She's searching for something,
to satisfy her thirst,
to end her desperation,
to end her craziness,
but she doesn't know what.

Shes searching for something,
to make her feel a whole again,
like shes not empty,
like she can jump to the sky with no limitations,
but she doesn't know what

Her heart aches and longs to find out what.
It hurts but she'll fight through this pain,
until she finds what is.
no matter how long it takes, she'll find it.

the howto
             is a mighty force
             it tells us
                with authority
             how to
             best navigate the world
             appropriate to the occasion
            
             from love to cars to finances
             it guides us
                to the proper steps
            
             and yet
             it somehow fails
             to say  
             why
                if we follow the directions
             we feel like children
             rather than adults
            
             why
                when all wisdom
                has been eagerly applied
             we still don't know
     why
                 our hands and feet
                 are tied

The thought of being normal sounds terrifying
you have to do certain things that should reach standards
beyond the rules are completely insane
and theres limitations in accordance to your flight of ideas
How can you lock yourself?
Why are you doing this?
And then after many years...
Youll regret most of your life decisions
and imagine the what-ifs that should be done.

Most folks
live in small yards
circled by walls;
eventually the walls
become reality.

This is known
as death.