You pry open my veins

And dive into my bloodstream


You run through my veins

And blacken my blood


And the dark ashes of our love,

flow underneath the shadows of our past


And you rip open my scars

With the blades of your memory


and you hammer nails of despair into my skull

As the crimson agony seeps through


My fingers go numb and you smile painfully

And my blue veins erupt black blood


And my eyelids collapse shut

And teeth chatter


I bite my lip and blood draws out

It's bittersweet pain and agony


I blink to see you're my angel

sending me away from this dark world


As you pull my breaths into your lungs

Sending me with one last kiss of our dying love


And you cradle my face and let out a scream

It shatters the glass walls and wind's howls


And it breaks the sun apart

And scatters all the beams of yellow light


Your scream rips the moons of Neptune

And stars from all seven heavens


And all those asteroids burst,

into pieces of our immortal love


And it's only scarlet craters of melancholy,

driven into splinters of my dark dark soul


This is where we've ended, love,

And from here you leave my hand


And I leave your heart but never your soul

It's here I'm saying goodbye, love, forever.

                                                            -MAY

I held onto the fringes of hope that were fists of fire punching wells of dark despair through my battered soul.

Screaming agony clangs within my soul
Finding an outlet that I can’t give

It pierces through me as my blood howls
With an intensity that scorches my scars

A storm builds within my eyes
as the memory of your face passes them

I’ve lived in all your colors, all your emotions
And, in all your depths I’ve drowned

Until I crashed in the dark pit within your eyes
which you never let anyone see

I’ve lived in all your dark dreams
and all your hollow nightmares

Love, I’m the blood that your scars bleed
I’m all those tears that your eyes cried

I promise to build all those dreams again
that have landed into dust of our love

And all those shadows will fade away
If you just let me in, love

I’ll find you from the darkest corner
of the sea that you’ve drowned into

And I’ll carry you to the shore in my arms
And I’ll kiss all the pain away, love

In return, I’ll ask only one thing
And If you just smile and ask me what

I’ll say, I’ll give my soul and heart
And hands and arms but never my eyes

‘Cause they’re mine only to watch you
when you shiver and smile

And laugh and cry,
blush and mumble

And sing while you work
And sleep and read

All the little things that others take for granted
I feel the fascination in every move of yours

Sometimes I wonder if your smile is magic
As though you’re unreal, just an illusion

And I’m scared of touching you
for you’re so fragile

And you’ll shatter in my arms
break down because you’ve suffered for love

The love that no one tried to give
but I swear I’ll give you all of me

For I’m born from love but you’re not
And, love, I vow to give you all of it

I’m nothing without you, honey
And I only ask for one more thing

Just say, you know I love you
with every speck of honesty

And I swear on my blood, I’ll give,
all my world in your trembling little hands.

I loved you in the blue hour
Green eyes over the table
Clean laundry and winter haze
I'm obsessed with your half smile
Quiet intent this is fragile
But this is how I fall
Late nights spent wondering after your clean lines
Soft skin cold light and I cant get enough
Wonder where it lands in the morning
Tripping deeper under grey skies in the afternoons
And this is it
Catch up on various afternoons I get lost in your pauses
Rough around my edges you make yourself at home
We could live like this
And this just the beginning
As you tangle your hands in my spine we're tangling deeper into:
Disbelief lack of sleep as you're next to me
Sit back sigh in unholy feelings I'm green and gold to your touch
And you're dark blue and grey rolling in the wake of the year of instability
Well liked and rounded yet you're coming round me
The thought of you breaks me
And I'm six feet off the floor
We Clean up you take me out and tell them all I'm your girl
Summer nights and new wine tentative dependency is our world
And with every twist of your neck or subtle laugh I'm back at your hands
Open
Naïve
And brusing blush and wine
This is how I fall
Into your open hands
Cinematic and young
I can't tell where we're headed but I know just how I'll land
Even if I'm unsure of you I am who I am
And I'm yours for the blue hour.

No matter how loud I dream,
I might still be drowning deep

Into the silver your delusional eyes scream
And Into the rain the sky weeps

You kept my dream protected within your fist,
the secret dream that I built from dust.

I gave you all of me over and over,
And I kept sinking lower and lower.

I sank into the realization that it's real,
I was torn and It was so hard to believe

And through the mist,
You promised, We'll rise again

And told me that you'll keep your promises
And won't just run away like others did

But still your gone and I can't find you.
I search the sky and my gaze lands on the same star.

I die again and again wondering if that's where you live,
But an illusion of your smile is all you ever give.

My soul is riven with cracks so deep and I think,
maybe someday they'll break through the surface of my skin.

Honey, please come back to me again,
Please don't let another wish go in vain

                                                               -MAY

My love for you is beyond these limits,
beyond the reach of earth, space and heaven


I've stitched your dreams with velvet
And built your hope with cashmere


My life was an empty canvas, love,
I've filled it with you flawless face


Your crystal eyes, concealing broken emotions
And your eyelashes bowing down, hiding your eyes


Your eyes are the most beautiful I've ever seen
So vulnerable, they take my breath away


And with every single glance,
they throw me a little deeper in love


And every time tears stream down your little face,
my fragile frame shatters to fragments


And an agony rips through my veins
and rushes through my bloodstream


You destroy me, love,
with every touch and every look


With every smile and every word
Your beauty is too much for my eyes to hold


But still I dare to look up
as my irises begin to crack


You're so heartbreakingly beautiful,
It makes me cry and laugh at the same time


Your hair is spun with gold and crimson,
It's the shade of my heart bleeding for your love


And your hands made of porcelain
And your lips are meshes of honey


I swear, I'll carry you over the seas
And take you through the dark clouds


Love, I promise to keep my arms around you
Until you stop breaking and shattering


I love you but these three little words
does not contain the intensity of my feelings


for just I love you isn't enough
I'd rather drown, smile and say,


Love, I'll give my life for one moment with you
And every breath of mine for just one smile of yours.

I found peace in the deepest shade of black, where light was scared to reach. So far buried in those depths, only I could decipher. Too many broken pieces of me lay bleeding, chipped in guilt and ashes of my hope. Don't try to heal me, love, I'm gone too far. Don't try to find me in these dense shadows, love, they'll pull you down into black agony I'm burning within.