"tattering" poems
Narcissus in chains
Head hung in shame
Where once was beauty
Now nothing remains
No other to blame
Self-bound and tamed
The pitiful, once proud
Narcissus in chains
A flower in bloom
Eventually wilts
Bright leaves growing dim
As essence is spilt
Lifeblood grows weak
Decrepit and stained
All pretty things fade
As the earth lays claim
Broken and twisted
Like narcissus in chains
Reflected in a pool
An image shows true
Until shattered and torn
By a rock falling through
Rippling, tattering
Illusion no more
Cracked and fragmented
As one's inner core
And what's left on shore
Now forever is changed
Who made you so
Oh, narcissus in chains
Time steals beauty
And flowers, they rot
Clear pools dry up
Their waters forgot
As things fall to change
One still remains:
The pitiful, once proud
Narcissus in chains
Mar 27, 2015
Mar 27, 2015 at 1:40 AM UTC
(descent)
Hindered by progress, or the idea of progress:
evolution-in-waiting bellows me to hide,
tattering becomes ruination.
Animism creeps,
not-yet hands pushing at dim velvet.
Peeping one-eyed through the past
where had borne such potent promise
immutability lain intact
flumped into snowy thickness
and thrown hard against Georgian glass.
Here comes the stealth of unillumination
thankfully blanketing
they were tied at the hips
and neck,
then wrapped as old mirrors.
That door went nowhere
it always does
those Victorians, forever meddling,
will folly themselves into any trouble.
(resurrection)
You haven’t changed one bit!
I say to myself,
showing you their brand new niceness
***** as copper pans.
Go on, spit in my fire
the hiss is the thing that’s real.
May 19, 2017
May 19, 2017 at 3:46 AM UTC
with each gust of gloom
transparent emotions flow
a whistling tender breeze
lingering a lonely rhythm
realigning clouds of smog
hovering tattering trees
leaving behind a silhouette
absorbing shadows of sorrow
all alone a locked heart
searching for unknown hope
humming the bitter dreams
of a darkened and lost soul
Feb 15, 2017
Feb 15, 2017 at 8:59 PM UTC
Timing is everything;
Even the weather,
Comes into play.
A cold and rainy
Late-Sunday afternoon
Is no time to end
A love relationship:
To say goodbye for
A very long time; nor,
To remember someone
Crying as you walk away.
Glistening, dark-colored umbrellas
Reflect sad, gray clouds
Drifting so slowly by.
Rain drops mask the tears:
The sighs and sobs of
Gloom weighed heavily by
An incessant, pervasive rain--
Pit, pat, pattering on
Tin roofs; or, plat, plop, plopping on
Foggy windows; or
*** tat, tattering
On walls already swollen
With grief and misery.
Yes, timing is everything!
Even the weather comes
Into play when you finally
Have to say to someone
“Goodbye”, forever, and,
“I do not love you anymore.”
Mar 17, 2010
Mar 17, 2010 at 1:11 PM UTC
Eyes slam shut tight, french doors with frosted glass only the harsh lights peer through thin eye lids, images disappear behind the blurred misconceptions
I'm in love with the concept of love but fearful of rejection
scared she will have keen senses, ample for the detection
of a life without direction
I slam these eyes shut praying she won't catch the hint of whiskey on my teeth chattering
I am a stones throw from entertaining but a star's trip from flattering
As my fidgeting nervous hands are tearing and tattering
the napkins on the table, fingers delicately dance along the coffee creamers racing for the spoon
pretending she reminds me of anyone but you
but her eyes stare at me the way yours do
she laughs at every pointless joke I make too
her lips curl so perfectly over the coffee mug, pink and full of life, vibrant and smooth
I'm a hopeless, lost soul
aching for control
of emotions that know no master, strings never attached allowing me to pull the puppet to it's proper place
I know it's written across my face
letters of your name mix around and re-arrange
eyes slammed shut because the ache of knowing she's just rushing through my heart's void, a winter's draft through a cracked window pane
Leaves me with a void, where your marks will always remain
Sep 17, 2013
Sep 17, 2013 at 6:53 PM UTC
Looking into the still,
black waters
that is your
imagined soul,
My withering prince,
everything held within,
a mere reflection of the
nothingness of time
And did it hurt,
My withering prince?
When I fell through
all the nothingness
that is you?
My empty memories,
of your stone hands
bleed the spaces
between seconds,
between dry tears
And I likened my soul,
to the yellowing pages
of an aged book,
crumbling,
tattering,
with every touch
My withering prince,
did it hurt,
when I fell through,
all the nothingness,
that is you?~A
Sep 28, 2017
Sep 28, 2017 at 9:52 AM UTC
I am the ice sweating in the
midst of a surreal desert.
I rise as a wave in unbelievable
imagination of ravished lunatic.
A jingled chortle
of thundering sky,
a contemplating flower under bodhgay.
I am a mere rogue
tattering at the flowing time
in the ruined temple of life-
hearing the obscene truths sung by cracked skulls.
I sprout as a black cat in darkness
letting the reality to shudder
transcendentalising fantasy.
Sowing soul in the unlimited land of poetry
i water my emotion.
I am the silence of swaying lamp
the inevitable stream of its resonating music.
The songs sung by a million stars
the warm glow puffed by the moon
fills my soul with fluid of purity.
I am a pillar in a church
burnt by a ranting fire
punched by a vehement wind.
I vanish in the fugitive mist
varnish the blazing creature in oppressed slave heart.
I am the space between the doubtfully raised hand
of a poets pen tip,
i am his colorful idea
that has power to devastate the earth.
I howl with dogs
on my knees
in the streets letting everyone to watch my insanity
with uppity sarcasm, superciliously and pitying my senses.
I am a shrilly shriek articulated involuntarily
by a labor carrying 100KG weight,
cruelty of giggling pain in his heart.
I am the suppressed tear
screaming in a lovers eye
trembling tone
of last heart beat.
I am the idea of uncertainty
in Heisenberg's theory
i am that tone of Einstein's piano
which tugged the nerve
that can pronounce E=mc2.
A myriad universes flow in me
as i am smaller than an electron.
I am unbelievable
irrevocable
i am poet.
Sep 19, 2010
Sep 19, 2010 at 5:48 PM UTC
I woke with a start,
the cracked wooden shutters banging wearily in the wind, hinges groaning, slowly rusting, fully unaware that their time had past, instead they hold on like steadfast soldiers defending a front that no longer matters, in a war that’s already been lost
And, as sleep dissipates, my attention narrows and I -
I realize that I have no wooden shutters, that they have not
been attached to a house in which I’ve slept for more years than
most dogs live in east coast towns with half lit neon signs
O en 24 rs
and yet somehow I heard them rat, tat, tattering like the
shuffling of shoes attached to a woman that needs a wheelchair
but refuses, in favor of a walker, who never leaves the house without
removing all the curlers and putting on her face
None the less the shutters, some time long ago
were torn and left asunder, when the house was removed from
its foundation, by a chipped yellow painted machine,
with enough torque to remove the home in which I grew from existence, leaving a gaping hole that was the basement
where I had my first second base
But there is you, laying beside me, gently breathing in the dark
like the consistent flow of ocean waves, lapping the shore with certitude then slowly disappearing into the vastness of the green blue sea
You are more than I ever could have hoped for, more than I
could have imagined decades ago, when, with a pillow pulled upon my head,
wishing that the wooden shutters attached to my blue green house would drown out the sound adults in family rooms make when
screams are louder than Carson and the studio audience’s laughter
Instead of falling back to sleep, I prefer to listen to your ocean’s breath, the silence from the family room that you and I occupy, while hoping to one day hold you steady long after you need a wheelchair but prefer instead my forearm and a cane
Jul 29, 2017
Jul 29, 2017 at 12:37 AM UTC
Let my ferocity, and passion eloquently paint the pictures in my own regrets, tattering the canvas of my own flesh.
Let the foul, and the sweet, mesh together into brilliant concepts caught from the thinning air that only you can breathe.
Let me inhale deeply, savoring every contaminant, every exacerbation, and every nothing that means everything to you.
Let me touch you with every inch, with every intention, and every lust of smiling eyes, that pass over you when you walk by.
Let my fears fill you up with the love intended to be, just let me, be, next to you, in a storm of our foolishness, numbing our chores for the day.
Lets lose ourselves afloat in static temptations powerlessness, as it pulls our eyes closer to the ends.
Lets no longer resist natural instinct, and merely exist in the same place this day, so that we may long for our tomorrow.
Feb 15, 2013
Feb 15, 2013 at 1:07 AM UTC
Pressures of Atlas ruin the vertebral Column geometry
The circles weight stresses the cylinder to a breaking edge. A cut
Math was wrong
Angular and pathetic is this central pump. It leaks from the head gaskets when you add in ethanol
It squeals out noises under the accumulated atmospheres
CortiZol extends the impellers out till they scrape the walls interior
Finally it's released blown out for keeps
Can't take it back
Neither can take back
The pump withers
Proteins shiver
Brownian heat delivers
Bellowing cold from a cosmos of foam
Spine tattering morbid
A decayed thought process that does nothing but jump
Jumping and bounding conclusions that are meaningless regardless
Atlas gave up and the world fell onto gravitys shoulders
Jan 27, 2014
Jan 27, 2014 at 4:30 PM UTC
eerie music of the night
creeps rustling through
the falling leaves whistling
the rhythm of the wind
each brittle branch is
tat-tat-tat-tattering a
beat flowing against the
tossed confetti of leaves
natures natural music
is sung every night
but once a year in October
Halloween holds its concert
Oct 16, 2016
Oct 16, 2016 at 3:31 PM UTC
Rattering tattering
slam-dunk battering
precipitous squall
from a louring sky's fall
as if any of us are mattering.
Tommy Carroll Liverpool
Aug 21, 2015
Aug 21, 2015 at 12:33 PM UTC
Memories like broken glass
fill my heart my sensible soul
shards of you
remain
Tattering this perspective
Leaving a broken person
behind these eyes
This Kerouac perception
mounted on confusion
for feelings left
undisclosed
Baffling me like a child
Thunder and rain my
only solace
dark clouds my psyche
mutually bound
Like hurricane Galveston
ripping apart these thoughts these transgressions
mortally comforting
like cigarettes on Sunday
reaching forth
grasping at straws so they say
they always say
but do they feel as I've felt?
alone & tempered
as glass
the glum periphery engulfing
melting me down eating away
into a pool of nihility
to harden to break these chains
feels outdated unscripted nonsense
in the background of my memories souvenirs
a setpiece based on untruths
created
into
this
sheer crystalline matter
They call
Glass
Jun 29, 2020
Jun 29, 2020 at 6:41 AM UTC
it feels like theres a weight on my chest and i never really knew what to do with my hands when they werent folding myself back into place but lately it seems like my seams are tattering and i dont really know how to sew but its not like you do either. you were never a place holder but suddenly there's a space where you arent anymore and i cant really fix it but call me crazy for the crazy glue and im still trying to stick me back to you.
Nov 29, 2014
Nov 29, 2014 at 4:11 PM UTC
Nothing makes sense anymore
And unnerving of universe agrees
It just said to me, “Stop, give up, adore
Oh do I implore, you to freeze”
Causeways to galactic fracturing
Gnats swarming my eyes for tears
Saving their own life-risked spattering
Been tattering away for years
Finding winced **** gall to ingest
An antidote regarded too unreliable
Shooting up clouds with rocket tests
Only in jest, sounding viable
Criminal patterns keep moving
Through time, history, and now stars
All you can do, to keep on grooving
No snoozing will get you this far
Continued survival has cause
Find it, but with no outer influence
For you have been given no flaws
Find awe in your own existence
A crack in the sky has formed
Rain down solid answers to actuality
Hence, life and why we were born
Unworn from concepts of reality
May 19, 2016
May 19, 2016 at 1:55 PM UTC
*Something happened when
I finally allowed myself
to permit you
to see me.*
*Those eyes of yours, brimming pools,
reached so far deep into my being,
drawing out emotions and thoughts I was afraid to ever show you.
Your nose just breathing space away from mine,
a breath caught in your chest;
It happened—
I let you in.*
*And I think you recognized it,
for that gleam in your eye let me know
that you’re in it, too.*
This is but a bittersweet, diminished thing that we both hold onto,
even after the time when tears filled our eyes.
We’ll never let go, you and I.
“I want to remember you like this,” you said, as you looked at me through fogging lenses.
And I, you, like this.
It was in that moment we allowed ourselves to gaze upon
a last tattering photograph of when we were whole.
One last kiss,
one last woven catalyst of fingers,
and I held your face in my hands
and whispered, “You are incredible.”
But we just couldn’t be.
Apr 22, 2011
Apr 22, 2011 at 2:59 PM UTC
I'll never be the one
flipped and done
Kiss the sun
Burn your buns
I guess you won
You stabbed my heart
With paper darts
Made me ****
Tree's stripped of bark Apple à la cart
Look down below
Summer's in the snow
Wondering you know
How we just blow
Separately on the go
I was aways opening the door
Backing up on the floor
Stumbling ! Falling !
The fabric of life just tore
Tattering
Who's keeping score ?
Oct 6, 2018
Oct 6, 2018 at 8:48 AM UTC
Yes, I play our memories
Over in my mind
Letting them dance upon my eyelids
And pull at my heart strings
They won't stop if I plead
They're all you've left me with
Everything I can remember
Every touch
Every glance
Every uttered sound
It's all I have of you
You may not realize
But when you said goodbye
You never really left me
In the same way, I suppose, I may haunt you
Every burning wick
Those flickering flames
Every shift in daylight
The turning of the sun
Every fold in the flag
Stitches tattering slowly
Every drop of rain
Refreshing the life and growth of Earth
They are part of me
And they reek of you
No matter where I go
Or who I'm with
I can't escape your gaze
Can't loose the grip you have on my heart
And after these months of fighting it
I no longer care
I've accepted that you're a part of me
Forever more
Feb 1, 2013
Feb 1, 2013 at 8:56 PM UTC
It is goodbyes and hellos all wrapped into one.
It is yearning for a moment that is already slipping from your grasp.
It is silence, and yet a fast paced symphony,
humming tunes to your scattered mind.
It is uncertain,
and unreliable.
A permanent tattoo on life;a standstill.
A broken clock.
Free from seconds ticking away,
free from years tattering a body.
But even though the flesh will remain untouched,
the soul will undoubtedly,
show worn.
No immorality can keep it,
from showing how the years have aged it.
Nov 11, 2015
Nov 11, 2015 at 12:35 PM UTC
Sometimes I feel like I can run
Run miles away from reality by my shadow still follows
But my heart beats fast like a drum
Wishing the memories of you would burn down to ashes
Only to creep back minute after minute, hour after hour
Of those crazy days we had sleepless nights chatting
Trying to sleep but all was in vain
Highlighting the feelings we had for each other
But all is a chronicle
I guess I lost everything for nothing
It feels awful by this feeling
A feeling that silences the beauty of the past and revives the present
Tattering the hopes and only crushing me to the ground
Weak and feeble, left for the vultures to devour
But still the resonant words of you still whisper to my ears like a passing wind
I try to come into existence with reality,you're gone
But it's as hard as cracking a nut
Trying to flee my convicted mind
Trying to create a new world deemed feet for me
The sky's blue,I can't hold on ,but I'll try
Jul 26, 2017
Jul 26, 2017 at 10:19 AM UTC
petrichor is to VX
as temporary is to eternity
for a long sleep
is considered 'la petit mort'
let it pour down the porcelain
stitching
of thy hollow carcass
cold, shivering,
along with
the music of my teeth,
tattering
to calm is to wait for precipitation.
and I want it so bad.
May 8, 2019
May 8, 2019 at 1:10 PM UTC
A glimpse behind the mask,
a catching of the tongue.
The faces waiting in the shadows,
I know,
I've seen them before.
The breaking of a new day,
the makeshift of the moment.
A not-so-subtle desire,
an urge,
to discover the self.
A memory now,
disconnect me from my emotion.
How’d I fail to see through this disguise?
The layers of compassion
hidden
within those focus-wearied eyes.
A whisper,
an acknowledgement.
A tattering of delusions,
the picking up of ruins.
How much was it worth to learn what could have been known
Any other way?
The seconds turned into minutes,
the minutes became miles,
My breath tired,
it tried to keep up.
Calmness.
Now.
The centre of peace.
The questions and their answers
subsided,
a beckoning of quietness and solitude.
May 24, 2016
May 24, 2016 at 2:36 AM UTC