Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
Heather Dec 2019
I’m dangerous
He croaks, throat dry
His blue eyes open wide
Like pools reflecting his truth
Lonely for so long he stoped wanting anything more
And what a woman like me wants
He’ll never understand
But he still chokes me
And whispers your disgusting in my ear
The ***** of the year
Me: educated, beautiful, independent.
#*** #adult #bar #hookup
Heather Mar 2021
I used to think I would never fall in love
But after him all I do is fall in love
Over and over
But I never let anyone feel secure enough to love me back.

I fall in love again and again and again
In silent torture
Heather Mar 5
I’ll never stop being in love with the way travel feels like walking through worlds
Heather Mar 7
My body always used to know what to do
But know my mind is at the helm
And my body is oh so bored.
Heather Dec 2020
Tonight I won’t sleep
Maybe tomorrow I won’t eat
And the next day I may turn into a Marlboro Chimney

I try on different ways to **** myself slowly
Heather Jul 2021
Without you there is no reason to wake
Heather Dec 2019
I’m not sure why I’m always squinting my eyes to the piercing light of my future
My own hands keeping me from seeing my potential
Heather May 2019
I hate how much you mean to me
How much you have always meant to me
Heather Apr 2019
Im trapped in that moment of silence after the airbag deployed.
Heather Mar 20
I think I’ve loved you in a 1000 spaces
I curse my consciousness for being in this one
Heather Apr 18
I learned to laugh the loudest
To drown out my cries
Sometimes the voice in my head screaming for help
Is magnanimous
I swear they can hear her in Mars

But no one cares about your suffering little one
They have their own packs to carry.
Heather Apr 30
Emotions have always been too intense for me
Searing hot in my belly
I got too comfortable trying yours on for size
Now I don’t remember how to be **** if not for you
Heather Apr 2019
It was a slow drizzle
And then a hurricane
And now I’m shelterless, floating on a raft  of grief.
And I wonder if the rain will ever stop
Can I paddle out of love with you?
Heather Mar 11
Taught to think a partner is happiness
But never being truly happy with ourselves

Constantly trying to be better than the pornstars
Look like the models of his dreams
And let’s be real
More nurturing  than his mother
A rewrite from a 2020 poem
Heather May 25
It is deeply bittersweet
To see you achieve the life that young you dreamed
Which exists so separately from the one young me fantasized

I take solace in the health of your family
And heed in the love in your eyes that still remains
Even after we cut ties
Heather Apr 2019
My 24th year
Sad and solemn

My lighthouse went dim just shy of its start
And my anchor simply dropped away

And here I spend it’s  last days
Stranded on open water

The sharks of future circling  

As the winds toss and turn me
Land becomes farther and closer and farther still

Im not sure when the storm will calm
Or the ache in my belly will cease

But I cling to my faith
That my light
she will lead from her dwelling place
And my ship
Well...
Im very sad today.
Heather Feb 20
What I’m afraid to admit?
What if I never *** again
From a twinkle of the eye or a curling of a lip
Heather Jan 2020
I cannot say if I can
Nor even if I want to forget
Your hair as black as the night
With its touch as soft as satin

Because I find it everywhere

Laced around my clothes
In the seats of my car
And curled in my hands

Your hair, it keeps me up my dear
Draws my hands below my waist
I can still feel it brush against my stomach
As you tell me how good I taste
Heather Mar 7
I know I love you because when I look at you I hear music.
Heather Jul 2019
And like the click of my front door something shifts
And everything goes dark
And everything goes blurry
And I’m not sure where I went wrong
But I reach for your hand every time

— The End —