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Luna Craft May 2017
Once again I have become self ruinous
I face atrocities made by my own engineer
Lifeless; like a lovers suicide
Just me and my procrastination by me
We leap
Waves become the earth as we slumber six feet down
Like seafoam
Watch as I collapse and fade with the water
Luna Craft Jun 2018
I hate odd numbers, to be more exact I fear them
That is not to say it applies to every facet of my life
Three at the end of the day is my favorite number
It's just in every other circumstance that they seem to haunt me
Like my nightmares only occurring when my alarm is set odd
Something caused by one of my benign idiosyncracies
-Nonetheless, I'm faced with odd numbers when I sleep
When I awake
When another family member has chosen the grave as a resting place
When times seem to change unexpectedly
I'm anxious about many things
But all seem minuscule compared to those numbers that follow me
Unbreaking and ration
They belong; I do not
12:31am
Luna Craft Apr 2016
I've got to be a *******
I drag my bloodied body back home after each visit
Stitch together my mutilated tongue with each kiss
I've never cried but god help me I'm close to trying
Cold blooded fighting, I'm sorry
Void-less sleep, I see only light and misdirection
1,000 and 1 side roads and no map
I got more keys then I'll ever need but they all only open one door
I crawl back to you, on my knees, begging for a slap, a punch
A brutish reality to stop the unease
But your words are too sweet, they hurt my gums
The only metal you own is a shield, sacrifice your lungs to block me
******* you must be a *******
Cause you let me break my bones on your skin
Ruin you with each word
I'm sorry
Luna Craft Feb 2017
Re-oxygenate my body
Push air throughout my lungs
Poison the rest of my body, let it soak in my vessels
Break my crumbling bones
Please, understand my needs
There is no cure for cyanide
Let my blood boil;
Allow me to sink into the floor
Let your breath be my last
Luna Craft Apr 2015
You looked at me like I was a god
A being filled with beauty and hope
But that is not love
That is admiration
And I can't kiss you at night knowing that
Even if what I feel is the purest of love
I know that you need someone that doesn't make you kneel and pray
But someone that will stand on equal ground
That will cry and laugh with you
And that isn't me
Luna Craft Mar 2015
Yes I know I am growing up
And my childish years are dead
But that doesn't mean I'm mature enough
To pile up my debt
I don't want to owe you
I don't want to be treated like a woman yet to be
Like a doll that still hasn't lost its purity
I know I'm supposed to act mature now
And I know I'm supposed to vote and buy a house
But for now let me sit and cry about meaningless things
Because growing up is scary
And being left behind is easy
Luna Craft Jun 2016
Treat the flower in a dead field not as a statement but a marker
It stands in the corpses of fallen comrades as they slowly waste to earth
A gravestone at most, a parasite to all that its roots once knew
It will probably thrive more from their bodies then it did in their company
Dull linen hung over a coffin, a decorative use for a tragedy
Like broken signs, they always point in two different directions
Follow your mind and go off track, follow your heart and risk it breaking
Understanding is key, that is all you can strive for
To know those around you, to connect and touch hearts
Realize how much energy they take and wait
Watch them waste into a morning sun that does not rise
Then soak in what you've experience, be mournful yet strong
A gravestone if you will, turn into a name and a date
Become nothing but a stencil for children
Burnt paper and the past
Luna Craft Feb 2016
Incredible.
You did it again, made me doubt my own words
Acted like I sinned
After you kissed her lips and told me it meant nothing
That, words of love mean nothing if I can't accept a little mistake
I was your mistake
There were so many signs
I ignored the flaws
I was just so blinded
Luna Craft Mar 2016
Falling
Fleeting
This disaster repeating
A relapse
Small words
Make them easy to understand
I can't think to much
There is no permanence
I can only see what's in front of me
Little dreams
I strung them along
I tried to see the line
Trying to connect them all
Little droplets
I don't know if they are tears
Another relapse
Mistakes and mistakes
Again and again
I find my self here
Walking the line between dreams and reality
But both directions are dark
And I can barely breathe
Luna Craft Nov 2017
Let the hushed autumn wind remind me of finality
Dying leaves, remnants of a dead summer
Things will be over soon
This dull hum surrounds me
Reminds me of upcoming change
Change like a spring can only come from the whisper of death
Forgotten times
Memories, not moments
Whispers
Luna Craft Feb 2016
I keep mixing it all up
Living and being alive, I don't see the difference
They are just two different states of the same thing
Ice is still water and water can still boil
It can turn to steam and be forgotten
Yesterday was once today but unless there is a tragedy it is forgotten
Merged with all the other stories rumbling in your head
Is that what it's like to be alive
To feel like everyday is a new chance
Or is living to be stuck in the past
Not moving on but not forgetting those left behind
What am I supposed to do
Because if being alive is to live only for oneself
I'd rather be dead
Luna Craft Apr 2015
I hate my genes
Being in front of a grandmother that has forgotten her own name
And then watching my own father follow her footsteps
Seeing the days go by while they are stuck in the past
In a time where forks and spoons were nameless tools
My grandmother lost the ability to even speak
That was before she left us
She left us not with a smile but with a set of eyes that had glazed over
Eyes that couldn't see the future and couldn't remember why
And when she finally parted ways she did so in her sleep
Because that was all she did anymore
And now today I had to remind my father
That we could not go visit her
And that I was not my sister
And he laughed a pitiful laugh saying he knew
But that night I heard him crying from across the house
Because he knew that he'd end up a broken story
That his years of learning the worlds history was useless
And that he couldn't even remember his own
Or why he got up
And he had forgotten why he was crying
He had forgotten why
So he just fell asleep
Luna Craft Jan 2016
Angels are not blessed
Their mouths, a draw bridge, close when they try to help
Because only blessed words are allowed out
A dying man can't be told he's fine
When his lungs have twisted any oxygen left
So all the angel can do in weep
Cry for a dead man who sinned to much and can't go with them
Even the devil was an angel is spoke out
He wanted his god to love him rather then his creations
A father wouldn't throw out his child because he cried about being lonely
A father would try to care
Angels are not blessed
Luna Craft Nov 2016
Thinking little, saying things that don't even correlate with my own thoughts
But I sometimes shake at the silence
Little twitchy movements, those of a child afraid to look under the bed
Is this all I'll ever be? A coward in a confidant shell?
So yes I shake at a blank stare
Shudder at thoughts about things that should scare
I am anxious
Luna Craft Jan 2016
Someone drowned
We all line up around the sea as they search for more bodies
A boat turned over on a winter night
Teens can do the dumbest things

The body count triples and so does the tweets
Yelling 'I'm so sorry for your loss' before a mother can even grieve
That's the only thing spoken about for days
Different words fill the air
Most scream-
'They were too young, it's a tragedy'
Then they whisper-
'It was natural selection'

We march to the sea with candles in hand
Most don't even know the names of who died
Yet they act like they have the right to defend the dead

There are no banners
Only street lights directing traffic
and People excited for a story
Not caring who's next
Art
Luna Craft Mar 2015
Art
I'm called an artist when I draw someone else
I'm called selfish when I draw myself
Luna Craft Feb 2015
Surprise Attack
you read the note
the rope hangs with a lifeless anchor

Panic Attack
you're all alone
breathless wheezing
empty words

Heart Attack
numbness takes over
heart overloads
piercing pain
silence
Luna Craft Apr 2016
Crush your bones into a fine powder
Twit your mind in little strings, tie and tangle them
Gouge out your eyes, lie about sight
Shred your limbs, tie them like bows
Rip off your nails, glue on plastic
Keep lying
Keep it up
Stop breathing
Your lungs are just birthday balloons
Only needed for special occations
Luna Craft Apr 2016
A reflection is just that, colors and light colliding
A personal connection between you and the walls
Binding your soul to the very ground you stand
Bending light ever softly
Little shadows are your armed guards
They'll protect your mind in the dead of night
Revelations over the shadows, a tea party of silence
No sleep, no thought provoking answers
A meaningless existence that exists to have meaning
Thoughtless turns, sighs, unwavering eyes
Paranoia- the curtain surrounds you in dusk
Awaiting your awakening
The only thing that blesses your eyes is exhaustion
Slamming shut the doors that smokey glances feared
Finally, as dawn approaches, it is time to sleep
Luna Craft Jan 2016
It's so easy to get confused
To mix violence and love together
Apologies and lies
They are all mistakes
A simple question asking for help
Turns into a night of horrors
Nightmares ensue in gardens of flowers
They wither and die with every breath
A raining shadow of empty dreams
I've made a tomb out of my own grief
I tried to put myself 6ft under
Life and death go hand and hand
You can't have one without the other
So when I wanted to die I was told
I just need to live
What I've done so far is nothing more then sleep walking
I'm on autopilot and I'm not taking anything in
A schedule that repeats itself has never been so empty
Then a person with less life then a corpse
Luna Craft Feb 2016
I'm so sorry
I'm dealing with a lot
A pressure on my shoulders
The fog in my mind
I couldn't see your perspective
I couldn't understand why you did what you did
Why you left
Why you came back
Was it the lack of freedom
Did you just want me to suffer?
To not forget your breath
Your hair
Everything
Luna Craft Feb 2018
Cancerous- that's what she called people like me
Sickly cells, mutations of what is natural
Like alcoholism and angry outbreaks, a familial normal
Bloodlines filled with misuse of all that we are given
Haul me down the aisle on ice, toe tag and all
So I can change my name once I die
So I can change.
Luna Craft Mar 2016
Air
I'm at a loss of words
Breathing
Heart beating
Faster and faster
Warm breath collides
Lifeless
Warm and fleeting
A body
A corpse
Rotting disaster
Maggots dig in
We melt in the ground
Branching out
Plants
Life
Lifeless
A gravestone
Sign your name on the x
And breathe
Luna Craft Mar 2015
Only, when a screen can hide my face, I am kind
The words that jump from my mouth burn the heart
They are needles, hurting you so you bleed but live
The words that fall from my fingers are so kind
That they make you feel secure
and I simply can't understand
How that makes it okay for me to hurt you
With the constant assault of my bitter tongue
Luna Craft Jul 2016
I've made being depressed a habit
As if ceasing this life would make me feel less tired
Pretend that I learned something new to appease this emptiness;
Stuffing filth in bloodied wounds does not heal them
Bandages will never fully heal closed scars
Dying will never help this uselessness
I can only stay here, in between alive and dead
The catatonic state that I'm so used to
Luna Craft Mar 2015
I've always been in the country
So the first day I arrived in the city was so shocking
I was so scared that I got lost at night
There were people
Druggies
Homeless people
Others who I couldn't even see their faces
But under the city lights we all seemed equal
Like no matter the background of the person under the night sky we were all the same
We were all relying on the city lights to guide us to a better place
Luna Craft Jun 2016
We never really changed did we?
We're still just children, the term adult is only a title paid in lifespan.

There's no real requirement, it took less effort moving forward then it did standing still,

Like there was no real reason I needed to try, life would push me off the cliff on my own, it outfitted me with a piece of yarn and told me to jump.
Like that would save me, I wasn't given a chance.

Maybe if my family cared more about education and less about alcohol- or if anxiety didn't riddle my lungs each and every time I opened my ******* mouth- but no, I'm stuck as a mangled corpse used as a warning to rich brats with close family

'Don't be like her, go to college, have kids, die with a family to repeat the cycle'

How many would truly want that if they hadn't been told since exiting the womb that it is their one goal.

We could have philosophers, travelers, those who are pure of heart and thinking.

Instead we pumped them full of lies, sent them off and hoped for a rerun;
Luna Craft Sep 2015
Humanity is on the rocks
And we are nearing the edge too quickly
Pollution and overpopulation have filled the fallen forests
Popularity is all that matters now
Yet to care about your appearance is vain
Death is glorified to look like a romantic gesture
The world can’t continue like this
We can’t continue like this
Luna Craft Feb 2015
Everyone is so colorful
so full of life, so vibrant

Kind green hues
yellow smiles
red thoughts of love
pink cheeks from embarrassment

But I am grey, a colorless hue that represents the lack of self
yet I shine as if I am the only light
for darkness always contradicts the light
Luna Craft Jun 2016
There is a strange feeling of contempt in my home
I've grown used to the beatings
Whether it be a tongue lashing or being dragged across the halls
Both feel the same, I no longer cry, I feel only emptiness
I expect it now, the scent of bourbon seems to follow it home
It clings to all life and ***** it dry, a concubine not fit to marry
We keep it in our closets, behind shallow doors that do not shut
As if to hide them.
Luna Craft Jun 2016
You can tie me up and break me
Control every inch of my soul
Put me on an assembly line of mirror images
Sculpt me how you ******* want
But for the love of god let me tie my own noose
Let me end this game
I'm so tired
Cut
Luna Craft Apr 2015
Cut
A simple blade
Treading the skin so carefully
That the blood only glistens at the top of the wound
A simple cut
That doesn't bring pain
But let's the blood pool below
Skin is fragile
Easily broken by both accidents and words
Luna Craft Mar 2016
My relationship with life was as unhealthy as mine with death
I took them like pills, small doses each time
Never at once, I've always been told not to mix alcohol with antidepressants
Me and life lived like Romeo and Juliet
We only met in secret
Quiet smiles at stupid stuff, subtle and unsound
Death always took me away though
It carved my skin and tied me in red
Little red ribbons
Carved deep into my thighs, the wrist was too predictable
Again i'd try to be taken, my dearest start crossed lover
They'd bubble smiles across my lips
I wonder when they started to feel fake
Luna Craft Mar 2015
My eyes see the bliss within the darkness
For my eyes have seen such beauty in darkness
Stars shine so innocently
The pale moon a protective eye
but
My eyes only see the hate within the light
Because it is far harder to tell which smile is really bright
in a world lit by fakes
Luna Craft Aug 2017
There is a heavy insistence from those close to me that I'm better.
That this dip in my improvement is nothing more than temporary.
After all most flowers must wilt before they truly bloom.
But I am bitter, I feel nothing from these roots.
A shadow of years of practice.
I doubt that I am a necromancer and my talent is dying;
If I try to remain on this path I'll die a failure.
Maybe I should go against my goals for money or fame
Something I can grasp that won't pass through my fingers.
Baby steps towards a future I didn't prepare for but one I'll survive.
1:16am
Luna Craft Mar 2016
Let me poor my soul into you
I just need some time to breathe
My lungs are being punctured by doctors
They are no longer mine
Blood spreads disease and family
It's roots are veins, we are trees
Rotted to the core
A single insect can ruin the water supply
I wish I was told that before I left the house
I would've packed a noose
Dog
Luna Craft Jul 2017
Dog
I'm a very trustworthy liar
Telling truths of a soothsayer, all my future goals
None will come to fruition
Like a dog; all bark and no bite
Luna Craft Jun 2015
We talk about dreams as if they are something that can be grasped in our hands like candy from a store or money from the jobs we work as a 'stepping stone' to our dreams
We forget for a moment that dreams are like sand that cannot be grasped so carelessly
We see the sand on the beach and pretend that we are better then that
We see the remnants that others once held and we look towards the sea with such ambition that we forget the sand in our hands and let it join the dust
Just for a moment in the sea
Luna Craft Mar 2022
I think the most motherly I've seen my Mother is in a dream
One with high stakes and eager fights
Where she stood fearful
Not for herself but for my safety
Grabbing my hand to protect from an eager fist

Protective

I wish I could dream those dreams with conscious thoughts
With ambitious hope that I would outweigh herself
Selflessness towards those you bore, like the movies
But I always know when I'm awake
The lines don't blur as much as they did when I was a child
And I am left with a hole
Longing for a state of reality that could never be
Dreaming of dreams
Luna Craft May 2016
With each thought comes disaster, a living corpse hung high
Oxymorons and illegitimate thoughts, broken voices
Tomorrow is the future but another days past
When it all ends there will only be dust
Rumbling pixie dust from nonexistent faeries
It's time to pull the batteries out of the controller
Auto pilot feels so good
Like tomorrow won't happen, never said those words
Just like that, stand still, stand tall
Eat your words as they leave, rot through your gums
Hang men with the melody that leaves your notes
Only then beg for solid thoughts, for one line
To end the thinking
Intoxication is so cruel, it let's me forgive my own tongue
How scornful
Luna Craft Mar 2016
You were a leaky faucet
Letting words out on accident
Wasting what little water you had left
Dripping
Slowly
Draining into the sewer
All alone
You were slowly dripping away
Luna Craft Mar 2015
Drown
Lose your breath
Don't fight the end
Let the water fill your lungs
See the light
And know you aren't alone
I'm tired of being told that the light is a lie
So I'll see it with my dying breath
Luna Craft Feb 2016
Limp
Our bodies lie in the tarnished heaps of childhood
We just couldn't bring ourselves to leave
Decaying corpses just trying to understand
Why do we need to leave
I can't stand the cold
But you can
So please, just leave
If you stay here any longer you might melt into the earth
I can't let you become like me
Limp
Luna Craft Mar 2016
Silence and sullen breaths
We are all tired now
Sick from a life of thinking
So I sink, deep into my thoughts as they rip me open
Both a horrifying and comforting embrace
I sleep
Knowing all these thoughts shall drain
Never to be seen
Never to cross my lips
Calmly dying in the reservoir of my mind
Like birds trapped in a cage
Luna Craft Mar 2015
Right now I feel like exploding
I have so many words to say yet I have none at all
Not a single word of the mortal tongue can describe this feeling
It is dread and despair locked together with confusion and regret
But it is still much better then the happiness of water
I'm more afraid of my own smiles then my tears
I don't know what to do or why
I'm afraid that whatever joy I gain will be lost
I don't want to feel empty again
So I'll feel bitter and alone instead
Luna Craft Mar 2016
Will you remember me when I am gone?
Will you see me to the grave?

When my body is grey- a stone
When my mind has long since abandoned you here

Will you catch me? Let me fall into your arms?
Will you be able to let go?

Watch me vaporize into light
Watch me disappear, forever

Will you sell me as broken parts?
Will you try to rebuild me

Will y o  u   r   e      m        e        m        b        e           r        m   e?
Luna Craft Mar 2015
Make me realize that I miss you
And that our love may actually be true
But I'm not the only one in yours eyes
As your family dies
And you **** the life out of any girl that comes your way
Just to hide your growing frustration
Luna Craft Mar 2015
I use my eyes to see
As anyone else would
I see the colors all around me and the faces of those I love
I love my eyes for they let me see things some can't
Like the expression on your face when you make a mistake
Or the rare smile that you hide
But now my eyes are tired
Dark circles surround them
And my vision is slowly getting duller
The world seems to be turning into a monochrome mess
I couldn't even tell when the red under your eyes
Had turned to the same black as mine
Luna Craft Dec 2015
Did Romeo know Juliet would be the last beautiful thing he saw?
or is the Night-blooming Cereus fine with only seeing the night once a year
I always thought that falling in love would be different
I thought a day wasn't enough
but after I met you I realized that I'd die for just a glimpse at your face
a moment to hear your voice
Luna Craft Apr 2015
I'm like a dragon
I breath fiery words with the coldest impenetrable scales
That make it so no one can get to my heart
I am a dragon that eats people alive
I'm the beast that haunts the dreams and rules the sky
But like the dragon that I hold so highly
That's just a dream
Another fake fantasy
Caused by my childish personality
As I wait for each day to end the same
And my schedule to repeat
I am no dragon, simply a girl who needs to sleep
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