love took equal turns
The waves had always been a hard thing to face
Drowning terrifies her but she'll always love the ocean

'What is the greatest tragedy of life?'
The young girl asked curiously

'Forgetting' whispered the old lady

Ask the ceiling then,
Ask the ceiling of my blank bedroom
How many times I have whispered your name at night

He's like a sea I can't seem to navigate in
It's wind ever changing cours

You could've turned heaven into hell
With just one burning yell

Sometimes I wish life to be
A little different than it is
I would rather run with stars
Collecting light instead of money
I would rather drown in minds
Exchanging words instead of worry
I would rather smell like life
Inhaling air instead of numbness
I would rather sound like music
Wander together not alone

I wish my lungs were like the nightsky, with stars that light the whole thing up. I wish they were a mellow meadow, flowers blooming to the top. I wish my lungs were like a forest, vivid and so evergreen, as morning light sweeps in.

But in my chest they found a hole. So black and starved of life, that tears formed in their eyes. So now when I breathe and feel nothing;

I think of nightskies and meadows and forests

To feel, or not to feel, that’s the question.

I knew it because I was sure and I was sure because I knew it

And then at once as sudden as he had left, he came back, and with him colour.

the love in him it cries for you
yet you left him bare and blue

so he starts to build his walls
so afraid, that he will not survive another fall

now stones have replaced his loving heart
and you should know, i will never forgive you for that

The smell of pine trees and the rain
Always makes me wonder
If I should have given us another chance
After that magical summer

Green of jealousy
Whereas instead we should be
Feeling sick of pride

I love the rain
I hate myself

Oh my love even the walls wheep for us, the ghosts cry too

lately the smoke in my head has been getting cloudier

i’m afraid i can’t keep up either

I inherited my mom's anger, and my dad's kind of laziness.

It’s winter and the snow embraces my already cold heart
And while I’m walking through white weeping woods
Where lust and laughter is forever doomed
I can’t help myself from thinking back to the time
When the sun lightened the world and you were still mine

And I was willing to spend eternity’s alone
If that meant that I could have you now
The memory of you would forever be better
Than to have never known you at all.

i had hopes as well as aspirations and dreams. but as the river still steadily flowed through the streams. i did nothing to make any come true. now i guess that the time is due. before i had realised, the river was dry and i don’t feel enough anymore to even let myself cry.

For my moon,

I'm forever sorry that for you
Morning came to soon

A toast to life
Sad and confusing but beautiful at last

Oh, what a courage it takes to live in a world full of cowards

And if your heart is a house on fire
A fireman I'll be

Your blood red dress
Twirling in eights

Like an age old contest
My heart still waits

Though not mine to possess
My bloodshot eyes will follow you

Till the night is just a blur
Stuck forever in this slur