You may call it Sky.
I call it Blue Breeze.
You may call it Sun.
I call it Zen.
You may call it Rose.
I call it Reason.

buddha is buddha
soma is soma they twang
vibrate consciousness

Soma that seeps
flowing
like little creeks
sprinkling
off the edge
wetting
a tongue outstretched
watering
wilted flower beds
feeding
that pretty head
cycling
arid to wetlands

1)
Here in the dark where rules don't exist
Gravity slips my wrist to your hips
And your kiss like Soma lay burned on my lips
Sudden a slight, subtle physical gesture
So foreign to think of it - only conjecture
Alluring, your posture bent into mine first

2)
Unable to think, unable to breathe
Unable to reason rational reasons for such indulgence
So known was he to penitence
So unknown was this dream
And that, it was a dream
Cortisol surging, testosterone flowing, epinephrine...surely would split his mind at the seam, and end this cruel romantic dream

3)
Soma to touch her
Soma to feel her
Nothing to know, and none left to sow
Soma to see her
Soma to hear her
When won't it last? When will it go?
Soma to think
Soma to dream
Forever unknowing
Forever I'll be

endless pacing
of these
subaquatic halls
almost catatonic
until I remember
how to think
and then
I cry

I should be
dead

I was dead
free from this
painful
existence
until something -
the WAU -
brought me back
in it's skewed mission
to preserve humanity

the WAU
stitched me
back together
with its gel of life

hardly human
hardly conscious
but conscious enough
to hate what I am
and cry
over my own existence

misery
then
anger
I am half
myself
half WAU
angry
craving to ****
hurt
end
whatever
stumbles across
my path

in my habitual
walks
through these corridoors
I see him

something else
another
who is aware
oh what I wouldn't
give
to have another
sentient creature
to curb my loneliness but-
NO!
STAY AWAY FROM ME!

the WAU
starts talking

**** him
he doesn't want you
to exist
he will
prevent you
from being with me
you need me
we need each other
he wants to end us
to end
life
he must be
extinguished
for the sake of
preserving
humanity

find him
chase him
**** HIM

in my pursuit
of the sentient
diving suit
I recognize
his fear
and my humanity
comes back to me
and I weep

he is
so afraid
of who I am
the Frankenstein
the predator
seeking prey
I cry
because this
is who I am
I cry
because I don't want
to hurt him
I cry
because I am
alive

constantly torn
between animalistic
rage
and the
self aware
misery
of realizing what I am

I want someone
to hold me
and make me feel
human
but
I don't want
any conscious creature
to get near me

for the WAU
is controlling
the strings of this puppet
it is the reason
I exist
it gives me the
sustenance
I need and crave
to keep on
hating my own existence
it will make me
****
anything that crosses my path

I think
and I weep

I want you to close your eyes
Visualize
Hand over breast
Until your palm thumps

What you feel transfigures the physical
What we have transcends the sultry soma
Or random tactile sensation

I want you to close your eyes
Listen to my ripe breath
Inhale my low voice

It is like a hymn
It is true because while it whisks
Through your ear
It blossoms in your heart

Let it reverberate through those midnight gardens
You deny yourself among the slobbering masses

Groping you like raw meat
Pounding, slicing and packaging you
Like clumsy butchers

You are not a bleeding slab to me
Though I cherish that animal
Which temporarily houses your light

It is that radiance which warms my loveless bones
Which illuminates my dreamless skull

Distance only magnifies our effulgence
We are insects below it, scrambling

Let us immolate together beneath its searing heat
Until the facades of flesh melt
And we are left as **** as shadows
Aching for an unremitting bliss

बयबो रंजानायनि गेजेराव
आं रंजागोन---
दुखुखौ दोनगोन आं
नुयै बबेबा आन्दो खनायाव
.
संसार मानसिनि गेजेराव
बिखासे बिखा अननाय लानानै
अननायखौ होगोन आं---
थांना थानायनि रायजोआव
.
जुब जुब अखा फैथोँ
बै समा फैयोब्ला
रंजासुला मिथिँगानि रायजोआव
बयबो रंजानाय जायोब्ला
.
जिउनि बारग्लांनाय रैरुब
मुलुगनि रंगिना बिबार बारियाव
देलाइनाय जाथोँ मिथिँगानि
गोथां बाथ'गां दखनाजोँ
.
गोजोँ मिनिनाय निजोरानि
अखोरांसे गुवार अननाय
जाथोँ खुदुमनाय सिदोब सिदोब
गेवलांनाय गोदान बोसोर
.
समायना सिखिरिनि बिरबायनाय
जायोब्ला मोदोमनाय बिबारनि
हालि हालि बारग्लांनाय बिनि---
.
मेथाइ रोजाबथोँ दाउसिन
बिफां-लाइफांनि मोसानाय
बेजों गोजोन बारा थाबायबोथोँ
औवा बिजौआ सिफुं दामनानै
.
दैमा-दैसा बोहैनायजोँ
दाउबोथोँ हालि हालि ना
बेजोँ फैथोँ गोदान बोसोर---
बिफां-बेन्दोँनि रोदोमनायजोँ