If solitude is a bliss,
Then happiness is mine

Definitely

In this room,
I feel unknown.
Saddened by this,
I'd rather sit alone.

It's always as if,
my presence is dull.
I almost feel like,
there's no brain in my skull.

The people around me scorn.
Leaving me bruised; feeling torn.
And no matter how hard I try..
I'll always be "That one girl"

The girl who always cries.

Just leave her,
like you always do.
Isolation is the key
to her recovery.
Humanities Theory for self-discovery.
When veins are slit
is when your theory is questioned...

I'm going to escape it all for a day
No socialization, no worries
No hint of fear, no hidden glory
Nothing but myself, to whom I'll tell a story

No one to talk to, No thoughts to consume me
No one to tend to and no clowns to amuse me
Just lay there awake with melodies soothing my mind.
Looking deeper at life, now that I have the time

When I'm done drowning and segregate from my box
I'll wait at the door, and wonder if you'll knock
I hope you forgive me without even a reason
Because even a lonely summer could be such a cold season

Its so much easier to push someone away, than to let yourself become vulnerable.
                                                     ­         
To give them the power to hurt you.

Showing your true feelings is relinquishing all your power.

You're trusting them not to take advantage of your weaknesses.

And that, is an absolutely ridiculous notion.

Once weakness is spoted, it is used and abused, untill you are just a quivering mess lying on the floor, wondering how you ever let yourself get into such a situation.

I will not be:
Vulnerable  
Powerless
Weak

I am strong, because people don't know the real me, and that's how its going to stay.

Nothing to say? Nothing to say?
Oh catch yourself on.
Since when have you
Ever had nothing to say?

Liar liar
Or so they say.
But if your words be lies
Then why do you hide it?

Loner loner
That's what I am.
You say it's untrue
Well then why didn't you notice me gone?

Avoidance of human contact, is the best way to remain human

If there are no ties, what will be severed?
If there's no attachment, there will be no burden of holding on  

"But you promised!", you beg,
"Well things change with time!", they dictate
I remind myself of what John Green said, "Sometimes people  don't understand the promises they make when they're making them"

I am not capable of contemporary human relations
Shallow connections aren't connections at all  

Everyone is interchangeable,
Why hold anyone to a pedestal?
It's about being at the right place at the right time,
So what if it's the wrong person?

Let them call you an anti social monster,
You know it is them that are the true monsters relishing your heart's meat  

*Avoidance, of human contact, I have thus learned, is the best way to remain human.

I was taught never to stay where I am not wanted. 

As I grew older, I carried along with me baggage. 

Each bag had a different boy

Or a different insult

Or stereotype

Or fear in it. 

The problem started when those bags stayed packed;

I never unpacked those bags

Because I don’t stay where I’m not wanted
.
The problem was that the bags wouldn’t allow me to see the places that I was wanted. 

They told me such places didn’t exist