This world is a beehive.
Studs and dimes all over.
Mingling and propagating.
Dancing like bees in search of honey.

Mortal men searching for nectar.
Is the sweetness worth it?
If I were to be honest,
I couldn't resist a taste of you either.

I've been exercising my wings.
Dusted off a blazer and a necktie.
Haircut and a smile to complete the look.
Just to cross-pollinate with you my dear.

I must be doing something right.
When everyone tells me how perfect I am.
Then why can't any queen choose me?
I guess I'm just a worker bee.

It's never enough.
Being kind and caring.
Being funny.
Being smart.
Being there.

It's never enough.
Dressing well for you.
Being groomed for you.
Being **** for you.
Being beautiful for you.

It's never enough.
Saying all the right things.
At the right times.
Being confident and suave.
Being calm and collected.

It's never enough.
Having a good job.
Being ambitious.
Being non-materialistic.
Being an adult.

It's never enough.
Treating you with respect.
Trying to attract you.
Trying to court you.
Trying to win you.

It's never enough.
When I try my best.
Give it my all.
And you don't bat an eye.
Because you're simply not interested.

It's never enough.
When you try to be perfect.
And try to court her today.
And the other girl a month later.
And another girl a year later.

Just to be shot down.
Every.
Single.
*******.
Time.

All the questions I could ask myself
About you and I and we and us
Does not hold a candle to the truth outshining us.
I do not need to hear your words, although you know I long to.
You've slipped away, a swaying phase, unsteady as the moon
In your island you're always hiding far out of reach for me.
I know the rules and I try to tip-toe around them.
Caught in a roulette wheel, shooting myself in the foot.
Swinging on the vines like Tarzan in the jungle, my Jane
Does not belong to me, enamored, enchained,
To this life I'm in, I shall indeed remain.
You are a glittering spotlight far away,
The light tower,
And I am only a glint in the corner of your eyelash,
I might cower,
The instant you turn to me, the minute you decide to fight for me.
The right hour
I am able to be yours, in this life, if ever, you have me,
So clever, wrapped in maroon silk cocoon, staved away,
For you, alone, always unable to love another, steal me from my lover like plunder, come find me on my shores
And take what has always been yours.

Hey girl
It seems you pulled my heart
Straight from my chest
Sent it back in a box
With a stamp that said rejected
Oh oh here we go
Always leave me feeling
So low, oh no, here we go
I'm hanging from the ceiling
Held up by these demons
Oh lord this just ain't right
Wasn't ready for this fight
Okay, alright, better hold on tight
As my eyes turn from brown to red
Rage starts to grow
In my face, it start to show

Hell yes, hell no
My mind starts to argue
With itself
And I'm caught in the middle
Of all these thoughts
What should I do
What should I do
What should I do about you
Can't stay, need to go
Keep moving on
Just keep looking forward
Keep moving on

I've got a sinking feeling
Somethings strumming my nerves
Keep hitting kerbs
Keep losing out
And I'm trying to find a way
That I can stop from hurting now
Somebody take this heart
I don't want it anymore
Somebody take this soul
I don't need it anymore
Just let me hit the floor
Don't feel like getting back up at all

Hell yes, hell no
My mind starts to argue
With itself
And I'm caught in the middle
Of all these thoughts
What should I do
What should I do
What should I do about you
Can't stay, need to go
Keep moving on
Just keep looking forward
Keep moving on

Trying to find new ways
To keep me sane
Trying to find new ways
To keep me from breaking up again
And I'm leaving all the broken parts behind
Just trying to keep my head held high
I'm gonna be just fine
Keep walking it'll all be alright
Just give it a little time
Breathe in, breathe out
Let it all go
Just let life take the wheel
And move with the flow

Hell yes, hell no
My mind starts to argue
With itself
And I'm caught in the middle
Of all these thoughts
What should I do
What should I do
What should I do about you
Can't stay, need to go
Keep moving on
Just keep looking forward
Keep moving on

©2017 Written By Benji James

I just wanted to lend a helping hand
To be the one there;
When you needed someone.
You went and broke my heart into two;
Like a piece of oak under an axe.
You let me go;
Like a child does a balloon.
Yet, I was always there;
Even though you were nowhere in sight. 
I gave you my loving arms;
Yet you rejected them.
I was a crying newborn;
You were an ungrateful mother.
I was vulnerable;
You took advantage.
However, I will always love you;
No matter how much you hurt me.
My heart is made of glass;
Yours of steel.

The sweetest words
embitter my Lady Sea.
Nor can fire evaporate
that raging ocean.

When a man speaks
with voice of mouse,
hear her shriek-ethereal
nullify even love-potions.

I darest ask her,
mustn’t I dare?
Wouldn’t even a grimace,
tease my loving stare?

Lady Sea, storm in your soul.
Were you to splatter like glass
wouldn’t I still find nourishment?
Just an element of you.
Just a taste.
I would consume it infinitely,
leave none to waste.

Lady Sea,
lady see, I whimper, I pine.
Your wish is thine.

Lady Sea,
hair like nimbus sail,
I paddle at your door...
To no avail.