6 weeks since we meet
1 since i left

A cookie and a brownie
Two very different things
But put them together
Its a bakers dream
They are one in there own
Together a mystery
Combining them together
A bakers victory.

The smell wafts from the oven
The love at first bite
This is the bakers
best delight
She will share with her freinds
And watch them smile
Then they will talk
Talk for a while

This is a bakers dream
This is the bakers delight
Its the light that guides them
Throughout the night.

A book is a home,
Where lost souls adventure into,
Where you go to escape a life,
That was never enough,
Where you find love,
And freedom,
And hurt and despair,
Betrayal and new friends.
A book is a home
But when you leave
It is,
The End.

The weather is swelling
The birds are not calling
not singing a song
The fires are lit
The chimneys are filled
And hot cocoa warms our hearts
The wind is howling
The dogs are growling
And mama plays a harp
Thanksgiving is coming
Hot water is running
And kids are laughing about
The blanket butrito as dad wraps them up
This is what family should really be like
Loving kind and fun
Not feeling like you want to run
Family should be nights by the fire
Drinking some coaco
Watching a movie all night
As the kids fall asleep in the middle of it all
This is what I wish for
This is what I want
This is something
That I will never have.

Ahhh
Life
*****
Sometimes
And
I
HATE
it.

I tell them this lie,
All the time,
I'm fine,
Just tired,
Now whats the time?
A lot believe me
Most of them don't
But they never try talk to me
And that
That hurts the most

A test, a test
She said we have a test
Why cant I just rest
And not take the test
They are stacking up
Thats 2, now 3
Why me?
This test, the test
Is making me stressed
So
Im just going to rest.

I'm breaking in two
I dont know what to do
My life's a complete mess
Without you

I feel like I may break your heart
Like I could tear your life apart.

I am broken!
Don't you see?
I am broken
Can I be me?

I did it, I broke your heart
I didnt want to, but I did
But dont worry
I tore mine apart.

It's chritsmas time
I cant get you off my mind
This hasnt happened to me
I don't know how to think
But its christmas time
I cant get you off my mind
and honestly
Thats fine by me.

When life is present,
Like a shooting star,
You wish for death to come,
Knocking at your door.
But when death comes knocking,
At your very front door,
You wish for life to come running,
But it isn't there no more.

Do you ever want to yell?
Do you ever want to be mad at someone?
Do you ever want to flight?
Do you ever just want to curl up and cry?
Do you ever have to lie?
Do you ever just want to die?
Do you ever just want to disaper?

It hurts inseide
And you try to hid.
You just ball your emotions up.
And throw them into a dark cornner.
But they come back
They wont go away
So you keep them at bay
Long  enough
To start another day.

Everything goes.
Everything leaves eventually.
Everything dies eventually.
Everything will wither from your life.
Everything goes.

I ended up forgetting
What true happiness was
What it feels like to be proud of yourself for once
But then the moment is over
And the next minute the sorrow comes back
And you miss that happiness even more

Some one help
I'm trapped in my brain
And I cant get out
These thoughts surrond me
These lies define me
I want to talk
But I don't know how
I just want it to stop
Someone help
Im trapped in my brain
And I cant get out.

Is that all your gonna say
Hi
Not why
Not anything else
Hi to you too.
Oh, look at that
A "Whats going on?
You good?"
Yeah
Everything is
Just
Peachy.

I can't do this anymore...
I can't do this...
I can't do...
I cant...
I...
...

I am free
But still not me.
Im like a bird with a broken wing
I am free
But a broken me.
I am free
But I am lost
I am free
But still  not me

I can't do this anymore
I don't want to fight
I don't want to try
I can't do this anymore

I don't want to fake it
I just want to make it'
I don't want to hide by
I just want to fly high
I dont want to feel mad
I dont want to be sad
I just want to be
The me I never see.

I don't want to feel
I just want to hide my eyes
And cry all night
Till life's alright

If I am over you
Why am I thinking of you

I can just sit
And talk with you for hours
And watch you draw
And I cant believe how much Ive fallen for you
But its imposible not to
I cant stop thinking about you
And I'm going insane
When I'm without you.

Im afraid
Not of others
The fact that they can hurt me
But of myself
Becuase Im always to one
Making others hurt
And that is what scares me
More than anything else.

I tell them I'm fine.
And they believe that lie.
But I just want them to look me in the eyes.
And tell me
I know your not fine.

How long does it take?
How long does it take to realize,
When the monsters have moved
From under your bed
And now
Live inside you head

Its sad
How one can be around so many
And around lots of friends
And yet feel so alone.

You know
Just a guy
The only one who would actually make me happy and laugh
Just a guy
I mean, we only hung out like everyday
And played games and watched movies and did art and celebrated the new year...
Just a Guy.
Defientely.
Just a guy.

These lies, are what keeps me alive.
The lie stops the cry
These lies are now my life.

Love is a drug
Love is contagious
It can stir up your heart
For ages and ages

I feel dead and broken inside,
I'm paralyzed
From the inside out,
But I can't describe
The way the monsters keep calling
Me toward their grave,
And how I don't feel
Like being brave.

"Dont worry" She says in the middle of the night.
"There are no monsters under your bed.
Little do we know, they are all in my head.

Stressed
Depressed
Why
Is my life a mess.

Once apon a time
As if it was a dream
I was a kid
And I didn’t know a thing.

Pain when I walk
Pain when I talk
Pain when I see you
Pain when I remember our friendship
And how great we were
Pain when I remember It's my fault
I am the one who changed
Pain when I realized I'm not me
When I realize what I used to be
Pain when I realize how much I hurt you
Pain when I realize your sorrow
Pain when I go home
And wait for it to start tomorrow.

A flower that shines
So bright in light
But a star that hides
Throughout the night
A girl who smiles
And laughs so bright
She's the one who cries
Till sleep at night
When things are not alright
But she says she's fine
She says this lie
But in reality
She just wants to cry
But thats ok
She decides
She will be a shinning flower in light
And a hiding star at night.

Roses are red
Violets are blue
I cant stop my mind
From thinking of you.

The number 7
What does it mean
Do you have seven dogs
seven cats, seven things?
Do you have seven lucky pens
Seven fun friends
Seven is an odd number
Quite literally sometimes
Maybe your turning 7
Or going into the 7th grade
This is the number seven?
What does it mean?
Look cloesly and it may show you
incredible things.

I love your smile
Its contagious
I love how when you try to keep a straight face
You just break into a smile right afterwards
And it melts my heart
I love your smile
It makes me happy
To think
That it may be
Because of me.

Sometimes I want to yell
Sometimes I want to cry
Sometimes I have to lie
Sometimes I dont want to try

I
  Keep
           Falling
                       Down
                                  These
                                             Steps
                                                       Of
                                                              ­Lies

TALK TO ME PLEASE FOR ONCE IM NOT OK,
IM NOT FINE,
I WANT TO TALK I JUST DONT KNOW HOW.
DONT YOU REALIZE HOW MUCH IT HURTS
WHEN YOU ASK THEM TO LET YOU TALK,
AND THEY TREAT YOU LIKE A FLY.
AND THEY ASK YOU WHY YOU DONT TALK
But you see this,
how they just
this is why
why you build up a wall
because if you don't
they will take over
and leave you more broken then before.