My darling stickers,
What whispers you've heard,
What secrets you hold,
I shall never know,
Stick with me,
And I shall stick with you...

yearning until the dawn
waiting for the tears to come
the dam can only hold for so long
take a nighttime jog
waiting for the tears to come
backs will break after so long
pedal my bike to secret spots
settle strife stroking
pedal my bike to secret spots
unsettled strife poking

As a child I felt:

there is a secret in me --


big, for the whole world.

Suddenly I know

the secret hidden in me --


and I speak it out.

You can't heal under a mask
Wounds need air
So do secrets
Both are hard to hide

I'm getting hickies from vibrations in my throat.
There's smoke in the air,
I can't help but choke
On my word as they spew from me like they know
That I've said too much.
I've said to much.

All these kisses stick to me like a hug.
Am I apparent to them them
When they taunt me with their tug
On my shirt as they cover me like they know
That I've said too much?
I've said too much.

My body's shaking from the fear, I aim a weapon.
I cant look at what I'm shooting
But I caught her perception
She stares me down cruelly still like she well knows
That I've said to much.
I've said to much.

I feel the tears when I can't see her through a camera.
They blur my vision, flood my ears,
Fill my lungs, I feel my stamina
Be drained from my core like it knows
That I've said too much
I've said too much

I'm feeling selfish so I start cutting with steak knife .
Though with my throat slit
My tongue still moves with the still life.
It tells my secrets on and on and it knows
That I'll say too much.
I'll say too much.
I'll say too much.

I stand at the edge, heart in my hand,
Knowing that loving you wasn’t the plan.
You’re a flame that burns bright in the dark,
But I fear I can’t keep this fragile spark.

Your laughter, your eyes, your voice so sweet,
Moments with you feel like worlds complete.
But deep in the quiet, where truth softly lies,
I know this love will someday die.

I wish I could stay in this fleeting embrace,
Hold onto the joy, the warmth of your face.
But how do I love when I know the end,
When time is a thief, not a friend?

I’m scared to give all of my soul,
To fall in a love that won’t make me whole.
Yet here I stand, trembling inside—
Afraid to let go, afraid to confide.

So I love you in whispers, in moments, in light,
Knowing you’re not my forever, just my "for tonight."
And though it will fade, this feeling will live,
For even in fear, love’s the best gift I can give.