My heart is an unpublished book that I allow only a few to get a glimpse of
My mind is in a million different places
My emotions are struggling to feel it’s highs and lows
But one things for sure
I’m more at peace than I’ve been in awhile
The thoughts and emotions that flow through me are needed in order for me to fully connect with myself
And I have you to thank for that
You’re my lesson
No hate, no anger just blessed for what the future has instore for me
Because now I know my worth and now I decide to put myself first not last
I woke up sad....
But I woke up...
And that right there is a blessing
When I think of happiness..
When I think about my future..
And when I go to sleep and close my eyes..
I see no one but YOU
Headed to a city that I think I’m not ready to go back to
Last time I was there was with you
Not long ago
Very recent actually
The laughs, the smiles the stolen glances
This city reminds me of you
And I don’t know how to undo that
In fact I don’t even know if I ever want to
Until you can fully forgive
Is when you can truly move on
“Could you ever be ashamed of me?
Sometimes I ask how could you ever want me.”
Lyrics so loud and clear hitting me
Triggering these inner demons that take control of me
I ask myself could you really?
I’d like to think that you could want me
But my demons tell me differently
You’re out of my league
I hope one day I’ll get over these insecurities
Because I’d like to think there could be a you and me