i‘ve grown completely
numb to any sort
of emotion or feeling,
all because you crushed
me to pieces and never
bothered coming back
and picking them up.

You've broken my insides
And strengthened my outsides...

The thorn of the blue roses seems so red,
Bloated carcasses finding their way out,
The scars..can't you see it? it's still red

Happy, sometimes is one in a million,
Billion people, gazillion emotions
Pain could be an angel, Pain could be a python

I'm trying to forget the pain of the past
But it's as sharp as broken glass.

Stiches gone, scars forever.
This memory leave? No, never.

Looking into your eyes makes my heart jump,
But only just an extra thump.

Until I remember what you did to me,
You stole my love, then set me free.

Maybe I should thank you,
Those chains held me through and through.

But still I have no one to love,
And all I do is push and shove.

My friends tell me I've changed,
But I'm only taking time to get rearranged.

You see, I'm not longer the same,
Because I have no love to claim.

I'll find a way to move on with my life,
But someday I'll look back on my strife.

Forgiveness is a virtue to which I'll never part
And I'm using it to heal my broken heart.

Just remember me in your times of pain
And realize you left me a stain.

You look at my arms like you've seen a ghost.
You look back at my face as though
I'm not the same person I was a second ago.
You look down and ask me why.
I simply say,
"Look up at me, let me see your face.
I'm not that person anymore.
Don't shut me out.
Don't walk away.
I'm telling you I am okay.
So, don't worry about me.
Just walk beside me and be my friend."