I try to hold my tears as long as I can,
So that I can drown out the world in front of me.

I'm losing you to the games I play with my mind,
Because I'm scared of what you might find.

I was blinded by your light,
But now you're burnt out.

I wish I could write about pretty things,
But I have to tell you what the darkness brings.
You have to know,
The monsters that live below.

I try to sleep as long as I can,
Because every morning I have to relive the pain of waking up alone.

I face my fear of the morning,
Because that's when you say goodbye.

These tears I cry,
You will never dry.
Goodbye to your lies.
Now you get to watch our love die.

Opinions everywhere
They rip through my walls,
Exposing my fear.
To my knees I fall.

Be pretty they say
Wear this, wear that
But I'm just not wired the same way.
I don't want to be like that.

I'm careless
I carry beauty in my own way.
I'm a mess.
In my thoughts I stay.

Maybe I will never be the queen.
And maybe that's okay.

My stomach drops,
And you send my head into flops.
My heart stops.
These tears need multiple mops.

Love was once red,
But now it is dead.

Wake up,
Another day to do right or ***** up.

I stare in the mirror at this girl,
A girl who's lost her way.
I sit here, my mind in a swirl.
But weirdly I'm okay.

I look at the empty pill bottle,
And I know death fills me.
I'm empty like that bottle.
I know heaven may reject me.

I couldn't handle all the pains.
I'm weak.
The pills poisoning my veins.
A better place is what I seek.

These eyes watch me die.
I'm not afraid.
Actually I can't lie.
I'm very afraid.

Maybe this wasn't the best,
Maybe there was a chance for me.
Maybe it was all a test.
But now it's too late for me.

There's no saving me.

I know now of something.
forgotten along the way,
I took advantage of a love given
And in the end taken.

Learning to live without,
Lonely nights and crying out
Empty heart, I took a shot
I reached out and prayed the love remained

You are the beauty of life
I know now
And now I can never forget.
I love you

The moon lighting this old street.
Reminiscing, with only the sound of my heartbeat

I break down,
While the city sleeps.

Don't even bother anymore.
You have torn me to the core.
How can I miss,
Someone who did me like this?

The way the we kiss,
You're a glimpse of bliss.

I was wrapped around your finger,
But now these feelings just linger.

Escape the labels,
Just give me this one night.
We can pretend that nothing is something.

Never let someone go to bed,
Not understanding what you said.
Into heaven they may be led,
Your words, echoing in their head,
There's no take backs when they're dead.

It takes over me.
My lungs filled with disease,
Making it harder to breathe.
My temperature raised to a high degree.
No medicine can save me,
Just let me be.

Stay picture perfect,
or society will reject.

I want to feel something.
Strike the match,
And ignite me.

I like being alone.
Shutting out the world is the best kind of feeling.
It's just you and your thoughts.
You get to know yourself,
And fall in love with little things.

Take a look in the mirror,
Look at the face displayed.
A face of beauty, that the eyes do not see.
Why?

Why can I never be good enough?
Society says that I am beautiful the way I am;
However pretty is what you must be.
Pretty gives you an easier way of life.

This face in the mirror,
What would it look like if I was actually me?
If I didn't change into what society wants me to be.
Would I even recognize me?

Exhausted of pretty,
There's a new trend everyday.
Acceptance is the key.
Look in the mirror.

Is this really me?
Are you really you?
Pretty is the key.
But is it me?

"I'm not who you want to be,
Or what you need.
But yet you can't resist me."

Your love is like ecstacy,
I need it desperately.
It leaves me helplessly,
But I want it endlessly.

You're just a ghost,
And I'm just your host.

You're there and I'm here.
A half ripped away from you.
I am missing.
I walk around with half a brain,
Half a soul,
Half a heart.
Because you are the other half.
I am never completed,
Unless you are with me.

You are my hearts desire,
And you ignite my fire.

Running away from this old town,
Because all it ever did was tore me down.

A one night stand,
Is just not for me.
It's something my heart cannot stand.
It's something not meant to be.

One night of lust,
And pretending to love.
Morning comes and I'm left in the dust,
With nobody to love.

My mind plays a trick
And believes there's something more.
Now my heart feels like bricks,
Because you're already out the door.

In the moment of goodbye,
I realized just how much I love you.

Four lovely walls,
Yet I feel trapped in this silence.
I long for the light that calls.
But still nothing but silence.

How can that be?
So quiet, but I'm screaming.
No one can hear me.
My eyes no longer gleaming.

I just need to leave.
I want to throw away this life
I no longer believe.
I pick up the knife.

Is this what I want?
Am I being selfish?
This is not what my family wants.
Can I leave the people I cherish?

I just needed someone,
To help me escape my own mind
But it's too late I'm gone.
All I needed was someone to be kind.

Alone I lie,
In a trance state of mind.
My thoughts screaming,
But I don't move.

Too much pain,
Yet I don't even bother to cry.
I created this violence in my head.
Piercing thoughts until I'm dead.

I try so hard to be the best,
But it seems my best is trouble.
I find myself making the same mistakes.
I tell myself no, but I lose control.

God are you still listening?
Have you given up on me?
Or am I giving up on myself?
The void in my heart is getting worst.

I'm surrounded by people,
But not by light.
Is heaven out of my reach,
Or is it too late?

All these questions,
Filling my head.
I reach out,
But nothing is there.

I don't want to live this way.
Save me from my mind.
Slipping away into insanity,
Are you there?

Am I worth saving?

Twirl my hair,
And pretend that I don't care.

You can't stand to watch me cry,
But you look me straight in my eyes
And you spill out your new lie.

It consumes me.
I don't like it,
But I gave you my key.
This feeling throws me into a fit.

I hate other girls looking
I make up these scenarios in my head
I feel you have a plan cooking,
I cry alone in this bed.

I know you're good to me,
But I'm so broken.
This isn't how it's suppose to be.
I question every word that's spoken.

This feeling gets under my skin.
Please don't leave.
I just know the actions of other men.
It's so hard to believe.

This jealousy is me.
I'm sorry.

My mind drips words onto the page,
While my heart tries to break free from its cage.

I hate everything you do to me.
I hate the way you look at me.
I hate the words you say to me.
I hate the way you love me.

I just want to escape you,
But I cant.
I find myself running back.
For some reason I love you.

So let's escape into hate.
Because I love the way I hate you.
This hate is passion,
And I can't get enough.

Another morning without you,
And more motions to go through.

She's torn.
Wishing she was never born.
She became too worn.
But she will never know how many people came to mourn.

My eyes fighting the light,
Not prepared for the nightmares I fight.

I'd rather be by myself,
Than be another book on your shelf.