"disbands" poems
Shutter shutter
Shaking hands
Static storm strikes
The world disbands
Claustrophobic
Engulfed in black
Must push forward
Cannot look back
The world is gone
Memories too
Can't understand
Is this world true
But there is help
They protect me
We fight for a goal
I cannot see
Does time stand still
Or move too fast
Too long the struggle
Not all friends last
Into the light
Beckoning hue
Sudden breathe
The world in view
Focus ahead
Devour the air
Back in this world
Thousand mile stare
Thankful but sick
Pleading to stay
When will it stop
Will I be okay
Finally home
Exhausted fried
If this battle was lost
I could have died
Apr 8, 2015
Apr 8, 2015 at 7:18 PM UTC
Marines call to say hello,
impress. I'm over 35 but my boys
19. They could go: Hide!
One moment spent tying a shoe,
another dying, gunshot wound or poisoned food.
Events in their mere chronology
make no sense.
And the details of yr dad's life don't either.
Late night
quiet cigarette smoker. But next day,
the butts cleaned into the can. Who does that?
Lady in a skirt or overalls rolled up - cigarette smoke.
Now it's yr dad.
Yr dad who
watches for war.
Even if Uncle Sam disbands, dissolves
we the people will still be here and stay involved
with North America. The purple mountains majesty
and shining seas
little people, big people, brown, red, and white. Addicted
to action movies.
Perhaps there is no choice. One must sit, sitting still
as a buddha, sitting bull.
I can imagine myself and all others - drivers, voters, runners -
little fetal muscles
at first. Metastasizing. What's it called when the cell
at the tip of the *****
or organism, divides, and the ***** grows? It's called
girl on a bicycle.
I find I make no sense. Her **** a practicality to her, is
delicious to me
a miraculous sea lettuce or snapdragon. You've heard it before.
A moral dilemma
wrapped in robes and silks and odors. Yet, come close,
and business beckons
work gets done, life goes on, hair grows in, we go on
vacation
the Marine Corps calls, desperate for new fetuses to teach
purposeful workmanlike killing
I'll do my own killing, thanks, when violence comes to the
neighborhood
if I've got your back
your back's gotten and if I'm on point, the point's taken.
One world under God invisible with liberty and justice for all who
Art in heaven
what the hell's his name.
Nemesis.
Hysterical.
The small war of an especially inept empire. The world's too big
to swallow as the Krauts and Nips found out. Empire
is self-correcting. Them dark-skinned mustachioed *********
who can't fix their own electricity seem to be kicking our *****
pert good. As did the ***** before them. All to the good. A
good lesson to know and then we all become friends following
the brawl. We apparently cannot skip the fight. It must
be fought, and **** the girls.
Aug 10, 2015
Aug 10, 2015 at 8:24 PM UTC
And only when every prison
in the police state has
an art gallery
only when hip hop
sounds like a revolutionary
sermon
only when Congress disbands
itself for lack of moral conduct
only when condoms
are jammed tightly
into high school backpacks
only when free speech
isn’t subject to search
and seizure
only when housing projects
get gated fences
only when college
athletes use pi
to find the circumference
of a basketball in their spare time
only when food pantries
exist in old NRA hangouts
only when Monsanto scrubs clean
every black cloud
only when Noah comes back
and transports
two of everything to
a protest movement
only when a protest
movement morphs
into a diversity celebration
and only when the U.S. government
writes a 5,000,000 page
apology for every ****
****** and Bill O’Reilly
sentence uttered
will I even consider having
a picnic.
Oct 24, 2013
Oct 24, 2013 at 11:21 AM UTC
The Circus gongs excite the Throngs in nighttime Never Land –
They swarm to see the destiny of Freaks at their command,
While Acrobats step pitapat above the shifting sands
And Lady Fat sits down to chat and oozes charm unplanned.
The Dwarfs in suits, so small and cute when marching with the Band,
Ask crimson Clowns with frozen frowns, to hold a mutant hand,
While Tamers’ whips with withered tips, throughout the winter land,
Lure Cats entranced through hoops enhanced with flames of fires fanned.
White Elephants in big-top tents boast black-tusk contraband
To regiments of Sycophants who overflow the stands,
But No One sees anomalies, and No One understands.
At night’s demise, the dither dies, the lonesome Crowd disbands,
Down dead-end streets the Horde retreats, their tattered rags in strands,
And Janes and Joes reweave their woes, for thoughts of change are banned.
To play a part in Three-Ring Art, I thought I’d try my hand –
I mastered skills, I felt the thrills, I breathed and seethed firsthand –
But destiny denied to me to taste a lifetime spanned
With tightrope walks and trapeze chalks ... excepting second-hand...
For alcohol provoked a fall, as if a reprimand,
And now, a heap, I sometimes keep the ticket office manned...
Mar 14, 2013
Mar 14, 2013 at 10:57 AM UTC
summer sky aloft
a massive cloud bank disbands
lacing into gills
wind huffs make spastic punches
cooling my agitation
May 25, 2022
May 25, 2022 at 9:24 PM UTC
She's the beautiful one.
Wears Versace and French inhales myrrh cigarettes.
Behind blinking veils lies the sun,
While in her eyes, your mind forgets.
Never miss a glance,
Denounce mere recognition.
An eager chance,
Herein lies your new mission.
Tempt her senses,
She's unprotected.
Take down defenses,
Now you're connected.
She doesn't think, she dreams.
All she does is disappear.
Nothing is as it seems,
Your whole world, again unclear.
Tender last words spoken,
Dark nails red on fragile hands.
Another dream broken,
The chemical disbands.
This (and you)
Is (are) her gift.
And this (and you)
Is (are) her curse.
Aug 6, 2011
Aug 6, 2011 at 10:03 AM UTC
The sun cracks the sky where the albatross
flies; the clockwork waves splash
Lunacy, the morning haze disbands.
Your patchwork raft, the labour, the scars;
The salt and the spray assault
the ballet: the majestic way you stand.
Your teeming suitcase, a thousand journals,
Their iridescence forms a compass
gleaming north to your merits.
Mountains ahead are distant, hills behind are old
Marvel in awe, gasp as your youth
floats passed, whipping up paths of sand.
Grow and glow, perspire and expand,
shadows are cast for eyes to follow
a menorah of promised plans.
Sand turns to brickwork, pebbles to mortar
squint across the water and scuff a hoof
lunge and press digits on freshly laid girders.
Pull back the bow and aim, no doubt
In grey-matter but a quiver
full of knowledge, a diver in a mirage
A bridge to greener land.
Mar 19, 2014
Mar 19, 2014 at 9:38 AM UTC
1) The world scorns me
Without reason
No Blood, upon my hands
The guilt destroys me,
Without reason,
Thoughts fight, sense disbands
I am spinning
in the mist,
and Catching
glimpses as I twist
As spectres
smother my existence
Hiding joy
and warping distance,
Trivialities
are manifest
Drunk on self importance,
dressed
Clinically,
and all in white
Anaesthetists,
I feel no light.
Hold me now and show me
sense
I need a frame
of reference,
Joy, at times, will follow,
after
Let me know and
show me laughter
Show me love,
And tell me if,
Asking why’s
A dangerous gift.
*
2) We can never be free
Or unshackle the chain
Of cause,
and effect
We are never free
From the consequences
Of our actions,
unless
We break free
from our mind’s archives
Of shame,
and unrest
Aug 1, 2011
Aug 1, 2011 at 1:53 PM UTC
Inhale the burn, choke and splutter;
the walls sway, the roof descends.
Pass the vessel and cut the rafters;
the chair tilts, the table bends.
Exhale the fumes, laugh and mutter;
the floor shifts and window melts.
Spool back, slow down the pitter-patter
of those around; now talking faster.
Words whizz past, spill and clutter,
then echo round an empty chamber.
Retract a thought from lingering over
the tongue and through the closing shutters.
Rooms disperse and feelings clatter
with no impact on soft grey-matter
your brain swirls, and body disbands.
Through the barrel, **** the hammer;
pupils shrink and heartbeats race.
Fixated by a bold, young face
the grin widens, the wall moves near
and bubbles up in yellow blisters
wood-chip cheeks and cracking fissures
take flight and sober up halfway
through the bathroom window.
Mar 21, 2014
Mar 21, 2014 at 7:33 PM UTC
Grant me the pleasures
Indulge me with fantasies
The reality is acknowledged by me
Believe me, I understand what you need
I know, just the same, what I want
I want to leave
I want to leave you with your awful lips and
Confused hands
I want to be with someone who loves me
Fiercely and passionately
With someone who lights a fire
Inside my body
And demands I stoke it
So it burns furiously for both of us
I care for you
You
The one who has supported me for long
Stretches of time
But my desires lay with another
Someone who feeds my indulgences
Who disbands reality;
My love
Apr 8, 2015
Apr 8, 2015 at 1:34 PM UTC
From the shining heavens,
to the depths of hell,
are countless places,
in which mortals dwell.
People like me,
who are simple and free,
search for happiness, wherever it may be.
Yet the obstacles are endless,
countless and limitless.
Every goal we set creates another one, harder.
Progressing toward, the highest of the heavens,
eventually even we, begin to falter.
We see that the joys that money may bring,
a life of pleasure, girls and spring,
are ephemeral, illusory, temporary like the wind.
A short term high, like drugs taken at a whim.
These joys and pleasures, and the highs it may bring,
Are no different from the crude, happiness of dreams.
Experiencing them when either rich or poor,
the difference is legality, for good or for ill.
Yet the heavens are temporary, the joys are too.
Whatever once brought us there,
can bring us down too.
Navigating the clouds, transparent as can be.
Fragile like the pleasures that one enjoys within thee.
Striving so hard to maintain this modicum of joy,
we lose sight of it all, overwhelmed by turmoil.
Eventually our attention laxes, our focus disbands,
we descend to the hells, all joys out of hand.
All the happiness we seek, seemingly gone from thee,
we forget that their joys are as temporary as can be.
Mistakenly seeing it as the source which we seek,
we chase them relentlessly, bringing others with thee.
Confusing ourselves, and others who follow me,
we end up on a path, both hellish and heavenly.
These conflicting experiences, strengthening within me,
I become conflicted, as do others who join me.
Soon we all forget, what is happiness and joy.
Seeking a fleeting, temporary ploy.
Deceiving us of happiness, the peace within thee,
Eventually we die, no happiness within me.
If only I saw what was in front of me.
If only I overcame the senses which deceived me.
If only I realized the truth of one,
that both heaven and hell, are meant to be undone.
We separate the two, splitting humans in two,
where some enjoy good, and the rest make do.
Mistaking happiness, to be the fleeting joy of bliss,
we no longer see, that true joy is in this.
Enduring pain, experiencing ease.
Overwhelming the tribulation with true inner peace.
From this all shackles become undone,
for there is nothing, left to be done.
Nov 8, 2017
Nov 8, 2017 at 10:08 AM UTC
She looks so heavenly
Behind my lenses she actef weirdly
But I really fancy this sweet lady
She kisses mine so delicately
Once your nails digs in,
I feel insanity creepin'
They're **** amused while lookin'
To us, they couldn't do what we're makin'
Gladly getting down your knees
You pray loudly with a microphone on your hand
A sensation of a holy touch climbs up to my mind
For some reason, my heart doesn't beat like they planned
Getting inside the vacancies and your voice disbands
Why don't they just tell us we're fools making this work
When we are nothing but pretentious ******* faking how love looks
You have gotten the idea of the papers you gave zeros *****
I've been here for a while and ran from every hook.
Oct 3, 2017
Oct 3, 2017 at 12:10 PM UTC
Everyone’s only ever in love with the idea of her. They like her performance. She draws in many fleeting fans but not supporters.
With her sight withering and her back stooping, what she has established as her foundational support simply disbands in search of new fun to feast on. In vain she sweated so harshly while dancing for their judgemental eyes that their idea of her melted off of her skin and she was left naked and alone.
Jul 5, 2019
Jul 5, 2019 at 11:31 AM UTC