La la la
La la la
I'm going down
An endless road
I do not know why
I must go
La la la
La la la

There's burning
And crashing
And brutal death
But I'll go
Until my last breath
I guess
La la la
La la la

I'm in absolute misery
I finally realized it's pointless
Open your eyes stop singing
The warning bells keep ringing
La la la
La la la

Everyday a smile
Just to appease them for awhile
Until night falls and I'll consider
How I'll fall

I'm alone now
Only walls surround me
I can stop singing
This cheery mockery

Your sharp stare
Kills me,
Each time you look

Because I choose to hide
Underneath my smile

And my makeup
That is probably deceiving

But I hope you can see
My eyes can't lie.

They are always searching
Searching
For yours
To meet mine

For they are always wanting more.

There's a piece missing that I can't seem to find it.
I don't seem to care.
I don't want to try.
That doesn't seem right.

I don't seem to feel.
It feels like charades.
Are they even mine.
Those feelings inside.

I look in time.
Is it too late to try
to find that piece
that is missing inside?

-D.L.

you cradled me and
loved me
until i felt safe enough to love you back

and then you let me go
and simply watched as i shattered on the ground

i was nothing but an experiment to you.

it hit me suddenly
the countdown you started
since you knew me
the day you met me
with silicon in your eyes
you were ready
and it hit me
a week
a month before
and i know now
how exact math can hurt more than
wondering and thinking

i feel inexplicable happiness when i am with you
once it is over, though, i feel utterly blue
i know, i know, it is very much true
'she feels nothing more than good friends with you'

but my foolish heart remains so
it keeps thinking that she is giving me hope,

what kind of hope shreds the man to his last piece?
what hope?

Why is that I'm still here
Trapped in a room, with your pictures on the wall.
That whenever I go near, it disappears
And If I do get to touch it, I fall

Why is that with every fall, I end up back here.
Repeating the same scenario over and over
Getting back up, fall, then shed tears.
The more I fall, the room gets colder

Why can I not stop and give up
Abandon you and start living
With every fall my sanity blows up
But my heart insists on beating

For you and none other
Even if it starts to bleed
I will never falter
I will never concede

Waiting, amidst the usual crowd
To get noticed by someone I admire
Yet hidden within this friendship cloud
That keeps telling me I should retire

Love plays *****, it has ensnared my heart
No longer can I break free from this trance
My mind and body are being torn apart
Dancing through the beat of romance

I've sought ways to break free
Knowing my heart, I dare not
For it is a sin to myself if I flee
A tragedy to myself I've brought

Staying would lead to agony
My heart beats go unnoticed
Deafened by love's cacophony
Excruciatingly patient to get noticed