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Kate Irons Jan 2015
it's easier to point out my flaws rather than the tear stains on my cheecks
PEARL SMOKE Dec 2014
I Introduced Myself To ****
Searched On The Internet
Most Dangerous Drug
I Was Curious
None Around Me Had Ever Mentioned or Talked About it
At 14
I Read Its Affects & Effects
The Consequences
Of **** Use Didn't Scare me
The Sensation of How it Makes You Feel is What bought me.
There i Go
That Same Day, That Night.
Hit Up My Dealer
Asked if He Had Any Connections
Turned out, He Sold That Too
iWanted To Try This
A One Time Thing, Just to see
Got it That Night
Crushed it Till i Thought Could Turn To Powder, Never Did.
Rolled Up A Dollar
Snorted A 3/4 Inch Line
Of Shiny Crystals
Then instantly my Nose Was on fire
Felt Like it Cut Up Inside my nose
Dissolving my sinuses
The pain lasted Around 40 Seconds
My Eyes Got Teary and Redish
Then A Few Minutes Later
A Nasty Taste Dripped in the Back Of My Throat
So Bitter and horrible
But
The Feel iT Gave Me Was
incredibly Wonderful
Did not expect this much Amazing sensation.
I loved it, Ice Seduced Me
The Drug Had Me Up loving Life For 24 Hrs
Once The high was gone
I Noticed i felt much better on it
So i Wanted it again
The Feeling Was As if You Won The Lottery, Had Every Materialistic
Thing you Ever wanted
As if All Your Dreams all Came True
Accomplishing
More Than 100 Thing's
Felt So Good about myself
Motivated, Highself Esteemed
I Liked How iT Functioned
iUsed
Then iT Quickly Turned
To Abuse
I Wanted To Feel That Loving Euphoria Affect Everyday
I loved it.
Id Started Buying more of it
Without Keeping Count of How Much id Spend.
Id Buy Bigger Quantities
The Amount iBegan With No Longer Hit Me, iNeeded More
I Had Then Built A Tolerance iHad No Recognition of.
I Noticed
My Allowence Money Was No Longer Enough To Get Me High
I Lost Control, **** Took A hold.
iBelieved iWas Doing it Out of me.
When in Reality
The Substance is whats Telling Me What To Do & how to Move
Developed The Addictive Mentality
Asking My Body For More
& More.
Scheming Of Ways To Provide Myself to get high.
It Was Destroying My Life
I Was To High To Even Realize The Negative Affects it was creating.
It Pushed People Away
I Was All About My Dope
Didnt Care if i lost Friends
Just Wanted To Smoke.
It Complicated & Made My Life miserable.
Crystal Had Me So Distracted i Had No iDea Or Intrest About What Was Going On Around me.
Family Arguments Appeared
iWould Get Rowdy Or Act ****** When id Be Coming Down
And Just Talk nonsense
Even if Nobody Was Doing Anything to me
Id Just Keep Disrespecting.
I Slowly Started To Disappear
And Was Becoming A Whole New Person.
With A Different View, Perspective
Unknown motives
Unpredictable Actions
I Lost My Self Completely
Mentally & Emotionally
I Smoked My Self Gone
People Then Started Becoming Concerned, Saying i had a problem.
I Then No Longer New
Who i Really Was.
Not Like it Mattered To Me Anyways
All i Cared About Was My Dope
And Getting High.
I Was Living in My Own Unrealistic World.
What Began To Look Real To Me.
Lack Of sleep
Made Me Start Tripping, Hearing Voices And Seeing ****.
I Would Go Weeks Without Sleep And food .
I Experienced So Many Bad Trips
Methamphetamine Had Me In A Bumpy Road, Lead Me To places i didnt know existed
And introduced me to tweakers who became my homie
iWasnt Concerned About My Looks Rather More into finding more
Dope Hooks
My Image Was Fading
I Became Very Thin, My Cheecks ****** in
Skin Tone Was Pale
Easily bruised
Collar bone out, My pupils Would Stand Out Especially With The Dark Bags under My Eyes.
i thought i looked good.
The Drug blocked the view of how i slowly began to look.
I Didnt Mind, Didn't Care .
I No longer Stoped to think About
My Actions or consequences
i Started to rebel more
I Didnt Fear Or Was Scared of nothing.
Eventually i Got To The point were i Would use and just feel nothing.
I Had No More Emotions
I Couldn't Smile or cry
I Felt No Remorse No Guilt
No Present Conscious
All Of This Behavior Led Me To Stealing And Doing Things that Went against My Own Will.
The Drugs
Messed With My Head
Gave Me insane Thoughts
Made Me Think Evil
Into A Complete Monster.
Its Really Krazie How these Tiny Shards Can Convernt
You into Something So Lifeless And Horrible.
I Went From Being A Curious Regular girl
To Just Wanting to Sit in My Room Isolated Everyday and just get high Hitting the Glass Pipe.
I dedicated all my time to this
I was sprung and in love
I depended on it for everything
I Went A Long Road
Went Through So Much
4 years of this
Story goes on..
No name Mar 2014
The breeze is kissing my skin
while twirling around the autumn leaves
The fresh rain is cascading all over the park
and now gliding away
it stops.

Sparkling drops are laying softly on the grass
while they're gentley tickling my fingers
With lightly leg movements
I walk through a narrow path.

Yet a flower to see

The petals of a brightly red rose
are beautifully spread out to each side
My fluffy cheecks are blushing by
the smell of the heavenly flower

I feel alive

My coffee-brown eyes are glancing at my love
but he does not notice my existence
I crave for his affection,
yet he does not see me.*

The rain comes pouring down *again...
© Iman A. Kole 2014
CapsLock May 2015
Why?* If we had such a great start,
to my bed I ask before I fall asleep,
while I'm trying not to fall apart,
before memories roll down my cheecks.

Did I made you inside my head?
Your smile nourished my soul
and now I'm starving in my bed.
You where all I could've imagined.

Did I made you inside my head?
I'd die for another night in your bed.
I'm not smart enough and I blame this heart.
PK Wakefield Oct 2014
little enough world how up Up UP
in your frail face is a pair of slick
rinds coloured in the drowsy dream
of being,

a forest that perhaps
is filled with sunset being sheathed
in rain

its voice that
tinly crawls
on tremendous legs of pale wind

a fine club
is wield by
enormous strength of drunk hands

drunk with vine and pistil
(poppy and thistle)

that ***** ***** *****
the alabaster hull of cloud

(a single star emits
and dances upon fall
all the deadness who
turn their cheecks up

         –even their cheecks up–

at this death more,
bright

more




vital
msross May 2014
Classical music
Thin words spread thick
Butter milk expression
Flushed cheecks
No good mornings
Javi Claycombe Nov 2015
The rain falls on the cobble stone wall
She is tall, young with perfectly long hair
Black and gray is all that is today
The rain falls on her open toed shoes
Her cheecks are full, her breath is heavy
A little chilly for the fifth of September

Her skin like silk, damp and freckled
The rain falls in the most perfectly sad way
Drop by drop on the cobble stone wall
One by one under her freckled brow
Black and gray, black and gray

The church bell crashes, at the perfect hour
The day is gray but her eyes have color
Deep and rich with depth like the sea
Falling in deeper, and deeper
Impossible to look away

Searching and searching under sheets of gray
Only to find the reason to say
It feels a bit warmer on this September day
Looking into the eyes of young beauty
Reminding the soul of all past laughs
And easing the mind of tomorrow's woes

The rain falls on us all
But as long as there is color
Those are the reasons
We look into each other
Vampyre Kato May 2016
Free Time I'm 3 Mind
Right Now No Rewinds
Im In A Place With A Numbered Race
I Don't See Time
I'm On The Beach In The Sandy C
The Waves Gaze Does Some Something To Me
Colorado Creeks
The Peaks Steep
Its A Warn Snug Hug In A Winter Scene
Trees So Green
Life Is Beautiful Let It Be
Take An 8th To Outer Sprace
SHrooms Will Wake & Help You See
No Window No Screen
The Vaunaruble Honorable
Behind Intolerable Screams
I Don't Ask Why
Although I Question Every Thing
Like Some Will Hearing The Real
Like What Does He Mean
7 Beam Extreme Connecting Wings
With Streems
The Moon It Glows Shows In My Dream
Embers In December
Sniker Doodle Ice Cream
I Turtle Through Threw Black Flames
I Scream Opera In Acid Rain
Green Heart Enlarged With Beings That
Riase
Harmonic Rays
Life Is Just 1 Really Long Day
The Sun & Moon
Please Our Moods
Shift To Okay When We Wake
Mother Earth Father Sky
Hyper Dimensional Presence
Suggest Leverage Where Are We Headed
Orion's Belt Tell It
No Seperation Through My Perception
Idea Is Were Passing Through
To Learn A Few More Lesssions
We Become Creators
& Make Our Own Heaven
Focus On Interactions In The Present
Its A Present
Not Back When
Don't Stress If It Went Unexpected
You'll For Get It
I'm A Light Pole
& My Nights Glow
Vindeseal On A Mountain Peak
In The Theatere Show Riddick
When Ego Egals
Were Awesome We Blossom
Gardens With Silver Grass & Purple Trees
Green Leaves
Mushrooms Stuck In My Teeth
Its 3 Sun Gazing
Amazing I Don't Need To Eat
I Don't Like Sock & Shoes On My Feet
I Don't See Fashion Queens & Kings
Fresh Hygiene & I Mean Neat
My ***** Smell Better Than My Breath
Might Be Mushrooms That Nest In My Cheecks
Lightning All Through This Skin & Flesh
My Current Complete
Light Poles In The Sea Fliker
When I Swimm Passed With My Mermaids
& Tea
Vibrating At My Highest Frequency
In tune With My Key
Universal Downloads I'm All Know
I Don't Suppose That I Read
Oh Then My Ideas Are Wrong
What's That Supposed To Mean
I'm A Consciousness Projecting
A Cognitive
Your A Controlling Opertive Inside Your Idols Jeans
Bianry Beats Healing My DNA
Okay Transcending Our Genes
Energy ***** Are Ways To Make Calls
No Electrical Subliminal Mind Altering
Things
I See A Dream Like Old Filmed On A Beach Black & White Sceene Type In My Minds Eye & The Swings Drys
No Body Sitting Down But It Looks Like The Place To Be, Place Of Peace, A Space To Lay A Quilt Down Eat & Drink, A Safe Place To Sleep  Die Or Even Drown
My Emtions Are Oceans Of Potions
Although I Am Miss Underatood
Its All Good
I'm A Head Of My Time
I Won't Come Down From Ethers
Who I Am Is Not On This Ground
But The Pen Js So My Lyrics
Seriously The Only Thing Coming Down
If I Seem Distant When People Come Close
I'm Still Listing In Side Of Your Soul
My Verbal Emotions Are To Giant Their Silent
When Projected So,
If My Response Seems Of Its Not I Promise Inide I'm Feeling More Than What's Out Side
I Am Deeper Than The Sea Floor
Higher Than The Clouds Depth
I See More Fire On The Mountain Set
I Don't Need A Monk To Confirm & Bow His Head I'm True To Me Till This Owls Dead
Not Dressing Up
No Cap & Gown
No Towel Head
Intentions To Lessen Defesive
& Seperation
If Over My Words Your Ofensded With Verbs
You Sizzle Like Saton
Its Obsersd Cos The Physical Is Just
Communication
I Am Here To Do Me
I Don't Need To Bleed An Explanation
Or Reciece ForgiveNess
Our Mission Is Sacred
Kato Telsa
37 Sages
PeacockBrain Mar 2012
Gloomy forecast,
Slick cheecks,
Flooded Socks.
Gonna be a wet one!
3-2-12
There was once a girl
who thought words were
only ideas,
and that music was
only noise.

She spent long hours
thinking,
and trying to draw
hearts for the boys
she passed on the train.

They only stared at her
with empty eyes
and scars on their lips
from the cigarettes
and told her the drawings
were silly.

She rubbed salt on her cheecks
and threw away the
drawings.
She thought they were inadequette,
like she wasn't
good
enough.

She painted checkers
on her fingernails,
and threw away her pencils.
She didn't take the train anymore,
and she made herself
happy.
Do you want to know a secrete?
A tale of foolish lies?
About how you will be worshiped, all you have to do is die?
Hold up a gun,
Polish your shoes,
Don't forget, spit and shine.

Do you want to know a secrete?
Make yourself a hero?
Ready for this simple mission?
Take your gun, and your uniform,
Take that man from his family,
Ignore the pleas from his family,
The children lie,
They pretend to cry,
His mother sobs,
But it is your job.

Do you want to know a secrete?
Come back a hero?
Set your family and your future for life?
All you have to do is guard that truck.
Tell the girl to stop,
Shoot anything that moves before that,
She does not listen?
All you have to do is press it.
This aren't tears running down her cheecks,
That's not fear in her eyes,
She knows what your about to do,
No confusion about how she dies.
She attacked you, that is all,
She drew her gun, you drew yours,
She was not a child,
She was a women,
No fear in her eyes,
As she fell to the ground,

Walk over to her body,
And plant the gun as proof,
it is not lying, she would have done it anyways.
In her arms you see?!
She did have something!
See you did not lie!
Just do not look into her eyes.

But what is this?
Why try and look?
You will not find anything but a corpse.

But what is this in her hand?
A knife? A gun? A ticking bomb?
No...
What is this?
'Tis not a gun, or a bomb, not a knife to stab someone.
In her hand she held a photo,
Of her mother and her brother,
And other smile of a man,
Is it her father? Is it her uncle?
no
It is the man you took away,
The man who now lays
On the ground beaten and hurt,
All because you had your orders,


It was her father, foolish one,
He was a brother, a very fun one.

It was a mistake they said to say,
He attacked you, you could not look away.

But she lays here in your hands ,
All she wanted was to understand,
Why you took her idol away,
A man who would never hurt or slay,
Only because you had your orders,
What does that mean for all the others!?

All she wanted was an answer,
She never ment any harm,
But why does she lay on the ground?
A precious child, sent from above,
No more than 5 years spent on this planet,
Yet everything she cares for has been taken.

So tell me why?!
Why did you **** her father!?
He never hurt anyone,
Yet you hurt him,
Beat him with guns and sticks,
Had the audacity to *** on him for humor?!
He is but a man like you.
So why hurt not only him, but his kids and family?

Are you better than him? Is that why?
He is just trash,
No need to explain why.
Now you go back home,
A Hero Of War
For taking a little girls father,
And treating him like dirt,
For staining your hands with an innocent souls blood,
Nothing more than a simple Coward !
Look at your daughters eyes and imagine her asking why.
Why they took her fathers life,
With no explanations, leaving her to wonder why.
Then one day she gets shot, all because she saw that man,
Who her fathers life ended by his hand,
And lays on the ground with an unanswered question hanging from her lips.

*Please Mister ,I want to know why
Mateuš Conrad Feb 2019
the desired sadness,
worth a heiving...
a claustrophobic heart...
a sense of
nearness...
something...
beside the ordinary,
and esp.
beside being
ordained
worthy outside
the existence
              of a novel...
a...
   piano minuet...
like...
i only want to play
the piano,
but i don't
want to play
either Liszt or Chopin...
i want...
to feel as if i have
a heart...
i want to play...
the piano like
i might experience
the heart...
Debussy...
Satie...
                 Priya...
i want to live a life
of having
to experience
a love teased,
kept in the "dark",
"as if": waiting...
but then...
i don't even
want "that"...
do i?
             i forget
to levitate,
and gravity...
whenever i am bound
to having to express...
taking a ****...
anchor: first mate:
down!
all the way down...
among the *****!
gentle tunes...
tickling
rather than playing
a piano...
you are a being
i feed off
to feed a worthwhile
forget for
all that is and protrudes
itself to be "worth"
remembering!
   a beauty in the blink
of an eye...
a secret...
       a taboo...
          and something...
that would require a god
to make reality of...
and even then...
not worth the effort...
something...
as fragile as spring
and as vague as
whatever colours appear
in winter...
something truly
transcendental...
in passing...
never to be made unison,
to be joined...
passing, or fleeting,
by matrimony...
yet...
persistent... "there"...
gravity -esque...
       a verbiage burden...
my, little... piano escapade...
to attempt battling
diacritical marks with
nuance...
          my little something,
my altogether, nowhere;
my time, my patience...

                  my...
                              i cannot
even mourn...
being kept apart...
     i...
                 i cannot even begin
to sip at the fountain
of ambition
to make the ideas,
to people, unite....
    
      it's as if...
with first sight...
your first sight is to turn
you blind...
        i concede...
      mockery...
derision...
             so little acting
i have left in me...

     but a snap of
the fingers...
                   while the mountains
crumble...
               thieving love
through the artifact
of a butterfly's existence
of, par: 2 weeks...
           flinch of hue...
and burgundy...
to arrest
           the cheecks to tame
the sudden plush
they are to imbue...

     yeah...
i know... redundant...
       rhododendron reality...
i can't escape it...
like i wish there was a
plug-in realism anti-god
app.,
            muse... nabokov-esque
                      pristine...
if anything is worth being
lost...
it's that "you"...
              just like...
if what i remember...
is to be made concise
within the framework
of me?
                  there is no... "me"...

rhododendron reality...

                 or...
playing the piano...
very gently...
like a Debussy...
which you cited...
when your father drove
me home one night...

         Satie...
i was never into bashing
the fingers...
akin to the virtuoso
of either Liszt or Chopin...

     like some templar choir
boy for the monks...
       i touch this china-girl?
i am water,
she is salt,
she immediately melts!    

       all but the tender kissing
of a worth's concern,
to translate
what i did to a body
of a *******,
and what i could have
done with yours...
intact, with a seal
of a ring of obligation;

but this is not
the life i am to be allowed
such...
peacocking...
i abide here,
with you...
your humble...
                         pauper;
music appreciator:
               grandiose.
The thump of our hearts beating in sync

My breath is caught, my mind is racing.

Admiring her beauty, her cheecks burning red

I take her by the hand, her skin as soft as silk

The chirps and whistles of nature fade

The aroma of lavender engulfs my senses.

We lean in. We kiss. My heart skips.

Her lips are lucious cherries,

Her eyes begging for another.

We caress each other, birds flying above.

What is this feeling, is it love?
an0nym0us Feb 2018
So high, so bright
Someone who tames everyone's sight
Everything about you looks right
Looks that no one can fight.

Cold sweat
Heavy breath
Face turns red
Hidding it is a test.

This feeling
I can't stop smilling
Cheecks keeps blushing
And knees won't stop shaking.

Oh its been a while
Since the last time
I saw someone so fine
To my eyes, he brightly shines.

Indeed, Im afraid
But not too great
I tried to make it fade
But it always stayed.

I like you,
I really do
I just don't know what to do
If you turn me down too.

I think you are the finest
Best among the rest
The girl you like must be the luckiest
Why? I just said, because she won the finest.

I don't expect to be lucky
I dont need to be one, really
I know my limitations completely
Simply seeing you makes me happy.
Vampyre Kato Sep 2015
Normal Isnt Even Close To Me
A Ghost I See
I struggle to be who im supposed to be
People seem to fade away
Once they get a ceartain close to me
Staring At the stage
With the curtins closed
Tears Slicing My Cheecks
BLOOD All Over my feet
I wish somebody
Could truly understand me
No Doctor has The Right med
No peace no nice rest
Not even in a nice bed
My head is filled with so much
Im so close to
Well idk what
Cos i over think
**** life
Wait **** me
My past it cuts deep
Sorry mom ill never be the son you wanted
Im for ever sad for ever haunted
Grateful For What Ive been Givin
Waiting for somethin ive been missing
I die i nside when i realize
I cant capture my visions
Blacking out
Passing out
Searching around
Ima blind mouse
Also immortal
And this portal to earth
I wish i didnt find out
With out expiericing what i did
Its immposible to picture how my life is
Some times i gaze into my future
On a night glimpe
Theres nobody there
No wife , kids
Not even me The one who writes this
My whole life is a fantasy
Yet real af
Like a battle be
My mind is my enemy
My regrets weigh heavy
I cant reverse time
Thats why i be crying so steady
My darkness is such a bad spot
Sometimes i twitch like a fish
I got back knots
I hate this plane but love its back drop
Sometimes i pick up my bag
Then let my back drop
Im uncortable is ****
Im the bag yall
Ive been using drugs
To escape
I stare in the mirror with shivering fear
I lie to my face
Tell my self im okay
I dont crave pitty me
Thats silly see
I just need a never ending hug
And a better me
Sedina Durmic Jan 2012
they say what a beutiful day

they say it’s always your way

but they never say it will always be the other way

looking out at the beautiful day

seeing it all shatter like glass upon my eyes

bright blue skies turn to dusk

bright days are now gloomy

dreams are only dreams

and stars are no longer worth wishing on

they say live it up

so give em’ a cup

pour the drinks let’s see your bodies move

but every movement is in slow motion

to escape would be to live

but to live you need to escape

the happy face turns into a frown

the bright happy eyes are now pouring down

warm waters rolling down the cheecks

splatters onto the ground and splash

all is quiet, you can almost hear it, you’re alone

no where to go or run or even trun

and then they say life is an amazing thing
Arnauld Jarvis Jun 2017
During I was cogitating
I felt something silently booms
A spark bubbles it is, vellicating my desire.
I let down my hands collapse
but, constantly merry scared was I again
by a sparks' silent booming in front of me.
Purple, violet, pink and colour mandarin.
Glimmer, maddling, melting.
A sparks' shy bubbling coy blink
Blue, turquoise and diaphanous white.
«Stop this transcendental dance,
you'll subluxate yourselves», mentioned I.
Soon an exhilarated game overtook the chamber.
«Your tingling tickles me», said I and they scattered thorough in the air.
«You should run fast», uttered I, «for I'm going to pursue you» and bit a rose betwixt my teeth whilst rejoining them, dancing tango with extempore fashion.But having been besides them, they vanished letting me hit with my shoulder the window, looking down my blunder, grimaced contemptuously by their blundish.
«That's the matter: you are immaterial» murmured I whilst removing and throwing the rose behind me without looking back.
Thus, looking down, letting a sigh flew in the air, I laid my hit shoulder to the window and turned left my down-bent neck, letting my hair cover my face.
The sun it was, bathing the chamber, cheated by the black clouds.Its departure's time is coming closer but, early tonight.«How deluxe» murmured I schematizing a grimace of a half smile.The sun didn't see it, for only my unshaved chin was obvious to him.
«Hmmm, the dawn is inexorably amaranthine for those accomplished the impossible» I sighed turning away my indifferent sight.
I was heading immodesty to my comfortable armchair.But the sparks' bubbling, squeezing my three-days unshaven cheecks, plopped me to the sofa, dancing like a ballerina.Dazed by the intensity, I fell in a prone position on the sofa with my legs bending to my back, my eyes covered by my hair and my coat's tail covering the rest of my upper body.
Soon, yellow, green and grey, I fell ill.
«Yyoouuu vvanquishedd me luxuriously» I murmured and closed my eyes.
Having them opened I observed the rose on the floor, being bathed by sun's last beams.
I tried to catch it but, it was farther I optimized.
I looked at the sparks, who were dancing more vividly and playful.
I blew my hair,blinked and looked them again, with my eyes begging artificially whilst they passed it to me, continuing their dance.
«Oh, benevolent you are», I murmured having a contemptuous half smile.I blinked.Then my coat were fixed and my hair parted by them.
A rose, I was deliberating.
«I have to be arose» sighed I a blow against my hair, slightly.
A rose red as blood and gold of fade.
I couldn't get up.The mesmerizing fragrance couldn't be interpreted.
Then, I resume my deliberation, with my body fixed, facing the ceiling, bringing my fingers' distal phalanges together at my lips whilst the spark's bubbles were trying to lull me.
And I closed my eyes.

A spark bubbles, tickling the incessant intensity.
Intensity forever stultified.
We are neither savages, nor can become salvages nor slaved.
But we belong amongst, amidst sparkles shadowy.
Touched like vellicated babies by a bird's song.
«You are ossifying the world, please stop».
«Others melt by feasts, why don't you call them beasts?».
Who then luxuriates the corpus?
Who embellish peace?
Lotus by whom are distributed?
It's a piece of blast threshing what can last.
That neither yield nor bend.
What trending is throwing hope inside a spring's bottom.
Becoming immediately a dried hollow which billows.
Billows spitting dust and gold.
The dawn is inexorably unforgettable for those accomplished the impossible.
Constantly, purple red and pink,
glimmer, maddles, melt.
Neither calamity blooms.
Nor clarity booms.
Are we then, not all abiding.
My inspiration was all dissipated after this disharmonious prose.Thanks for perusing it.
misterN Nov 2018
Your Looks
Strong Eyes
Delicate Lips
Chubby Cheecks
Oval Nostrils
Delicate Nose Ring
Curly Hair
Mole on the Ear.
Lefa Mzondi Jul 2019
Dear wifey
I had a bad dream last night
I had a dream that I lost you,
I woke up screaming, sweating
And I just couldn't stop the river of tears flowing down my cheecks

I know it's funny that I haven't met you yet
But I can't live without you
The thought of my life without you feels like a never ending black hole of nothingness
Dark, cold, empty
I know we don't know each other yet but,
I pray for you more than I pray for myself
I long to see you every second you're away
It's a mission to even blink because that micro second without seeing your face, breaks my heart

I sometimes just think about you and smile
And in that little moment, I just get lost
I dissappear into another world where there is just US

It's funny I don't know your name,
Yet it rhymes with mine
If I was a poet I would write a beautiful piece just with our names
Or if could sing, I'd make a beautiful melody with only your name as the chorus and it would hit platinum sales

I know I don't know your name yet
But I sometimes find myself signing your name next time
The bank declined my loan because my ID names didn't match what I wrote
I tried to explain to her that I can't be without you even on a piece of paper
I can't believe they asked me for a marriage certificate
I told them it's not in any peice of paper because it's written in the stars
And they called the security guard on me
It's okay babe, they don't yet understand

The other day I told my mom about you
She was so happy I could see it in her eyes
She couldn't stop smiling
You're just a perfect daughter in law she never had
I still wonder why you took this long to meet
It's funny how people think you're her daughter
I remember they first day my friends saw you with my family, they thought we were related
It must be that matching soul thing that got us looking like one person

By the way, my sister hid our wedding pic
She says it brightens her kitchen
I wanted to take it but I didn't have the heart because your smile really do light up her kitchen

Okay my love, it's getting late now
I hope you arrive soon
I'm waiting to hold you and never let you go
I love you to the moon and back
Allison Oct 2014
My fingers are numb from grasping at these straws I can't seem to reach I can't even hold them long enough to have them slip away

I've got an aching soul to match my throat for I've been screaming your name endlessly into the void

Blisters adorn the feet I've been chasing after you on hoping you'll turn around someday

Lungs burning for each time you look at me I can't catch my breath and it feels like the oxygen was ****** from the room

Fire is burning across my cheecks when I see your eyes dance across my face

Give me a pocket dictionary becasue I can't seem to find the words on my own

        *a.l.n
LeRoy Williams Jun 2019
Pooh bears ***-cheecks are clogged and he's looking for honey. It's otay, lemonglade. I ice skatelike diamond rangs and live with tigger and he freaks me fruit. It's otay, I'm geeky and love Pokemon and Yu-gi-oh pour my Po Bo I'm fricken Asian hi. I like the way your a dumb ****. This is garage band garbage I push through my viens in this cage  I waste for Jake when he aims to be tied-up. I wonder why Pooh smells like ****. For fruitful 21Savage ***** **** like other Ellen fans. It's otay, I got charmon for me ***** till. I paid from my left pocket the right one hanging, chicken wings falling from the right ai-ight. Out of sike.
Chinny Maia Oct 2017
Mixed feelings...
There they go..
Swaying and swimming...
Roaming about..
None is winning...

Should I go ...
Should I stay..
Do i go ahead..
Do i stay back..

Which way do i go..
Do i go up..
Do i come down..

**** u mixed feelings...

I start to smile..
But before it reaches my eyes..
Tears flow over their edges..
And im left with wet cheecks and lashes..

The laugh starts to bubble over..
But ends in a heart wrenching cry.
Do i walk away??
Or do I stay n pray????????

**** u mixed feelings..

I have a melody n a melancholy ..
I am happy and I'm sad..
Ecstatic and heart broken
What an irony..
It's just to bad..
This can't be changed..

O you mixed feelings..
**** u mixed feelings...
PEARL SMOKE Jun 2018
Ok ok all we do is argue .
Let’s try something new
No talking just Touching .
Something we lack .
Teach me other ways of
showing you love.

Let’s have fun
Let’s have ***
Let’s explore together new ways of making us feel great .

Let’s forget about Our life and problems
By Letting me ride Your Big *** ****.
On the bed , the floor the couch.
Let’s get ***** & ******* naughty.
Make me feel great about my body
By touching me In Desperate worshipping ways .

Let’s just take a pause from showing love and affection.
By Having *** and feeling that nice ****** sensation.

Teach me what makes you *****
The words , which Moans , my voice of tone.
What do you want me to say
Tell me baby il ******* obey .
So  Just shut the **** up .
Bend me over
*** up high
Head down low.
Make me ******* moan.
Spread my Cheecks apart
Watch your **** slip in and out.
My ***** waters at the thought
Of having your hard fat ****
Touching with just your tip on my ***** lips.
Teasing My kit
You see the nice juice your making me produce.
Yeah love that **** daddy .
Stroke me nice and slow .
Stop ******* with my heart !
Come **** my brains instead .
Shove your **** down my throat
Let me gag & choke.


Drop all your Issues
Let’s feel something other
than anger
By putting In your index fingers
One in the pink
One in the stick
Come here baby
Something new ?
Poems like this he’d prefer to view.
Sedina Durmic Jan 2019
they say what a beutiful day
they say it’s always your way
but they never say it will always be the other way
looking out at the beautiful day
seeing it all shatter like glass upon my eyes
bright blue skies turn to dusk
bright days are now gloomy
dreams are only dreams
and stars are no longer worth wishing on
they say live it up
so give em’ a cup
pour the drinks let’s see your bodies move
but every movement is in slow motion
to escape would be to live
but to live you need to escape
the happy face turns into a frown
the bright happy eyes are now pouring down
warm waters rolling down the cheecks
splatters onto the ground and splash
all is quiet, you can almost hear it, you’re alone
no where to go or run or even trun
and then they say life is an amazing thing
Mateuš Conrad Jun 2018
you know what sweet sensation of
whiskey hitting the nervous system,
just after you've been awake for more
than 30 hours...
     and every gulp you start feeling up
a touch of cushion,
   like it might be your mother singing
a lullaby to you as a child?
****'s all... fuzzy...
                    fictoid...
  which is the alternative of a factoid:
an item of unreliable information
that is reported and repeated
so often that it becomes accepted as fact...
well borrowed from real life,
that's focused upon it (life,
or the narrative) being usurped from
being staged...
i still don't know how drunks manage
their quasi-epileptic
        space-oddities by climbing
7 stories of a building,
  to simply know on the balcony window
from the wife: refusing them
entry via the conventional route,
of utilising a front door...
               true story that,
****** managed to do the spider-man
up nearly... wait... circa two metres
per storey...
             sigma, circa: 20 metres
up in the air!
                 that's not exactly 100 metres
of comparison while holding
your breath in a jamaican sprint...
          blind wind playing the flute
of a pine forest...
                but there are certain sensations
you just can't suspect of
being the product of a Saturday night
revelry in Essex, England...
                some drunks do the Dante's
inferno expedition into:
       everything and anything -
   but only when embarked upon, solo.
my excesses of insomnia are
countered by my "excesses" of drinking,
       what could possibly be wrong
about a teddy bear among romanian
****** dreaming, awake,
  of a pillow?
                it's not even a comfortable
numbness,
      it's a mollusk encapsulated by
the safety of an oyster's shell mentality...
         i mean, there's only so much
much of the FIFA world cup you can stomach
before seeing a proper game...
   and when you do manage to receive
the spectacle of a 3 - 3 Spain vs. Portugal?
**** me... that's like receiving
the ******* eucharist!
                        RAMOS!
                       ­          ******* child of
            a one ******* ball-sack of Franco...
   and those Spanish eyes:
you know the ones...                    (    (
romance with a real tear-jerker...
             but what more entertaining
than the football is,
   the behind-the-scenes preservation
of the political narrative by minors,
minor-intellectuals, and:
                  behemoths of swaying the gamble
of history...
Iberian eyes?
        i'm starting to call them
                          siamese Shiva diamonds...
muguruza has them...
                           very idiosynratic...
in vino veritas?
    i find twice the amount of truth
in a dose of sleeplessness and whiskey...
       which usually ends with
a knock-out and: the great void eating
            all concern or, "need" to dream...
hell with a brain like a sponge that
requires quasi-x-ray
               to suit-up to the everyday
in the mythos timing ref. to boiling an egg
in real time...
         RAMOS!
          you already know of the extra
long football socks, and the rolled up sleeves,
   Puyol would be a proud
second-far-removed-claim-of-fatherhood...
not that's the case...
      beside the point...
                but there's no distraction from
my perspective,
              an appreciation of, sure,
               but you can't exactly forget
the premature ******* quasi-thrill
of listening to the bundestag match of:
left-to-right, right-to-left,
             and something in between
being plagued by a w. b. yeats quote about
all centres,
            apart from the gravity hard-on
of god, which, for reason for the four seasons:
always seems to hold,
   tight like a ******* mousetrap,
tiger pounce...
        very humane, in terms of a rodent
passing bypassing being a plaything
of some bonsai feline...
                ha ha! in vino, veritas?
every tried a dosage of sleeplessness,
   and something more, strict?
   a Dublin ****, or a Glaswegian
                                           apple juice?    
****, the mingling with sleeplessness...
you'll speak more truth than
the C.I.A. would mind giving
                two shoves to a shovel over...  
nudges? sure...
      nugget crisp and...
                  oh but i like the current
digression...
     the facade...
                      the momentary month of
blissfully forgeting the talk of politics,
and imagining the head
of Commodus being kicked about by
                          22 legionaires...
no greater cathedral to make man's
concern stupendous,
        than in a prayer-house of amnesia...
and, there isn't a reason as we'll somehow
forget for half an anno after the month?
circa, of course...
                                                     well?
by the sober judge i make my plea drunk...
and should the judge drink?
          first i nail him to a cross,
   and then: allow him to pass judgement...
who the hell doesn't pass
crucial judgement concerning sexuality,
on the throne of thrones,
without first doing the no. 1,
  and then doing the no. 2,
                   and then not doing the no. 3?
i should be all "hot-and-bothered",
   should i?
                          a case to say:
                                 don't date, on a diet;
because not on the cruel slab of
the altar of mammon are two naked
bodies suddenly: phantom?
         does eating, **** the butterflies?
what sort of contract for an hour,
require a prenup of eating,
      for a time constraint that's more than
            the actual: non-verbum flex,
                          which constitutes an hour?
RAMOS!
                    always the central defender
role...
              because... well...
              given the hard-on for the tournament...
you can somehow listen in on
political-football kicking-off simultaneously...
while the Tsar is found stark
naked, dressed in gloat, gluttony and glee,
the little people can take to tongue and chess...
little people, like the Warsaw pundits,
the staggering delayed pleasure Londoners...
and Berliners-***-Bavarians...
               and whoever the hell is left...          

ah, the quiet life: and it's little wonders...
   but a Tsar that appears so well attired in his
self-with-nation
                             goat-fat smile,
    like a Davvy Cameron prior:
      plump doughnut and plush well oiled
cheecks with missing bones...
                     plump little doughnut...
can't help but admire
   the arabian formal checkers pajamas...
sorry...
           i forgot it's high-fashion over
there too...
             houndstooth print
                                   coffee-table-cloths...

come to think of it, this western-union
euro and the post-nationalistic experiment?
**** the tongue, before claiming
a dead soul, to control the living thought...
i only allow english for reasons
that i can speak it, above a certain
framework of its native contraints,
   but if another Belgian is going to think
i'm going to let him perform a sujud
on me like i were some half-wit from Congo?!

the swiss still make milka...
                   so...
                                see you in Ypres?
and yes, truth is a form of audacity...
                               Benelux: Banalflux;
cite Forrest Gump to boot, if y'all wanna.
Priya May 2020
Tears were rolling down my cheecks
And you were busy explaining
Why you have to leave.
So far, i have lost people
Because they hated me.
Now i am losing them,
Because they loved me.
Strange, isn't it?
And still you are here,
Explaining why we should avoid each other.
Why we should talk less,
Why we should not be as close as we were.
Strange, isn't it?
The one who wanted to love you
Ended up being someone hating you.
One who wanted to stay forever,
Decided to leave for our good.
Strange, isn't it?
I know it is hard for you as well, and i am sorry for that. Just that one who thought would never make me cry, ended up being someone to hurt me the most.
misterN Jul 2020
Intoxicating  Looks
Strong Eyes
Delicate Lips
Chubby Cheecks
Oval Nostrils
Delicate Nose Ring
Curly Hair
Mole on the Ear.
Mateuš Conrad Jul 2018
you know what you have to
do to ease the strained
muscle of conjuring a smiling face?
open your mouth,
and then **** two middle
fingers into where your cheecks
"used to be"...
       so you can tow along
telling the bottom and the top jaws
apart....
      like... nice?!
                  a ******* says
you're nice... they there were
no genitals involved...
     she says you're good if you're
wearing a ****** and she
gives you a hand-job rather than
a blow-job...
                plenty of transparency
there, isn't there?
           and i do end up smiling
plenty into the night...
         then i have to ease my face
into a "smile" with an open face...
and then ease up
on the excess of muscle within
the confines of a contortion...
   open the gape up,
       and then stick two middle fingers
to investigate
the flesh from the lower &
upper tier of teeth...
                 lower spectrum of
criminality...
                             the girls want
to sell their smoothies...
                      the girls get to sell their
smoothies...
           unless you're a
******* with one leg:
                better latch onto a pair
of walking sticka...
                  ****...
and the canvas of private
             and an open, white, pixel
cursor to keep mundane middle
up to date?
            why oh why didn't
i use a ***** with a ******* for a
"reminder"?
           maybe too much teutonic
monk knight in me,
also having visited the public houses
of ordensburg marienburg...
     just the other night
i walked past a woman entertaining
teasing a rottweiler on a leach...
managed to pet the rottweiler on
the head
     and not even manage to speak
of a bark back...
        i wonder what happened
to the woman...
        haven't seen the rottweiler since...
******* **** bullhead beast
of pure thumping rot in a bark...
jaw like a crocodile...
                          exquisite beast...
it's like you want to lock teeth
with it, wrestle with it...
     do so much more than just
attach a leash to it!
                 grr...
                it's like an existential
contraception you're
comfortable with, with a rottweiler,
that women, will simply not
allow...
                       give me the tartare
exemplum of being...
    and give your romeo
rose-petals to the current zeitgeist
of women...
           i need raw and i need
wrath...
              esp. the kind plagued
by domestication:
requiring my cranium to mind
the cage...
     and for the caged being
to mind the freelance budding
                                       potential...        
escapist subservience
        of unnecessarily borrowing from
the wild?
    while incubated
    in domestication,
   while retaining a leash
on something
             quasi-wild-and-quasi-domestic?
let me paint you a vision
of future poetry, ******* inspired:
partly coherent: partly barrage...
              verbum qua aqua...
                  suppose you concern
yourself with keeping it under your
sway for too long?
                 for men who have never
certified an hour with prostitutes...
     it's pure: surds...
              the more you speak,
the more the ******* becomes corny...
cliché...
           the less your speak?
            ever visit essex
and stay up all night to listen to
foxes making economic arguments
to continue?
                    wolves?
                          just half the story...
such *** should always be
unconditional about not invoking
         god (words) into the pristine
                        satanic act of: the carnal...
now that the talking has taken place...
the synagogue of satan has
become...
                  deprived with god:
                                              the "******"...
why talk about an act
that's inherently...
                                 immobile in being
              inherited?
      no wonder my allaiance with milton...
that 2nd, blind, homer...
    talk during *** wakes
  the satanic spawn to give answers for...
to excuse: god, the ******...
                unless it's an onomatopoeia...
does the screwdriver and a *****,
a hammer and a nail: require... instructions?
that are verbal, and pure,
                            optical, intuitive?
then my celibacy is akin
   to the celibacy of the teutonic knights
     residing in the marienburg castle:
with a public house keeping:
   less the exotic birds of a victorian english
zoo...
   and more the nymphomaniacs...
                 as...                "slaves"...
no wonder i never dated english women...
i'm happy eating alone
like a feral creature...
         but to eat and lie about wanting
to see true, living sushi
of a **** oyster?
               pontius pilate comes to mind.
When my pillow is drenched with tears, my mind filled with fear.
She still avails herself to me

Even when their cruelly ****** me,
she gently dresses my wounds.
When I can't  sleep at night,
she is my dulcimer lullaby

Even when my teeth's peak,
when my cheecks lift,
when my heart jumps so high
And when my eyes gleam so bright.
She still avails herself  to me

She connects so well with ears,
wipes my tears,erase my fears
She is my music!

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