Thank you for your empathy.
Thank you for your patience.
Thank you for your kindness.
Thank you for your time.

I’m sorry for my assumptions.
I’m sorry for my impatience.
I try to move at your pace,
But I **** it up sometimes.

You don’t need to reach for that dusty shelf
To prove, again, I’m in the wrong.
I can see I made mistakes myself,
Like I have done all along.

Just because I feel one way,
In my mind alone, some thoughts belong.
Not pushed in front of you all day,
As you can’t always be so strong.

To hold me close when I’d like you there.
To say “I know”, when I say “I care”.

And though you know I always will,
You know, I know, I need to chill.
Coz you’re not a ******* pill
I can take to help me feel
Like you make me feel when I see you for real!

Seventeen rainbows on my body
Can never be taken away.
But I’ve seen angels all around me,
Flying around trying and now
I’m so alone in my own home.

Everything happens for a reason.
Together we’ll fake and delay.
Yeah it’s been ages, still it grounds me.
Crying aloud, sighing, somehow
I’m still alone in my own home.

Please stop trying. Just leave it alone.
I’ll work it out on my own.

Scatter blue sparks across the night.
Every sleeping child awakes to screams of fright.

Shadows ignite, the world’s alight.
Every tortured soul is dragged to see the sight.

‘How does the sun still glow, without my son by my side?
Your rivers still flow. The moon still shapes the tide.’

A million imaginary conversations swirling through my head.
Nothing ever plays out right, when all is done and said.

The words I never get to speak, like the name I’ll never know, are unheard, unspoken, yet unforgotten; consuming my everything, ever so slow.
What’s really going on below? And why does it still hurt me so?
Are you still there too? Will you still care to
Help me grow when I just can’t glow?

Please Don’t Go!

Do you ever stop and think
I'm not just trying to be cheap
with these words that I speak?

They're everything that I wanted to say
but you stole them away.

And I know I can't stay
but how do I leave
the girl of my dreams
alone?

Do you ever stop and think of me?
Well I've been thinking of you
with everything that I do.

And all the words I wanted to say
you'd just throw them away.

And I know I can't stay
but how do I leave
the girl of my dreams
alone?

Jellybean
you know you make me scream
but I'll be crying out in vain
forever.

Jellybean
you know you'll make me sing
the song without a name
forever.

Burst out in a curse at the wind.
Do you know how it feels
to be the only one to see?
Forever really is
the longest time.

Now I know
I've gotta live a life alone.
But it's not what I wanted.
You've gotta know that I wanted

Jellybean.