i'm ready, i'm ready, i'm ready,
i'm ready to be loved,
i'm ready to be cared,
i'm ready to be needed,
i'm ready be respectfull,
i'm ready be enough,
i'm ready for the real life,
i'm ready, i'm ready, i'm ready.
i'm ready for the love,
i'm ready, i was waiting long enough

why would you understand
i had bad time and memories
i try to struggle hard
to clean my mind
like pictures from the gallery
why couldn't wait till heal
why rush and be insulting
i wish to be an understood
but how could I?
if you not me and never had this memories

With good deeds, the ability to help others, the ability to love and forgive, to create, with a good heart, an open soul, pure thoughts, nobility, benefit society and people, this is proud. Not machines, not prizes, not victories, not money, not power, no appearance.

no, don’t keep me within the framework,
I’ll come out of them anyway, because I’m jelly, I’m just jelly.

i'll never fade away
whenever, where i am
in darkest place
even if whole world
want to stew my fire
i will be shine and bright
like sun, like lodestar
like candle on the table
in the dark room

it's longest chain
to suit and unsuit game
a blood is burning in my vein
i climbing up on mountain top
i scream, i win, but that is not enough
you look at me with curved face
devaluation any steps
i am like Christmas tree on sunday market
my branches was decorate by garland
and everyone gives own price
they look at me like at the Christmas tree

if you not enough, leave in the past,
if you not this one, no matter have fun,
if they were expect, be self respect, don't try to please no one,
just walk away, have fun

under pressure.
under stress.
i ressist, have no regrets.
1000 problems,
1000 words,
1000 points.
anxiety, rush, depression
i have to rake this mess all alone

your gun it is ignorance.
arogans it's your name.
contempt inside your veins.
you look at me from upside down. i read a scorn inside your lips.
the jeer was freezing on your eyes. you thought i'm fool?
but i am not.

cars, no hearts, no souls, no warmth
machineries from metal were consist.
old factories and smoke.
big cities and high-rise buildings. fake smiles, fake faces, cold nights. lonelliness and empiness.
no speach, no words.
around just masks.
just masks around me.

your love were just destructive.
it's broke me fully in the parts.
it was a crash, it was a smash,
it's hurts, destroyed me.
it's grinded me in ash.
i was rebuild myself for new one.

nobody bring you nothing
upon the golden plate
if you want love
you have to try this
you have to search
if you just sitting idly by.
you'll stay alone forever
everything in your arms, build.

the lesson I was learn.
you can't make someone love you. if some don't let you in.
give in, don't try too long.
you waste your time.
just left him.
no need to try in vain. love yourself.

i wish my brain has chip
so i can stop repeat
those memories...
my heart is faster beat
my mind still on repeat
i want to take this chip
i want delete a creepy vibe
i wanna change my memory

you was just an illusion.
you don't exist at all.
i opened eyes.
and what i see?
the empty place.
i was alone all time.
you made me to believe in fantasy. i opened eyes.
it's all was lie, no more.

when violence will stop?
when will wake up this world? when evil will be gone?
when will we take masks off? when will we learn tell true?

he tried to pull me on the bottom. but i don't wanna to be choken.
i wanna fly like a butterfly,
i want to enjoy my life.
he tried to push me in the darknest.
but i don't wanna to be lost.
i wanna be in lightfull,
i wanna be in love

i killed by your sweet poison.
i dropping in the ocean.
i falled in water of your lies.
i choke, have no emotions.
i killed by your sweet poison.
i killed by your sweet lies.
your coldnest and your freeze,
i am in snow of icebreath.
so don't belive, you don't believe girl.
this smile, it's nothing more than lie.

you see big smile,
you see brigth eyes,
my life is look so perfect,
i know that many would be jalosy, but you just see what would i show you,
you see tatto onto my wrist and think,
oh such a beautiful,
but you don't know, why would i made tatto?
to hide my ugly scars, to forget about past, so many times i've tried to done my life with knife.
i'm happy it's a past.
i'm happy it's all done.
i was waithing too long.
i'm happy to be here now with you all,
we are strong,
we go this through,
we will be fine,
don't let's no one to hurt you.
ask for help
if someone wasn't help you,
another one will
in world so many kind and good people, not everyone are evil

if you asked for forgiveness, maybe I would forgive you.

i love hugging and kissing,
i love tenderness,
i'm a sweet marshmallow

I'm loved, I'm glowed
i cared, i needed
but maybe i am humanoid?
if it's so hard a human be
i cry, i try, i hate, i lie
i make mistakes and so imperfect
so maybe i am humanoid?
but still i am important

if you don't accept me,
you don't accept youself,
if you don't accept yourself,
you don't love self.

her lightly hair were hidding very shyny eyes
when look at her I see the light
when look at her white shiny skin
her cheeks is burning by color pink
her voice enough for to be heared
she was some i amazed of
she was someone i loved
she was my secret lover
i lived this life with her in closet

she was a bird.
she had a big heart.
she thought that everyone like that.
she look at world with open eyes. untill the stones were falling onto her.
she still a little bird.
but she was hurt.
her wings were bleeding.
she cannot flying anymore.
she's just a bird with broken soul. she looking at this world with open eyes still.

Maybe it's okay we not been
Maybe it's okay we not
Maybe i was press too tightly
maybe i was blind, not yours
maybe we some kind of different
maybe i should stop to dream
maybe i should find my place now
maybe, maybe, maybe
maybe all was just a fantasy
maybe i should open eyes
maybe you was not enough for me
maybe was am I
maybe i should staying quiet
maybe i should stop
maybe i should stop so hard to trying
maybe i should stop to ask regard
maybe all it was my dreaming
maybe i was not in yours
maybe we some kind of different
maybe it's all my efforts
why i try so hard to move a stone
maybe i should to give in
maybe i should say good bye forever
maybe i should stop to search
maybe never was in your eyes
maybe your eyes someone else's
maybe all it's just imaginary
maybe i was blind
maybe i, for you was funny
maybe i was funny guy
maybe i was jest for using
maybe i was just a fool
maybe all my feels and dreaming
maybe it's just all my faulth
maybe it's again my intuition
maybe it is blind
maybe i should stop to thinking
maybe i should stop to wait
maybe i should stop to beeing your some kind of toy
maybe i will strike all dreamings
maybe i will strike all words
which i whispered to my pillow
when i want to hold your mores
when i need you most
maybe all is just illusions
maybe i should to be real
maybe i will to be waiking, from that funny dreams
maybe it is time to leaving, maybe it is time to move, maybe it is time when my heart is healing,
maybe this is will deserve,
maybe i will stop to waiting fooly,
for your silly love

i'll go there where the door is open. i'll go there where someone is wait for me
i'll go there where I am a welcome. i'll go there where is heart is full of love.
i'll go somewhere where's sun is shining.
i'll go somewhere where's warmt and soft.
i'll go somewhere where is for me thouse roses.
i'll go somewhere where i am needed.

not a great loss

it was just lesson,
i've been learn
i am appreciate, i grown
just lesson, nothing all
i've learn to love myself
i've learned to walking slow
you was just lesson
i've been learn
to standing strong
and after storm, still stand,
i will not fall
i will grow more and
more
and after that
i getting stronger
and after pushing
i will still raise up
and shining more
than i was shine before
and every pulling back
just move me forward
so far away, so far away
it was just lesson
i've been learn
to getting stronger
i am appreciate for all

i will be by your side, no matter what
i will be there for you, i'll hold your hand
i will accepting you, each piece
i walking near to you, you feel my breeze
i staying by your side, it's not a lie
in hardest moment i'll looking to your eyes
i will remember our very firs  glance
i will remember how i felt then
i will be cherisht every moment and enjoy of life.

i was broken fully
i'm healing piece by piece,
but slowly
it's long process

i wanna be enough.
i wanna be loved.
i wanna be accepted.
i wanna be my self.
i wanna feel free.
i wanna breath.

I didn't find myself in the trash to look into your mouth and run after you.
Hope I said enough clear.

I forgive you, no body perfect.
But I never will come back

little, little ego,
choking in the throat
biger, biger, biger,
little ego growed,
there's not enough
of breathing,
there's not enough
of everything,
the sun not sun,
the moon too cool,
Earth too *****,
the city too big or too small,
the dress not fit at all,
the lipstick it's too heavy on my lips,
dark smoke in my throat,
the metal ston onto my heart,
I feel each beat,
pulsation in my head

Oh you think
I lost,
but i win,
i win the right to be
my own,
to be myself.

i tried too hard to please your ego. by days and nights, but not enough
i run and run and still keep running.
but never been appreciate or loved. i cannot give you how you want it. because you even doesn't know. i'm tired and my heart intoxicated by bitter poison of your words.
i cannot breath and choke inside your haze.
the darknest smoke of lies around me.
the fog is clinch so hard my lungs. i'm tired, you was broke me by ruler and your rules.

if you do not take this lesson with me, you will go through it again and again with others until you learn the lesson.

the rain of tears is falling
the river flowing, boiling
my heart is slowly healing
my pieces get together to the one
there no more shame to crying
because while tears are falling
while tears are falling from my eyes
my heart is slowly healing
my pieces come in one.

what gives popularity?
today is, tomorrow is not.
It does not bring income,
it does not make you smarter,
it does not bring stable work.
who needs this popularity?
not me

Your thoughts become reality
Be carefull to choose
Life can provoke you
Life can to make regrets
Life can tempting you
Life can to give you doubts
Be carefull, because you choose your thoughts

nobody will run after you

will i change my mind for someone? No.
will i change my style for someone? No.
will i broke my dreams for someone? No.
will i fake for someone? No.
will i change my life for someone? Not