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 Nov 2016 Evelyn
woolgather
Got the knife and vandalized some skin;
Though scared I was to begin;
Bled, and bled, the pristine red;
Slid down my hands like a sled;
Felt the pain and enjoyed it;
Still hesitating, I continued to slit.
Now the wound seemed to itch.
Make the wound; make a hitch.
Painful yet not painful enough for a stitch;
*At least now I know not only karma's a *****.
No one would believe
 Nov 2016 Evelyn
Mak Waddle
Nothing
 Nov 2016 Evelyn
Mak Waddle
I am here
I smile
I wave
Yet nothing

He is here
He smiles
He waves
Yet something

I am here
I laugh
I dance
Yet nothing

She is here
She laughs
She dances
Yet everything

Am I nothing?
Is he something?
Is she everything?
Am I nothing?
 Oct 2016 Evelyn
Tasman Suitor
Low
 Oct 2016 Evelyn
Tasman Suitor
Low
Grappling. Grasping. Reaching. Sinking.
Cocooned in this pit of mine.
Enveloped in its darkness.

Calling. Shouting. Hoping. Nothing.
No rescuers left to help.
Just me for company.

Accepting. Settling. Slumping. Resting.
Tired of survivals effort.
Weary of the ache.

Holding. Listening. Thinking. Waiting.
Waiting.
Waiting.

Sinking.
Luckily I managed to learn to climb.
 Oct 2016 Evelyn
ghost
Untitled
 Oct 2016 Evelyn
ghost
I wish I may, I wish I might
Feel my soul fade away tonight.
By: Gretchen
 Oct 2016 Evelyn
J
Adrenaline
 Oct 2016 Evelyn
J
I have thought about suicide probably
More times than I should have,
And I've lingered between busy streets probably
More often than I ought to,
Unclicking my seat-belt
Dancing on the edge of
"Should I?" and "When?"

I've emptied orange bottles, prescriptions in hand,
Shuffling the white capsules from mouth to palm probably
More than a dozen times,
And I've lingered on the idea of
"Now?" and "Here?"

I've held myself under bath water, white knuckles clenched and lungs on fire
Probably
More than my body wishes
Humming to myself,
"A few more seconds." and "Keep going."

Hoping one day,
Somewhere,
Sometime,

Should I?
When?
Now?
Here?
 Oct 2016 Evelyn
Broken
"Give me a reason not to jump!"
I screamed.
And the world stood silent.
 Oct 2016 Evelyn
Taylor Marion
What is in my body that makes me weep?
Despite the happy little moments too little to keep.
Despite the tingly churn in the deep of your core;
The sweet dripples from the tongue of your lover.
The tears you licked from their cheek.

What is in my body that makes me look elsewhere?
Despite the comfort that is always there
Of a mother’s protection or a friend’s soft stare.
When the sun is shining and you’re sitting beside them,
Silence is fluent and words are spared.

What is in my body that the limits my mind?
The child wanting to escape the catacombs built inside.
The herd of horses held back by leashes.
The storm in a jar evaporating as I speak this.
An umbrella in my hands thwarting all sunshine.

Who is in my body when I deny my name?
Despite delicate moments when my crises are tame
And the mirror sheds its simulated black skin;
A screen I painted to cage my reflection in
To keep those sharp teeth from reducing me to shame.
Who is in my body and what is her name?
 Oct 2016 Evelyn
Alaska
I feel like I'm dreaming
Even though I'm wide awake
I hear somebody screaming,
I'm losing myself.

Some leaves are rustling in my ears,
The others crunch beneath my feet,
My head is filled with fears,
I hear a strange sound
I realise - it's my heartbeat.

A stitch in my wound,
A knock in my back,
I manage to sit down
When everything turns black
As I hear the shattering of my crown.
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