I was complete
come back
You swept me off my feet
come back
I can't breathe

My lungs are concaving
come back
I know we're worth saving
come back
I'm breaking

You've left your mark
come back
Etched into my soul, so deep, so dark
come back
You were always my favorite form of art

Music doesn't sound the same
come back
I read between lines of pain
come back
They all seem to whisper your name

My world is a colorless black
Taylor
Fill this emptiness with one simple act
Taylor
Please come back

Most days
It feels as though
I'm in a dream
That all of this
Can't be the way it seems

The only time I feel at peace
Is when I fall asleep
It's as if I get a taste
Of how it should be

I'm finally
Free

And then I wake
With my soul blackened and bare

I realize

The reality I'm forced to live in
Is not a dream
It is

A ******* nightmare

Baggy sweatshirts
Faded cologne
Pass the pipe
So I don't feel alone

Crinkled letters
Miles apart
Take a shot
To ease my heart

Foggy memories
Dreams of you
Pop some pills
I won't feel so blue

Drugs and distractions
My mind isn't clear
But my biggest high
Comes from you, my dear

I've cheated death a thousand times
And every time I do
I wonder
What it would be like
If I did not make it through

Do you remember when you were five and the worst thing that could happen was scraping your knee?

At what point did you realize there are worse things out there?

At what point did you realize mommy wasn't perfect and daddy wasn't invincible?

At what point did you realize you're not a princess and you never will be ?

At what point
did you grow up?

Well,well
Look at you
After all we went through
Your just like new

Now look at me
But you'll pretend not to see
Just how broken I can be

I was your little puppet
Your doll
And of course
You made me fall

But no hard feelings
No feelings at all

You're in my mind
And on my skin
This is a battle
I can't win

Your taste on my tongue
Your breath in my lungs
I have no escape
There's nowhere to run

I can't make it stop
This ache in my head
So I'll force myself
To fly somewhere else instead

There's nothing I can do
They tell me I'm crazy
They don't have a clue

Because I know
I'd wait forever for you

You sit on the edge of my sanity
Blocking my way
Screaming
"Please don't jump
You promised you'd stay"
So what's left of me
I give to you
I hope that you love it
More than I do

Drip drip
Drop drop

I hear the rain
It never stops

A black cloud
It follows me
An endless shroud

Waiting for a ray of light
Hoping it will ease my plight

But there are no beacons to shine here
All that's left is pain and fear

Drip drip
Drop drop

Here comes the rain
Please make it stop

When you watched
through the eyes of a child
mommy slice her wrists
and sob into the pillow
Where did your broken childhood go?

When your lover leaves
and the blinds remain shut
so the only thing you feel is rain
Where do all the sunsets you've missed go?

Welcome to the tree of life
A grave yard for humanity
Filled with the corpses
of futures once so bright

Our love cannot end up in the ground
Not a flame
Not a flicker
Not a spark
to be found

So come, my darling
swing with me
from a branch
atop the tree

It is not a noose of rope
But a necklace
of our last hope

You tell me
I'll find someone else

She's already here
Her names Mary jane
She eases my sorrow and takes away pain

I'll smoke
And I'll smoke
Till I forget your name

She's a gift and a curse
I see
Through the tears and the hurt
I forgot mine first