if you don't accept me,
you don't accept youself,
if you don't accept yourself,
you don't love self.

you was just an illusion.
you don't exist at all.
i opened eyes.
and what i see?
the empty place.
i was alone all time.
you made me to believe in fantasy. i opened eyes.
it's all was lie, no more.

you see big smile,
you see brigth eyes,
my life is look so perfect,
i know that many would be jalosy, but you just see what would i show you,
you see tatto onto my wrist and think,
oh such a beautiful,
but you don't know, why would i made tatto?
to hide my ugly scars, to forget about past, so many times i've tried to done my life with knife.
i'm happy it's a past.
i'm happy it's all done.
i was waithing too long.
i'm happy to be here now with you all,
we are strong,
we go this through,
we will be fine,
don't let's no one to hurt you.
ask for help
if someone wasn't help you,
another one will
in world so many kind and good people, not everyone are evil

Your thoughts become reality
Be carefull to choose
Life can provoke you
Life can to make regrets
Life can tempting you
Life can to give you doubts
Be carefull, because you choose your thoughts

nobody bring you nothing
upon the golden plate
if you want love
you have to try this
you have to search
if you just sitting idly by.
you'll stay alone forever
everything in your arms, build.

i will be by your side, no matter what
i will be there for you, i'll hold your hand
i will accepting you, each piece
i walking near to you, you feel my breeze
i staying by your side, it's not a lie
in hardest moment i'll looking to your eyes
i will remember our very firs  glance
i will remember how i felt then
i will be cherisht every moment and enjoy of life.

i'll never fade away
whenever, where i am
in darkest place
even if whole world
want to stew my fire
i will be shine and bright
like sun, like lodestar
like candle on the table
in the dark room

i wish my brain has chip
so i can stop repeat
those memories...
my heart is faster beat
my mind still on repeat
i want to take this chip
i want delete a creepy vibe
i wanna change my memory

it's longest chain
to suit and unsuit game
a blood is burning in my vein
i climbing up on mountain top
i scream, i win, but that is not enough
you look at me with curved face
devaluation any steps
i am like Christmas tree on sunday market
my branches was decorate by garland
and everyone gives own price
they look at me like at the Christmas tree

your love were just destructive.
it's broke me fully in the parts.
it was a crash, it was a smash,
it's hurts, destroyed me.
it's grinded me in ash.
i was rebuild myself for new one.

little, little ego,
choking in the throat
biger, biger, biger,
little ego growed,
there's not enough
of breathing,
there's not enough
of everything,
the sun not sun,
the moon too cool,
Earth too *****,
the city too big or too small,
the dress not fit at all,
the lipstick it's too heavy on my lips,
dark smoke in my throat,
the metal ston onto my heart,
I feel each beat,
pulsation in my head

when violence will stop?
when will wake up this world? when evil will be gone?
when will we take masks off? when will we learn tell true?

i was broken fully
i'm healing piece by piece,
but slowly
it's long process

I'm loved, I'm glowed
i cared, i needed
but maybe i am humanoid?
if it's so hard a human be
i cry, i try, i hate, i lie
i make mistakes and so imperfect
so maybe i am humanoid?
but still i am important

i'll go there where the door is open. i'll go there where someone is wait for me
i'll go there where I am a welcome. i'll go there where is heart is full of love.
i'll go somewhere where's sun is shining.
i'll go somewhere where's warmt and soft.
i'll go somewhere where is for me thouse roses.
i'll go somewhere where i am needed.

i'm ready, i'm ready, i'm ready,
i'm ready to be loved,
i'm ready to be cared,
i'm ready to be needed,
i'm ready be respectfull,
i'm ready be enough,
i'm ready for the real life,
i'm ready, i'm ready, i'm ready.
i'm ready for the love,
i'm ready, i was waiting long enough

Oh you think
I lost,
but i win,
i win the right to be
my own,
to be myself.

no, don’t keep me within the framework,
I’ll come out of them anyway, because I’m jelly, I’m just jelly.

the lesson I was learn.
you can't make someone love you. if some don't let you in.
give in, don't try too long.
you waste your time.
just left him.
no need to try in vain. love yourself.

it was just lesson,
i've been learn
i am appreciate, i grown
just lesson, nothing all
i've learn to love myself
i've learned to walking slow
you was just lesson
i've been learn
to standing strong
and after storm, still stand,
i will not fall
i will grow more and
more
and after that
i getting stronger
and after pushing
i will still raise up
and shining more
than i was shine before
and every pulling back
just move me forward
so far away, so far away
it was just lesson
i've been learn
to getting stronger
i am appreciate for all

How do you live with lies inside your heart?
How could you live to know you love someone?
How would you live, you get this life just once.
How could you live in lies?
How could you live if everyday you lie?

she was a bird.
she had a big heart.
she thought that everyone like that.
she look at world with open eyes. untill the stones were falling onto her.
she still a little bird.
but she was hurt.
her wings were bleeding.
she cannot flying anymore.
she's just a bird with broken soul. she looking at this world with open eyes still.

cars, no hearts, no souls, no warmth
machineries from metal were consist.
old factories and smoke.
big cities and high-rise buildings. fake smiles, fake faces, cold nights. lonelliness and empiness.
no speach, no words.
around just masks.
just masks around me.

under pressure.
under stress.
i ressist, have no regrets.
1000 problems,
1000 words,
1000 points.
anxiety, rush, depression
i have to rake this mess all alone

i tired to run and see always back. you scream come on, come on,
but never enough.
still run and run, you don't notice that i can't breath.
i tired to trying please you.
what ever i do, it's never enough for you.

i killed by your sweet poison.
i dropping in the ocean.
i falled in water of your lies.
i choke, have no emotions.
i killed by your sweet poison.
i killed by your sweet lies.
your coldnest and your freeze,
i am in snow of icebreath.
so don't belive, you don't believe girl.
this smile, it's nothing more than lie.

her lightly hair were hidding very shyny eyes
when look at her I see the light
when look at her white shiny skin
her cheeks is burning by color pink
her voice enough for to be heared
she was some i amazed of
she was someone i loved
she was my secret lover
i lived this life with her in closet

i love hugging and kissing,
i love tenderness,
i'm a sweet marshmallow

the rain of tears is falling
the river flowing, boiling
my heart is slowly healing
my pieces get together to the one
there no more shame to crying
because while tears are falling
while tears are falling from my eyes
my heart is slowly healing
my pieces come in one.

why would you understand
i had bad time and memories
i try to struggle hard
to clean my mind
like pictures from the gallery
why couldn't wait till heal
why rush and be insulting
i wish to be an understood
but how could I?
if you not me and never had this memories

What do you want?
i wanna this and those,
i wanna jump and just lay under palm tree,
i wanna those and this,
i wanna that and it,
i wanna go there and be here in same time,
i wanna write and wanna job,
i need to study by the way,
*** why i want too much?

nobody will run after you

I forgive you, no body perfect.
But I never will come back

will i change my mind for someone? No.
will i change my style for someone? No.
will i broke my dreams for someone? No.
will i fake for someone? No.
will i change my life for someone? Not

if you not enough, leave in the past,
if you not this one, no matter have fun,
if they were expect, be self respect, don't try to please no one,
just walk away, have fun

i tried too hard to please your ego. by days and nights, but not enough
i run and run and still keep running.
but never been appreciate or loved. i cannot give you how you want it. because you even doesn't know. i'm tired and my heart intoxicated by bitter poison of your words.
i cannot breath and choke inside your haze.
the darknest smoke of lies around me.
the fog is clinch so hard my lungs. i'm tired, you was broke me by ruler and your rules.

they laugh, they smash
they cry, they crash
they push, crunch
they scream, they scared me
they talk, they speack to me
they say you nothing more than looser
this voice inside my head no more than fears and doubts, confusion
hallucinations and illusions
my scares about future
regrets about past
my stress in now
i running in this circle
i  struggle, worry, ripple,
but still I walk
I walk my stony path.
i scared, i am afraid
but i continue to arrive
my destiny
i asked myself so many times
why did i choose so heavy way?
and i don't know
but maybe hero's blood is stream inside my veins