I'm walking down the street,
No destination in mind
Using a phone I hardly understand
..a talk-to-text app of all things.
So many things, words to say
But ever unsaid,
Not because it would offend,
Feelings are delicate,
But because it would betray..
Would betray the one person
I know above all others,
A wolf walking
Down a street with no destination.

you said its what you needed.
what the doctor had ordered.
picked it up from the pharmacy.
it would ease the discomfort,
aches, pains, soreness,
and finally you would
feel yourself again.
after all the years of suffering,
you could finally love me right.
but i don't recall doctors prescribing
whiskey in a prescription bottle.

Sometimes heartbreak is like a stroke.
One sudden moment.
You lose half of yourself.

Other times it's like a cancer.
Spreading. Consuming every fibre.
Until you're nothing
but an empty corpse.

I don't know which is worse.
But don't you dare judge me
for not seeing it.

I remember when I was young
And I thought people never died.  
No one died.  
I lived in a little world all on my own.  
But then little by little my family died off
My dad
My grandma
My aunt
Everyone died.
And I accepted that as what is too become
Pets die and so do we.  
It is hard to accept death unless you live in it.  
I live and thrive in the death that surrounds my life.  
I sometimes wonder why I am still even alive.

You asked me why I like you
But I didn’t want to tell
Some of my reasons are cheesy...
But here is why I fell

I love the way your lips curve
When I make you smile
It makes me want to pull you close
And kiss you for awhile

I love the way your eyes twinkle
When you talk about things you love
I truely believe
You are a gift from above

I love that you are compassionate
You have such a big heart
That was the first thing I noticed
Right from the start

I love the way it feels
When you hold me tight
I finally feel safe
Like I could sleep through the night

I love that you don’t judge me
For my less than perfect self
That is more attractive
Than any amount of wealth

There are so many more reasons
But I’ll start with just this few
Maybe someday
I’ll give this poem to you

:)