He loves me, he loves me not
These dark thoughts seize my mind
I spend my time watching the clock
Attempting to relax but I can't unwind

I held onto the idea of "we"
I'm such a delusional, and stupid ****
When there was always "you"and "me"
I should've known with my bad luck

I refuse to believe this is the end
But aren't I just hurting myself more?
Maybe we were meant to be just friends?
Or you're delusional and I'm s'posed to be yours

The only way we'll know is from time
And I pray to God it's on my side
Are we star crossed lovers like Romeo and Juliet?
Or ride or die like Bonnie and Clyde?

I think we're both sick in the head
Bc we cross the line too much
Then we're back to behind the line
I think we lust after that rush

Is it safe to say we're addicted?
To the pheromones our bodies release?
I swear I can't ever get enough of you
When I'm you I feel like I'm at peace

The thought of leaving you kills me
Where else would I possibly turn?
I've been without you before
And that wound is still a bit burned

You're what made me sick
And you're the only one to cure me
Let's be each other's antidote
And recover together in harmony

Sometimes I do think we need space
To breath and let go of passive pain
But I don't want you with anyone else
And I secretly hope you wish me the same

To let go is to be brave
In hopes that one day I'll be ok
I don't know where life will take me
But I'm so blessed that you came my way

I don't know what I'd do without you
It's like retraining myself how to breath
Or simply how to even live, yes that too
Never again could I do such with ease

Some may think I'm blinded and crazy
To chase a boy who doesn't want to be saved
And **** perhaps I am, it's a possibility
But my heart is one thing you can't persuade

I like to rush over just to be with you
And then take it slow once I get there
But life crashes down with what we once knew
The way you get treated just isn't fair

I've seen that golden light in your eyes
I swear there's flowers blooming inside
When **** hits the fan I'm the one who cries
Because then you're X and piece of me dies

You always claim that I deserve more
Yet in my eyes, you constantly satisfy me
Talk is cheap, and words are a bore
Try to get rid of me when we're both in cali

*Let's say you do and one day we part
I swear I'll never find another like you
You'll always have a special place in my heart
Once you realize I'm one hit me up, let's "take 2"

Once the clock strikes midnight
Cinderella always has to go
Instantly then, I never feel right
And my heart gets filled with such woe

I hate that you sleep alone
When I do the same, in my bed
Always and constantly checking my phone
Talking with you and dreaming in my head

If I can make it to 20
I can make it to the end of the year
Out to Cali where it's sunny
Carefree, without a ******* fear

It's criminal to be kept from you
You're my happiness, my moon and stars
I can't ******* wait 'til it's just us two
Then the world will finally be ours

Minutes feel like hours
And hours feel like days
I forgot you had this power
To make me fall for your gaze

The second that we're apart
My smile instantly fades
There's an emptiness in my heart
And I grieve for several days

But then I finally see you
And I'm back where I belong
I love to watch the things you do
Like when you mix all your songs

You are truly my comfort zone
You take my heart to new heights
I forget the feeling of being alone
Because you are the love of my life

If you ever wanna **** yourself
I thought that you should know
I don't care if you have declining health
I would never ******* let you go

If you ever wanna commit suicide
Just know you would be killing me too
It'd leave me so ****** up on the inside  
I swear to god I don't know what I'd do

If you ever wanna pull the plug
Think back to all of our memories
And how I'd probably start abusing drugs
Trying to free myself from the misery

So if you really wanna die
Remember that I love you
If that won't keep you alive
I guess I should off myself too

Just as Juliet did for Romeo
So they could be finally be together
No longer would I feel the pain of woe
Because i'd be with you forever

It's been 1 year, 3 months & 1 day
And our paths have finally crossed again
I'm speechless without knowing what to say
But I know I don't want this feeling to end

One day we laid together in your bed
And that's when you closed your eyes
In that moment no words were said
Yet I had to hold in all of my overdue cries

I smiled as I looked at your face
And I felt so relieved and complete  
That I finally had to no longer chase
The boy I was so desperate to remeet

Rather than crying I chose to lay
Next to my favorite person ever
I held him close, eager to relish this day
I swear nothing has ever felt better