I've tried to get over being lied to.
I can't.
I've tried to get through the betrayals and blames,
I can't.
I've tried to get over that fact that I've been talked about and lied about,
But I can't.
I've tried to get past the reasons why I regret so much,
And I can't.
I've tried to get past the hypocrisy and narcissism
And I simply can't.
I've tried to get over the pain of knowing I'd wasted time
And could have had something that makes my entire life complete,
And can't.
I've tried to forget the dreams and wants I used to think were real,
But I can't.
I've tried to work my way through the conflict in my head, but I cant.
I am trying not to hate him, but I can't.

Temporarily content
for once the tears have subsided

Though eventually my mind goes back
to being hopelessly misguided

Involuntarily thrown
into a dark pit of despair

A broken smile and a broken spirit
that I seem unable to repair

A strong keen intellect hidden
behind a melancholy haze

Vibrant, sparkling, engaging eyes
become a blank vacant gaze

Running from the suffocation
it finally caught up to me

Darkness swarming in my mind
now every bad thought ***** with me

The rareness of my tears set in
and everything goes black

I'm in my own gloomy bubble
where depression slowly attacks

Now all that seems to be left of myself is a
foggy obscure apparition

An empty shell of nothingness
who is losing all ambition

Depression, Anxiety, insomnia and more...
it seems I've made a custom combination

I'm a fuzzy headed ****** up mess
I've concluded through my observation

minutes before the bell was to ring,
i sat down in the seat that i sat in every other morning.
the one that was partially by the window and near you at the same time,
and the way the light reflected of your skin and into my eyes set the mood and made my day better just like that.
but, as the bell rang you were not to be found and so i sat and wondered where you were and when you'd come back.
and moments after those thoughts occured,
i remembered that you'll never mentally come back, because you called us quits.

(a.b)