Ever had that point in your life where
you wished you could just press
a button and restart your whole
Never losing any of the knowledge
that you have now?
It seems like I'm having more and
more of those days...
I try my best to walk on the path
of light, but I can't help but turn
and feel the shadows crawling
How they yearn to sharpen their
blades with their poisoned whispers
and seek my neck to slit my throat
The memories of my 'childhood'
coming back to bite and drag me
down to my death
I only wish to build for my future,
to move on,
to rise about the turmoil that burns
For the man I hate most in this world...
Even now, I'm not sure that I fully
understand the past
I have so many questions, still
But I guess I will never truly understand
it, not as I am now anyway...
But it's better to understand than me
seeking to solve it
I can't change my past
I can't delete my mistakes
I'm still at war, fighting off my insecurities
As scared as I am, my hand
is on the handle that leads
to my Hall of Hope
Small, it may be, but hope
is something that is hard to ****
once it has taken root
The key, stability, is there beyond
My future is the only thing I have
There's nothing left for me in the past,
nothing but pain and a black-hole
So I humbly ask you...
Help me to overcome and experience
my best life that hides behind my fears
I won't let anyone jeopardise what could
be for me, for the sake of jealousy or even
I can't be a tree that never bears fruit...
For risks are apart of life
So I will follow you,
with my heart praying for salvation
From the smoke from the past,
you present me my mirror
even if it's something I do not wish
My past, I will make peace with
but I will create my bright future
Picking at an emotional wound...