excuse me while I write
another poem
one that I know
you will never read
but hopefully
you can understand
the pain you're giving
to me

If you left me now
I wouldn't notice
the absence
Because really
you were hardly there
anyhow.

kick me while i'm down
I've always felt like a clown
standing next to you
anyway

If you could just tell me
that you love me
the way that I love you
then maybe, we could run away
t o g e t h e r

I look at you
and I can't help
but see all of the
wonderful things
Like the way
your smile
lights up a room
Or the way
you feel so warm
even though
we're barely touching
Often times
I find myself blushing
not mentioning
that I notice
the way your eyes
sometimes glance
Sometimes I think
about how perfect
we'd be together
But then
I return to reality
and remember
that She loves you
and He loves me
and We
must just remain
friends

The pressure
Weighs on my soul
To do better
Be better
Something or someone I'm not
And I'm starting
To lose
M y G r i p

It's not home
If you're not there too
I'm more comfortable
Being with you
Than I am being
alone