You and I met in a dark crowded place in the dead of winter.
Just out for a good time not a bad time, meeting strangers with drinks flowing and no one was sober.
You barely said a word to me that night,
But neither of us realised it was the start of this roller-coaster ride.


Months down the line you finally got the courage, to tell me how you really feel about me.
It started off as just a harmless friendly fling, what we didn't know was if it was meant to be.


That summer we eventually got together, we were both so happy not knowing that our bridges would burn in the near future.
We started off great full of hopes and dreams of a future together but eventually the addiction of love wore off for you.


Fears and insecurities about loving me hit you, hit you so hard you didn't know what to do.
Until that night you suddenly said goodbye to me, it was then that I realised I'd hit my first low. We both moved on or it seemed like we did, until eventually you found yourself back to me again.


Second chances aren't meant to happen but my feelings for you were too strong to just let go, second time around we tried again, we both got so high from each other until we hit the ground again. We both did and said things neither of us meant and we both kept trying to forget each other as if we've never met.


We burned the bridges between us once more, until you decided you wanted to make amends again. One text was all it took for me to feel that euphoric high again, you're like a drug I'm so addicted to I just can't seem to get rid of in my veins.


Now here we are in the present time, I'm stuck in the same endless cycle of feeling the highs and lows of loving you. I want to let you go and for you to let me go because it shouldn't be this painful or complicated to feel loved by you.


I'm sorry if sometimes I'm too much for you, I guess I don't really know what love is without feeling a certain way everytime I think of you.
I know that I'm too attached to you and I can't lie because I love you but not knowing where I stand everytime with you breaks me apart inside more and more each day than you'll ever know. But for all it's worth I wouldn't say I wish I'd never met you, because you taught me that love can be amazing during the highs too.

I don’t know when it started.
I guess it was always there,
my ability to feel ones energy.
My ability to read tarot cards.
People, even complete strangers, are shocked at my
pinpoint accuracy.
How is it possible that I dream and my dream
becomes a reality?
Through vibrations and voices, I hear statements,
I feel what Spirit wants me to deliver.
A year before my mom went to heaven, I heard
A voice loud and clear, “this will be her last Thanksgiving.”
November 2021, my mom went to be with the Lord,  
a few days before Thanksgiving.
Why was I chosen with this extraordinary gift?
Why was I chosen to deliver messages?
I channel messages and feel spirits near.
But I’m glad I can hear them and not see them.
I’ve dreamed of loved ones coming into my sleep,
Passing on messages for me to deliver.
Honestly, I think it’s pretty cool, my abilities
have gotten stronger through the years.
I am happy that a part of me can do such a
wondrous thing.
People may not agree with me using my gift,
at first I felt the same way, but people are being helped,
their concerns are being put to rest. I am blessed when I
help a person who needs answers.
Like it or not, I am here to stay, or at least my
Intuitive abilities are.

I can only breath by you.
I can only see by you.
Only you giving me an energy
Living energy to persuade
all circumstances to change.
Change everything what will can happen.

Be aside the situation which are painful
to my body and to my soul.
Now you see how complicated it is.
I can only breath by you.
You must be there each second.
Each my blink of eye you notice.
Each burst of my heart you feel.
Now you see how hard to live
like this it is.

We two are in one. But you are not my love.
We are not soul mate or lover.
But complete strangers to each other.
Now you see how tough it is.

Will we be one soul  sometime in the future?
Never. It would be the mistake and misery.
I want go back and have my freedom to breath.
Without you inside me. I can´t hear you. anymore.
How purify and quiet moment occured me.
Forever free. Forever without you. Only me.