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0 is only possible with water
1 sadly isn't possible and won't satisfy
13 is equivalent to that of an unappetizing snack
300 is starting to border between satisfying and too much
500 is a little out there
1,000 is unsatisfactory
2,000 is toilet time
I'm so sorry if you get this...I know how you feel... I'm going through it now....
©LogenMichel copyright 2015
WickedHope Jan 2015
Why did you eat that?
Don't you know
You're already fat?

Everyone is staring,
At the way your skin
Is swelled and sagging.

No one wants you,
With all that extra cargo
You look 200 pounds.

Put the food down
And go for a run --
You look disgusting.

Why did you eat that?
Don't you know
You're already fat?
WickedHope Dec 2014
Everyone leaves
                                                  for lunch break,
           and I'm left here,

questioning my appearance.
Been struggling with anorexia nervosa for years.
Trying to do better. Hopeful I stay that way this time.
WickedHope Dec 2014
Sometimes,
I think about how
soft
my hair is
and about how relatively
small
my waist is,
and I'm okay
with myself...
... for about three minutes.
Then I'm back to 'normal.'
WickedHope Dec 2014
I was skin and bones
He told me I was fat
I believed him

I am skin and bones and more now
He tells me I'm fat
I started to believe him again
The other day I was standing in the atrium of my school, when I could feel myself starting to black out. I reached out and called out for help, hoping for a familiar face. But everyone moved away from me, so I collapsed against the wall.

It was the end of the day, I guess they just all wanted to go home...
WickedHope Nov 2014
Am I thin?
Please tell me if I am.
Am I skinny?
I'm trying to get there.
I'm dying  *for your approval.
110 pounds...
100...
90...
How far can I get before I faint?
Before I'm enough --
Not* enough?
I hate this holiday.
always anxious Oct 2014
anorexia you inside of me
hysteria is all you'll ever be.
you're a struggle
and you caused me a lot of trouble
yes you made me skinny
all with that stupid theory
but i'm gonna win in the end
even though you are my only friend

i will not die today
just have to get back what i threw away
i called you my master for way too long
but i just realized where i belong
i have my friends here
and they take away my fear

i might have been close to death
but only beacuse of your stupid threat
"you're gonna get fat"
and then we had the calorie chat
but i'm forcing you to leave
so i can freedom achieve

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