I must be living in my world to think things  will change. I  keep love and  hope in  my heart but  i see now it was just my mind playing with my heart.  I  wish i could be that guy in your life make you smile. I could put  back together  your broken heart but  in end  you use to it broken.  i smile when i think  the world slows down but is this lost image in my head . I my eyes  never been open  i was lost in your beauty . The beauty  is my weakness  that is like cancer to soul.  I don't  think people see way i do but i need more then PHD for this work.

Yesterday
extremely
overwhelmed
she held me
crying a lot
let go of me
she leaves
more crying
******.

Why the hell was I happy
When you stood in my space
While searching for
Somebody else’s face?

Why was my mind
On what could have been
Instead of what was-
What do you think you’ve seen?

You say you can read people,
Can see their emotions
Like they’re open books,
Full of deepest devotions-

…-so why
Can’t you
Read

me?

Just another moment....just a little more time. The most sacred letter of the alphabet.....just j.

I think your initiating initial moves entails, indubitably, an interesting turn of events.....I want to investigate you. Initiate that for me?

Happy am I when I happen to hear your voice....how on earth am I to hold on to life when I hate being alone, not with you?

Give me my godly gain....Gables of green won't guise my tremor for the guilt I feel.....Give it to me.

At times it great being single  and other times i feel like is love really out there, I don't   want be one those people who  gives up and starts putting up great wall. I been on this frontline but i keep taking the hits from last guy or the other person  idea of perfect. I see couple holding hands in my own thoughts i think to myself  where is my queen. I am just joker in this deck of cards? The best feeling is holding someone close letting  everything go.  I am just hopeless  on this road called love................

Forever I'll find myself falling for a figure I fear I won't see for another few months....
You can feign disinterest, but fair love fights all....and wins.