he was blue.
     the hue of sadness.
          the hue of coldness.

                          she was yellow.
          the shade of happiness.
     the shade of joy.

he was dull.
    
     she was bright.

and they were the perfect marriage of day and night.

In this world

In this world I kept telling myself that I was going to be alone. I hate this world and the people living on it.

In this world everything is an utter chaos. We live in a society where magic and science are one. Where fantasy has become reality.

In this world the bad people are winning. They are truly living while the rest of the world is trying to survive.

In this world they stole me of my innocence and hope. I began to hate this world and begged for its destruction.

In this world I met a boy that would change the world. We saved him but he actually saved me.

In this world the boy was special. He didn't see the evil of this world.

In this world everyone was after us. We had no one to trust but each other.

In this world he showed me what he saw. Showing me that life is beautiful.

In this world I was finally happy. I wanted it to last forever.

In this world I knew good things come to an end. They stole him away from me.

In this world he was an experiment. A clone with the power of Gods.

In this world they needed his soul. Only he was able to open the gate.

In this world they opened the gate. Hell was on the other side.

In this world people were dying. Our own curiosity was our demise.

In this world I saw him again and held him. I didn't want to let go.

In this world all seemed lost. I accepted the end if I was with him.

In this world he told me what I didn't want to know. He was able to save everything.

In this world he held me as I cried.  I didn't want him to be the hero.

In this world it felt like it was only the two of us when we kissed. I knew this was going to be goodbye.

In this world he stopped the chaos. Everyone got what they wanted but me.

In this world I told myself I was going to be alone. I left this world to be with him.

drugs don't take the pain away, sure,
but they make it more bearable

so when you're wide awake and you haven't fallen asleep
because your thoughts have gone too deep
you won't sit and weep
about life being so bleak
because the numbness will take over when your high is at its peak
and your questions will melt away
turning the whole world gray
you wish you would have stayed
you want the happy life that feels so unattainable
you want that perfect person who seems so unforgettable
but all you have is a drug
when all you need us a hug
but the high is what's getting you through
you feel like an addict and it's probably true
but you won't stop until your skin fades blue
because the world's a lonely place
so you fall into space
with whatever gets you highest to forget a lovers face
and an awful sad place
and sure, drugs don't rid you of the hurt
but they make some things feel a little less worse

s.s

one day
it will be easy to breathe
my lungs will inhale flowers
and honey
it will be second nature
like riding a bicycle
like tying a shoe
like swallowing a pill
and i will hold on
tightly and
with shaking hands
until then

Before my first day of school
I knew how to read and write

But mom thought it important
That I memorize
Our home phone number.

In retrospect
She worried that a stranger
Might sweep me up and secret me away.

How cute.
That one’s deepest fear
Would be kidnapping

And how sweet
That her dearest friend
The one she couldn’t bear to lose
Would be her five-year-old

Good times

You know that feeling of addiction?
Imagine an addiction to a soul who gives you the right kinda feels..
Great right?
Now imagine an addiction to a toxic soul..
One that you know is not good for you but you still crave..
***** DEADLY..
Get your *** to rehab..

You say you understand me
And it feels nice
Because it's 4am and we're connecting
Because everything is exaggerated at 4am
When the masks come off and the room is dark and there are 5 other people asleep on the floor
When our whispers are raspy because we've been yelling for hours
And the glow of the xbox lights our faces, because we forgot to turn it off
And I tell you things that I've never told anyone
Not even the people I tell everything
The things I swore to myself I would keep secret forever
But it's 4am
And we prank called my crush and yours and everyone's exes
And we talked about dating and *** and we laughed until the parents had to yell at us
We ate pizza and chips and I felt like part of the group for the first time
Because maybe I was
Because you cared enough about me to poor your heart out and catch the contents of mine
But who knows if you meant it
Because it was 4am

I always feel sentimental when it rains,
So, on sad days like this I leave the house without an umbrella.

With my headphones in,
listening to our favourite songs,
I walk past your old house.
Or the cheap restaurant we always went to.
Just so I can let my heart feel close to you again.
I must be so pathetic.

but when the rain stops
You will exist only as another memory.
So, I embrace the droplets on my skin,
Even if I do catch a cold.

On sad days like this I cannot help but wonder
if it’s raining where you are,
if you think of me.

So, until the next time it rains, we walk our own paths.