I am sorry I am not everything I imagined me to be

And then at once as sudden as he had left, he came back, and with him colour.

I inherited my mom's anger, and my dad's kind of laziness.

Yes, I deserve spring.

The walls knew,
My pillow too,
How much I missed you

Ask the ceiling then,
Ask the ceiling of my blank bedroom
How many times I have whispered your name at night

When she forgot my name, even the earth had trouble carrying my heavy heart.

I wish my lungs were like the nightsky, with stars that light the whole thing up
I wish they were a mellow meadow, flowers blooming to the top
I wish my lungs were like a forest, vivid and evergreen as morning light sweeps in

But in my chest they found a hole. So black and starved of life, that tears formed in their eyes. So now when I breathe and feel nothing;

I think of nightskies and meadows and forests

To feel, or not to feel, that’s the question.

I love the rain
I hate myself

Didn't mean for this to happen
Now my heart is feeling heavy

Clouds often make me wonder if I could suddenly disappear too

Your blood red dress
Twirling in eights

Like an age old contest
My heart still waits

Though not mine to possess
My bloodshot eyes will follow you

Till the night is just a blur
Stuck forever in this slur

I threw myself into the deep. Little did I know it would scar me, climbing out.

the love in him it cries for you
yet you left him bare and blue

so he starts to build his walls
would not survive another fall

now stones have replaced his loving heart
and i can never forgive you for that

I took her name
Her smell
Her laugh
Her fame

I took her mind
Her touch
Her sense
Her shine

Should have known
It would never be enough to make you mine

With bare hands
And nothing to lose
Into the air
I built a tower for two

Only lately it has just been me
My head it hurts
Where have you been?

lately the smoke in my head has been getting cloudier

i’m afraid i can’t keep up either

giving meaning to meaningless things is like drinking poison
it makes you hollow

i had hopes as well as aspirations and dreams. but as the river still steadily flowed through the streams. i did nothing to make any come true. now i guess that the time is due. before i had realised, the river was dry and i don’t feel enough anymore to even let myself cry.

I hate them for making me hate myself

And this time when he screams tears from his throat he lets himself cry too.

A cry for help will always be the echoes of your heart. It's a loneliness you don't even understand.

The only thing that makes me cry is the time that keeps passing me by

I did not know I had a heart until you broke it

It was an ugly face you turned on me
It was a heartbreak in secrecy...

I knew it because I was sure and I was sure because I knew it

The tide hit her forever unexpected
Loss and love took equal turns
The waves had always been a hard thing to face
Drowning terrifies her

You could've turned heaven into hell
With just one burning yell

A toast to life
Sad and confusing but beautiful at last

I am in love with strangers and the unknown

I'm haunted by a life
Of what if's and could have beens

I grew up in safety
But sadly I can't shake of a fear
A wishing to be
Anywhere else but here

It's a long way down from paradise
But when I look into your eyes
It feels just right

And if your heart is a house on fire
A fireman I'll be

Maybe it was because you were so ethereal
That I couldn't picture a reality of you with such a simple soul as me

Oh my love even the walls wheep for us, the ghosts cry too

'What is the greatest tragedy of life?'
The young girl asked curiously

'Forgetting' whispered the old lady

On a sunny afternoon in the midst of june
You finally found the courage to tell me
What you had only told the moon

The smell of pine trees and the rain
Always makes me wonder
If I should have given us another chance
After that magical summer

Oh, what a courage it takes to live in a world full of cowards

At night as I lie awake I beg
To let me live as many lives
As there are stars in the sky

A picked flower
Slowly draining
However it could never be
You or me

A change of mind
Withering and closing in
A last attempt of reaching out
For you from me

With petals lost
The flower's long gone now
And I get that
We will never be the same

And I was willing to spend eternity’s alone
If that meant that I could have you now
The memory of you would forever be better
Than to have never known you at all.

I wish I could swallow a dictionary and baffle you with the most extraordinary words in existence.

Green of jealousy
Whereas instead we should be
Feeling sick of pride

To find meaning in a world as meaningless as ours,
is what we all crave for. Longing to be loved, but more
than anything else we long the feeling of being in love.
Because even heartbreak outshadows the feeling
of having never loved at all.

And when the lover of the stars
Found himself on the deepest pit of the ocean
He finally understood that all his life long
He had made the wrong choices