My group therapy ended today Termination is such a violent word For such a soft thing Termination is harsh Reminiscent of layoffs And Austrian-born California governors No. This wasn’t a firing.
It was a funeral.
Round robin reflection at a somber dinner table An exchange of platitudes and promises To stay in contact, to be available And we all meant it. Every word.
We were demented sorcerers, Holding tightly to fading magics
Ex-lovers Trying to be friends
Though it was, ironically, a machine that once said. “A thing is not beautiful because it lasts.” And every part of me I found in them Now is a part of them found in me Carried in my self-revelations In strides straight and confident as an honest Keyser Soze. And though I am a penny none the richer
I can feel you in my body And I can't tell if it's just worry But I, know that if I could hold your hands in mine I'll love you for all time, I'd love you cause you're mine I can feel you in my stomach I'm sick to death cause of how much this hurts And I, know that I have to give you up But I'll keep you on my mind, I'd keep you in my mind This may just be me being crazy And trying to keep a piece of him You may not even exist beyond my dreams But I can feel you weighing underneath my skin I hope to god when I'm older I can spread a part of myself to the world But it just isn't my time now I hope you understand that there's just too much **** to hold.
Your life was so precious And I took that away Even though you can't hear me now There's still some things I need to say.. It's all still so real And the real pain is in my heart I loved you then and I love you now Yet you barely had a start. Whether a little boy or a girl You were a blessing either way Following in the footsteps of your sister Who would have loved for you to stay. If I wasn't so selfish, And If I wasn't so scared I should have kept you with me Your life I should have spared .. Knowing that you would have been mine But only half of your sister Would have hurt so many people And caused such a twister. But you would have been worth it And none of it would have mattered Letting you go is my only regret That will have me forever shattered I think about you every day And wish I would have chosen differently I wish that I could have you in my arms And feel you growing inside of me. I was supposed to protect you But I betrayed you instead It's the strongest regret I've ever felt It's a constant pounding in my head. I still feel u in my heart Sometimes I swear you speak to me In ways I can't explain And I swear sometimes I feel you with me .
Let the wind take me like smoke And every other over used metaphor You’re a bore No I am I don’t know where I stand Where we stand We used to hold hands Not anymore. I’m in the bathroom hiding Biding our time Lets rewind You’re always on my mind Its inevitable that I’ll fall into my old ways I’ll start littering again And slithering around with suburban ****. I haven’t become anything. I’m just coming undone. C.m.
I really honestly love this particular one. It's also from conspire--inspire.tumblr.com but it just holds so true to so many interactions I have had with people that eventually and inevitably end. This causes me to dramatically and cynically wonder if anything, including myself, will ever change.
Abortion, It’s the latest craze! Murdering unborn babies is no big deal these days If it means keeping your own life straight Then what’s so wrong with sealing someone’s fate?
To be popular today in high school You have to sleep with someone cool He’ll dump you before the week is done, But you don’t care that he’ll be gone All you want is to higher up the ladder Every guy moves you one spot higher.
Things happen when you’re not careful Now you’re pregnant, but don’t be fearful The clinic downtown is confidential One, two, three and then you’re done You can go back to having fun Double meaning or witty pun?
Anyhow, you can’t stop here It’s only your freshman year Pick up some pills and get into gear Don’t feel bad that you’re a killer The fetus was only in its first trimester Doesn’t that make you feel better?