My decision made
only air caught me
resigned to fade
from the highest place
with the most shade
I'm coming down
that hand I've played
sent me below
but I'm not dismayed
when beckoned by the ground
I heard and I obeyed.

I can see and sense my new way of being
I can feel and recall the power of seeing
The veil of “my thoughts” have lifted
Something profound in presence shifted

Seeing the world clearly isn’t what you think
The taste of the drink, is just the taste of the drink
There is no craving, fantasy, or filter
The simplicity throws you off kilter

I'll stay here for now to see what's next
Presence is a moment, without context
Uncertainty is now my friend not my foe
I take a step forward, let's see where we go

I realized I'm in love when I weeped all day,
Analyzing last phrase "We'll never meet again".
Happiness's still happiness even for a second.
Guess we were given hearts for someone come and break 'em.
How could u think I'm perfect, when all your saw was blur.
Im shocked that ur so evil without a good boy fleur.
Cant stand pathetic letters and all your fictional thoughts.
U showed me kinds of magic, than left nothing but ache and dust.
Life is wonderland full of my friends and I'm the maddest hatter.
Though I would be a good girl? *****! My trump card is vendetta.
Stop to behave yourself that way, i am wild cat that can't be tamed.
You're smart enough to understand I can't be blamed for who I am.

Go ahead find a reflection at the pupils of my eyes.
Don't u see the devil that cut me hundred times.
No, I dont wanna hurt u. U know that we allies.
But I cant take no more of it. The weight is too upsized.
All I need is you to talk with me.
Tell me what u think we are could be?
Trust me saying I need u close, I love u back we both got lost.
Now all I want is you to talk with me.

I’m walking on my failure
Like the water in the sea
Out there I see my Sailor
He is calling out to me
All I need is meager trust
That His grace won’t let me sink
On His boat is written Just
No water removes that ink

Tell me,

what are the things that fascinate you most?

Things that make your eyes sparkle aglow,

that soothe your awry, unrest, stirred soul.

Some are fascinated with their fiery, burning passion of life,

and some others are fascinated with their own death.

I am one of the latter.