I have secret skeletons
That haven't seen the Sun
From things supposedly fun
Now all they do is make me run

Skeletons exit my closet
And enter my jury box
All of whom I've met
Then put behind locks
Now they throw rocks
Or find ways to mock
They are ruthless
Until I'm toothless

I face a skeleton jury
I face the skeletons' fury
They seek vengeance
Or perhaps repentance
I play lawyer in my mind
This job has become full time
And I must laboriously linger
Through skeleton stingers
Until my mind is rattled
By skeleton saddles

They come from my past
To shatter my glass
The skeletons are attacking
My bones are cracking
Under their weight
They are my freight
They judge me
And begrudge me

I made many moronic mistakes
I left laying at the bottom of lakes
Now they are at the surface
Of my fruitless furnace
Skeletons remain
Like a stain
I look across the plain
To see skeletal rain
Precipitated by my dumb decisions
Droplets make numerous incisions
Each one callously cutting me to the bone
Until the skeleton jury is my humble home

Young people today have missed out on courting by mixtape.
Starts with dance tunes.
Gets into R n B.
Bit of metal if you have a row.
My mixtape ended with Jagged Edge.
Reader, I married him.

to be understood
you have to be willing to understand
to be loved
you have to be willing to love
to be cared for
you have to be willing to care
if you are unwilling
to meet other people's needs
how do you expect them
to meet yours

i wish i could promise to love you forever,
but i can't.

i'm not the one for you.

i'm certain that one day,
you'll wake up next to the love of your life,
and you'll stop hating me.

in that moment you'll see, that I wasn't only letting you go,
i was setting you free.

free to experience love.
free from a soul that didn't deserve a love like yours.

{d.f. | 10/17/17}

He lays awake all night
She's just a silhouette in his mind
He pictures everything she does
While he's lying in the dark alone
Separated, two different people
But I still think of you
Every single night
Take all the pills
Swallow them down
Close your eyes
In nightmares, he will drown
Be careful what you wish for
Cuz what goes around
Always comes back around
And he thought a different town
Would stop him from thinking about you
Now I just can't hold my ground
Baby your taking me down, down, down
My heart still pounds, it pounds
Love is lost, you can't be found
Drinking just doesn't fix
The emptiness
In the pit of my stomach
I'm numb I feel nothing
There's only one healing tonic
Your love is all I want
Just give me what you got
Because your everything I'm not
Your love is all I want

©2017 Written By Benji James