"fictionalized" poems
Maybe the majority of your malice march is fueled with fire;
fictionalized by myself. Simply because my greatest desire is
currently to avoid knowing that you long to hurt me. Dear, let
me tell you this; I know everything.
Aug 25, 2015
Aug 25, 2015 at 2:20 AM UTC
A faith we fancy is that freedom is fabricated and forged for us by our forefathers who fought and forced their foes to forfeit their feud. They fended fiercely and defended fearlessly a fictionalized fact, freedom, filtered with fire and flame. A few fell to be famed fellows of the future while a fraction of the fraternity are farewelled faceless.
All those frigid flashback brought-forth what we framed and fantasized as freewill and forbade freaks to falsify our fascination.
It all falters as we fathom that freedom didn't fade ,but w/o a fons-et-ergo, a foolish fairytale foretold for us to falsely follow a formula for the foremen to fortify the fake façade of freedom while we flounder and they float.
And if we flush and fracture their folderol, we are flagged as flagitious, frauds and fellons.
For the feasibility of freedom is a mere ****** Fuckery to **** us.
Jan 7, 2013
Jan 7, 2013 at 12:02 PM UTC
This thing, the words and all? I was trying on a new skin.
It was made of the old -the familiar, too, but transformed.
Something added that could take root,
Take me out from the norm.
Take on a new identity.
Perform.
Squinting at a light, held at arm’s length:
My own spotlight.
So you could watch me act it all out,
Over and over, forever on the page.
but nothing ends as it began.
My troubles, my worries, my lust, my greed,
All fictionalized and petty.
Disgust and shame.
Anger and fear,
Are not advisable
Unless they bring about change.
Even those, now left behind.
Moulted.
Shedding my old skin.
Toughening up the new.
Oct 30, 2014
Oct 30, 2014 at 10:17 PM UTC
She's a rainbow
-- that rainbow in every
rock song about nothing,
a hidden hook that snares
a sucker's wallet
I'm so hot for her, I'm so hot for her
She
is the philosopher's stone transmuting
garbage lines into shiny trinkets
in desirous minds
*When you're old, nobody will know
that you was a beauty*
What would pop culture be
without woman to exploit?
*She's a gooooooood girl
crazy 'bout Elvis*
Obscured, behind
the Micks and Pettys
the Kellys and Ushers
the Pauls wailing MAMAAAAA
the free spirit groupie cliché
is Woman fictionalized
by peacocking pimps
deceptive plumage splayed
is Woman
sung about
talked at
reduced to an abstraction
dispensed with
forgotten
and sold
and the men
get rich.
Jul 29, 2016
Jul 29, 2016 at 2:32 PM UTC
you are my favorite non-fiction
and darling, I've lived fantasies...
I have fictionalized feelings...
but what we shared was unstaged
-unscripted
something found in between the sheets and "I'm sorry's"
we redefined the line
we cut the strings
found ourselves lost amidst the friends and the lovers
like the rough draft of a Hemingway novel.
what we are is made for the storybooks, my sweet.
we witnessed monotony and wrote of miracles
never intoxicated, but always impaired
we could overflow libraries-
flood them with our stories of how the sea swallowed up * all those * l i v e s...
and we had barely missed making history
we begged the other to simply save us...
starving for the intrigue of a good fiction
- dying to live a story worth telling...
May 12, 2011
May 12, 2011 at 12:14 AM UTC
Robin's egg eyes,
Disheveled blonde hair,
Pupils that burn,
Entreat me to your lair.
Held me as I slept,
Caress me awake,
I watched as you wept,
About a life fictionalized to date.
Floral patterns surround us,
A ceiling of sky blue,
Close your eyes to imagine,
A mingling of two.
Under the star filled sky,
Above the deep black sea,
You suspend me,
You arrest me.
Jan 25, 2016
Jan 25, 2016 at 2:11 PM UTC
I watch
I understand
and I feel
most importantly
As you sleep
I know
I cannot feel
anything
from you...
it makes one wonder
is love tangible?
or is it humanly fictionalized
written as if this
what you are receiving
and reading right now
is...
well,
love.
can you feel that i care?
I will never know.
by your stare
impossible...
for you are asleep
I'll just lay my head down next to yours
maybe my life will cease
hoping I will cause an effect
maybe just a crease
maybe I can stop you
stop you
from counting sheep
perhaps teach you how to read
or maybe you can teach me to stop loving you
as you sleep.
Oct 12, 2011
Oct 12, 2011 at 7:13 PM UTC
I thought about you last night
And it's not what you're thinking
I mean more like day dreaming
More like a storyline
Playing out in my head
With ups and downs
And it was so perfect
I wrote it down
And realized
I might love my fictionalized version of you
More than the real you
I guess that's always the case
But it made me realise
What I love so much
About writing
It's the closest I've ever felt
To god
Aug 10, 2013
Aug 10, 2013 at 6:58 PM UTC
I sit at home thinking of life,
On the absurdities and all the strife,
Caught in a world that yearns
For beings to explore it.
How we’ve all grown addicted,
As no one could’ve predicted,
To our own little "ideal" worlds
That rest neatly in the palm of our hands.
We cry and complain,
How things don’t remain,
Just way the way we want
When we point our heads to the sky.
Away from our own little worlds,
We see grandiosity unthought of.
We see war, famine, disagreements, heartbreaks, rejection, and loss.
We stare for but a moment taking it in as our minds collapse in the straw houses we created.
And then just like that, we shun all that we see,
And look back down to that glowing screen and start to rebuild.
Not with something stronger, no.
With that same old material so readily available, to those who refuse to learn.
To those who refuse to face the reality of life.
To those who prefer hearing their own ideas on rerun.
To those who care more about having the appearance of a happiness than to actually achieve it.
To those who care more about likes and comments, pictures and videos, than meeting others.
We sit there smiling at that device that eats away at our growth, our character, and our resolve.
And in our haste to prevent ourselves from acknowledging hardships, we miss something.
In that infinite space away from our "ideal" worlds, exists the other half we no longer see.
The happiness, bonds, trust, friendships, kindness, and love.
The people that want to strike up a conversation, form relationships.
The people who desire an emotional bond, rather than a visual one.
We imitate this, attempt to recreate it, in our fictionalized lives, not realizing how much better the real thing would be.
If only we would look up to the sky.
Aug 27, 2018
Aug 27, 2018 at 11:31 PM UTC
I know I think the best
When surfing across the internet
Or scanning a page for class
Some forum
To shift my ******** towards,
Whether to impress, or to forget.
It’s all the same.
I do not laugh at the right time
And end up in breakdowns
When I’m confronted with the actor that is also me.
Call it fraudulence if you will,
It’s a means to ends of the perfect relationship
I’ve fictionalized in my head.
I’ve fallen in love with falling love
And get off to just holding hands and feeling wanted.
Does memory bless me the inspiration to write down in verse
Some alternative that proves, I know,
Useless
In the long run?
Are the psychologists right?
Am I destined to die by my own hand?
My own pen?
By cause of my own disposition?
Thoughts of suicide, depression, endless solipsism pervade
My little godless world.
Poetry solidifies it.
**** you. **** you whose rejection is undeserving of my hatred
Whose own life is the object of my own stupid, adolescent, immature mode
Of healing, whose subjectivity, whose humanness
Is of its own design and accord—I do not own you
You are as you are: not mine, but your own.
And I hate you because you do not oblige me as I think you should
You do as you ought, as you do—
Is this what it feels like?
Where is there happiness if not for in the end?
Nov 21, 2014
Nov 21, 2014 at 1:35 AM UTC
i need to see the sun rise this day;
for feet elucidated of patterns
followed upon an earth. wearied
or aching, knees to find
rest on Katahdin's summit;
fictionalized place of birthed sun.
now mythos, now dawn and
an arrow sure to have missed
the moon's lover. fired
by childhood mockery
while birds awakened song.
i need to see the sun rise this day;
for eyes be witness of intri-
cacies entwined upon an earth.
Oct 12, 2014
Oct 12, 2014 at 8:11 AM UTC
There was this thing with parsley and lemon that i never knew,
Before jasmine bloomed below my moonless nights.
It came as a surprise when i learned the moistened bundles,
Green of scented lashings, took to whipping saintly flesh.
Holy was the root beneath the sacrificial lamb, white and rubbed of
Tasteless degraded dirt, growing in rows facing artificial south.
"Baaa-baaa", cried the appetite for its feeding in the field.
"Baaa-baaa", scorned the lemon lamb.
Seeds squeezed free as yellow screams dripped through divine ears.
Bitter acid, holy ghost, neutralize our sins.
"Nothing will be wasted, nor forgotten!" claimed
The shears. as hands of holy citrus, clip-clipped-buzzzzzzz.
Tremendous clouds of earthly fluff, not hung high as the
Gods do for fear, lay beside the feasted lamb of peasants parsley
Naked; purged; they gathered in stinging holy hands,
Around their false and bleeding christ , fictionalized death, fabricated life.
Lemon seeds i now spit for sport and leaves of parsley i keep pruned
From their rocky stalk. the roots i boil and use to fill a truffled stew.
Feb 27, 2017
Feb 27, 2017 at 10:39 PM UTC
I wonder
I see
didn't even know that came from me
I saw
I begin to believe
and how quickly it all changes
when none can agree
Agree with what
that's all I'd say
though I couldn't care less
either way
I have since forgotten
what it means to be
and to see with clear vision
all that I am to see
I haven't even tried
though in rhymes I can write
and with such cowardice
I maddeningly deny
all that I have been
and hope to be
It's not about me
these words are just
things that come to my mind
screaming, ringing, being
I could go on for eternities
now that I've learnt to let go
who cares what it's saying
I've said it
so now it is so
what does it mean
to be totally free
fictionalized fantasies
it seems
have no place with me
There are no limits
to what was meant to be
and even in reverse
it can be what's said to me
I say, I sing, I cry
I'm a dreamer
dreaming of things that I
hope to never do
but someday still
will find within me
dripping with meaning
leaving me
solemn, content, and still
So many times I try not to rhyme
can't stand the corniness it adds to each line
Dare I depart to a world all my own
where is that sound I long for
and have come to know
I search for true meaning
though really
nothing at all
it's just something said
for me to be saying something again
One day
just watch
soon you will see
as was meant to be
words flowing freely
in majestic prose
stopping hearts
but when they wonder why
an answer they can not find
Why do I do it
where does it all come from
can I believe
can I become
what it seems to me
never was and never wants to be
I have no shame
so the words flow without haste
I don't even care if they didn't keep pace
You will never progress if you do not believe
but more important is to try
then repeat
but just like me
I'm going somewhere
this I know
it's only a matter of time
before it will be so
Feb 5, 2016
Feb 5, 2016 at 11:18 AM UTC
I stumble through my words
And I tell you my fictionalized truth
I meant it all but I mean nothing of the sort
I never do.
It was -
The way my chest felt compressed and full
It boiled and ached when you
Kiss me on the cheek.
It didn't feel right, I didn't feel okay.
I didn't know what to do,
So I verbalized my mistakes.
I counted them
Again and again to push you away
Hoping you'd be scared but you
Kept steady, you stayed and stayed.
And all I wanted was for you to leave.
I love better at a distance.
Sep 4, 2017
Sep 4, 2017 at 5:36 PM UTC
Aint' it a shame
I hear them complain
as clouds of smoke
circle their faces.
Tight jacket teens
glare at me
dangerously.
Tallest of the bunch
growls angrily,
"stop looking at me
puke face."
I turn away
but not fast enough
cause mister
tough stuff
has something more
in mind you see.
Stomping over all
indignantly,
he yells
"Hey,
you ignoring me?"
I try to move
faster than him,
but a shove in my back
makes it clear
this is a race
I won't win.
So, I face him.
Two years older,
might as well be
twenty-three
to my early teens.
He pushes me
back up against a tree,
then goes in to punch
me in the face,
but my face
does not remain
in that unsafe place.
So, he hits the tree.
Cursing loudly
with a mangled hand
slows him down,
but doesn't stop his friends.
They follow me
down the street
and beat me till
I am out of wind.
This is were
this poem ends.
There is no
sweet revenge.
Time goes on.
I don't see them again,
and this becomes something
distorted and fictionalized
in these poetic lines.
Nov 27, 2018
Nov 27, 2018 at 10:11 AM UTC
How do we breath in the scent of forgiveness and never once think to ask if it was willingly met?
How do humans function with one another when there is so much prejudice and turmoil?
How does the wind so simply carry away all of our pains when there's nothing to keep it steady?
How does love conquer all when its all just a fictionalized lie?
How am I here when I should be there?
How is my heart still beating when there is no value in the life that I live?
How can I love when all I ever been met back with is the force of friendship?
Apr 11, 2017
Apr 11, 2017 at 3:03 PM UTC