you unfurl my petals for me
though my thorns *****
you rest on my leaves
and bathe in my scent
i didn't know i was a flower
until the bee came to me

the number of pillows in my bed
is the number of worries in my head
i have also a pillow
that never leaves my bed
tucked beside my heart
reserved for you

without any delay
i jumped in the water
my lungs were burning,
screaming for oxygen
but I couldn't back out
not until i could pull you out
safely with me
for some time, all I could see
was the infinite gradient blue
of the ocean
i could swim away
but i rather drown with you

if you're going to hold on me
i won't put up a fight
just promise me
you'll do it right

everything suddenly reminded me
of why I was alive
i was ready to die once
but you killed me twice
one with kindness
one with your ****** smile
i was alive but barely breathing
flowers crept up my chest
why did you have to ruin everything?

my heart is too busy
pumping blood
my mind will love you
instead

for once
i protected myself
and it hurt like hell
sharper than any
knife in the shelf
only to realize later
sometimes we bleed
for the right reasons
sometimes a scar
leaves us lessons
only hurting
leads to healing
maybe it's time
to feel more