It was a starry night,
I remember the moon was bright.
As I sat in my canopied room
Atop the inn of gloom,
Its musty stench of walls and flesh,
Surrounded by dim light and floors below, strewn
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At first I was anxious and nervous
About the spectre’s appearance
But something in his presence was calming
Curious as it was, I was longing.
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He was not ghostly in the way you would think
He was as real looking, enough to drink,
Though it was something in his air and aura
That told me his demise like Gomorrah,
And how he was perished and dead,
And with these rotting words he said
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“Gaze upon me and listen well,
For your silence I wish you not quell,
My words you will not stir,
You will absorb and then, good sir,
I will reappear as those who’ve been
You yourself and died again,
You are the last and only one,
Upon earth to know this secret done,
You will understand this true confusion
And soon be rid of your delusion.
But I warn there is a painful price,
In cherished aforementioned gift so nice
Of that you will find soon
And your burning soul will croon.
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My name is High Lord Kellik,
And my touch you’ve already met.
You’ve felt me here before,
I walk with you, ancestor, but more.
I am the first of you in this lone world,
I suffered what once was unfurled.
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Now know our cryptic secret revealed
Of the same bloodline congealed:
To all of us who are one,
This life is not your only one.
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I’ve risen again from fallen,
I was in Jerusalem
When my Lord he calleth,
God chose not to follow them.
I was of the Tuetonics,
Though my death was quite ironic,
For they had me drawn for heresy
And quartered for allegedly
Stealing an Arab’s maidenhead
Even though my wife was pregnant then,”
(At this sentence, twas there I noticed,
The chainmail and a cross of lotus,
Betwixt his breast and penance
He seemed holy, even justice.)
“I loved my wife from first gaze through labor,
Twas the last I saw of her, I savored
The love in her eyes when I lost her.
All I wanted was to adore her.
They led me into ‘court’ they said,
Twas to be my own deathbed,
And when they called out all my sins,
Of course I denied, being pious within,
Although my truth they would not have,
I again suffered my brother’s terrible wrath.”
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I spoke my first words, shaking, unstable,
Asking questions gated in stables,
“Sir, I know my silence is needed,
But I request some answers conceded,
Why did they not trust your pure enough claims,
Brothers, as you said, seeking no gain?”
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Spake he “I understand your logic,
Twas mine although my brothers were stoic,
You see, it is the terrible price
That I spoke earlier, a wretched vice,
To know the things that we will tell,
You must know the darkest hell,
You must know that you will die
A most gruesome death without comply,
Because we are one, it must happen and then,
You’re born the same, to die again.”
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I sat silent for a moment and pondered,
I thought of a tree that aimlessly wonders,
About its life serving no purpose,
To grow leaves and die, its only service,
It seemed of me, so pessimistic
To know this life is quite solipsistic.
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He continued,
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“Know that I had the easiest death,
The first brother-blade did pierce my chest,
It struck my heart, and I must make amends,
That is why none of us will find love again.
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I was of the knights most valiant,
My fervor was the most resilient,
Whatever we may ever be,
It is irrelevant, you’ll die like me.”
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Shocked, I sat in euilibrium,
You’d think it peaceful
But my world was undone,
It forever changed that starry night,
And was only the beginning of my hellish fright.
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Lord Kellik departed there through my door,
I heard no steps upon the floor,
I thought it odd for plate boots to make,
No sounds on oaken plates of estate…
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Soon my door was reopened again,
I looked up and gazed at him,
At me, twas now I started to see,
Resemblance in us, for no helmet he wore,
But rather a coat of a Hessian he bore,
He masked the same look I see on myself,
When I’ve been through darkness, my own hell,
The blue eyes like mine, were mine, and hair,
Dark brown, and had a piercing stare,
German accent had he upon conversing,
“Wie gehts? Ich heisse Kryztoff von Gersching,”
“Hallo Kryztoff, mein namme ist Andrew Marheine.”
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“There is great hate between two factions,
Two worlds, once one, under taken action,
The English came and fought and tried,
The way Americans denied
The rights of those that were first here,
I was hired to broaden their fear.”
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Surprised at his English,
I also switched,
“Sir, I noticed that your neck is stitched…?”
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“A wound from battle, the only lucky
Thing that ever happened to me,
But knowing what I do know now,
I would pick severed jugular to doubt.
My unit was captured by a group of guerrilla yanks,
They slaughtered us each unless we joined their ranks,
In this massacre there was no honor,
In sending home bodies, lost sons and fathers,
I steadily refused to be a part,
So they began tearing me apart
Until they then realized
I would gladly be crucified,
That just for that, that I despised,
Each one of them for their “freedom” lies,
Their General King, although respected,
Washington should not have defected.
You see now where democracy has led,
The better off, are the lucky dead.
I see you ask of what I died?
Of what brought about a Hessian’s demise?
The gutless ******* shot me with small cannon
Direct in my stomach, you cannot fathom,
The amount of pain in three long hours…
I wished for death, but not from cowards.”
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He was proud looking, but not Narcissus,
Battle worn, and quite seditious.
I noticed his sword, the handle notched,
For every inch of life he’d squashed
Like a child’s boot to an ant hill.
This man died alone and still.
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He spoke once more
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“You have been blessed with knowledge and wrought,
You though will be turned to naught,
The pain you’ll be in, too much to endure,
Your arteries pumping blood to the floor,
We know not how you will die,
But painful be it, no chance to survive.
Because, like us, you have no one here,
Like us, not missed, no tragic dear,
Your name be forgotten until
The next of us lives to see us fill.”
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He exited without another word,
I found it quaint, unlike the herd,
I strove to be different, I suspect I’ve succeeded,
After all, who knew their death, and believed it?
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Wondering if I would again be visited
Or if my passed lives were but two limited,
I also thought of how they appeared…
I could not recall how the first had veered,
Or why they ventured to me and told
Me of their stories that would make hearts cold
Stuck with this thought, another come forth,
From my wooden frame of door,
His brilliant armor, black with silver,
Across his back, a sheathe and quiver,
He looked at me, and I again saw myself,
And again saw another me been felled,
“Hello,” I said “won’t you come in?”
“Obliged,” spake he “see what lies therein.
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He began,
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“Young man, you know not missing your home,
But I come from the brightest years of Rome,
Although I knew only Coliseum
I hoped my soul be with Ellysium,
I was a slave in the rich man’s bloodsport,
And the crowd, they cheered for more and more,
To live every day knowing you must fight,
Can bring great depression to one’s very life,
Caesar said I could in time be free,
I fell my last fight, suffering,
The anguish that flowed through me at then,
Was not of physical harm, but when,
My bowels were visible on the ground,
All I could feel was loss never found,
I swore allegiance to men never met,
And all it brought was discontent.
Never think twice about an act,
It could save your life until this pact,
Although you will die, nameless forever,
Know that even the smallest endeavor,
Will not change this predestination,
This marvelous melancholy is Hades’ invention,
We will not wake until we’ve slept,
The eternal slumber, and mourner’s have wept,
About a loss that is so profound,
Until they forget why the feelings endowed,
Are the enemy to their own happiness,
They then know not of what ‘revolting’ is.”
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This nameless man stood up and gazed,
Outside of my withered window pane,
His eyes lightened and looked ever broken,
And I could see a man who’s life and freedom were stolen,
If ever I had wanted to cry in confrontation
It would’ve been at his lamentation,
But I bit my tongue and held back from that,
Although he noticed with eyes like a cat,
He smiled at me, I smiled at me,
And it was then that he began to proceed,
Out of my door, and out of my eyes,
I thought about my ending surprise.
I now knew death was not to be,
An old man while I was in my sleep,
But rather a darker, gruesome end,
Perhaps lacerations from within,
And as this trickled across my brain,
I could swear to God I went insane,
I sat in my room for weeks despaired,
Tasting nothing except the stale air,
and then one day it finally clicked,
That life is what it is, a foul ******* trick.
Dark, Melancholy, Macabre
