Looking up at the sky,
What do you see?
When one tells a lie,
How does one breathe?
A man who tends to be shy,
Opens up like a blade from sheath.
Please don’t tell him good-bye;
One more heartbreak may lead him to die.

when I found love,
it was nighttime.

I remember hoping that
maybe he couldn't see
what I looked like
in the darkness.
we laugh at that now.

it was a real fear then,
but now I realize how
irrational it was.

how does that make any sense?
someone who loves you
will see you eventually.
if they wouldn't want to see you,
then how can you call that love
in the first place?

you shouldn't need to
dress up and go on dates.
true love is found
wearing sweatpants
and a baggy shirt,
with no makeup on.

you shouldn't need to
go looking for love.

the truth is that
you will be alone
for a while, maybe even
for a long time.

and the truth is
that loneliness will hurt
and it will not be easy.

but if you go looking
for love before you are
meant to come across it,
you will only find it
in the wrong places.

when you do find love,
it won't be perfect.
it will be messy sometimes
and awkward and hard,
but don't throw it away.

it's that messiness and
that imperfection and
those awkward moments.

those are love.

love is being yourself
with someone who loves you
for being yourself,

and who doesn't
just want to love you.

they want you to love yourself
the same way that they love you.

they want you to see yourself
through their eyes,
so that you can finally know
how truly amazing you are.

It’s DISTURBING To Me... !!!
To See Communities...
Who... CLAIM To Be...
Supportive of HONEST Poetry...

REFUSE To Deal...
With Poetry That Speaks...
On Political Themes...
Or ANYTHING Likely...
To Make The Sheople BLEAT... !?!

About CAUSING OFFENCE...
And... ARGUMENTS...
Because of Things Expressed...

When We Have PRESIDENTS...
And Leaders Who UPSET...
Because of Things Now Said...
That Fuel Their Governments... !?!

Are Humans Now SO WEAK... ?!?
That Arguments Should Be...
Now Left To Media Teams...
Whose Biases Now WREAK...
of More Than FALLACIES... !!!

Are People So... “ P.C. “...
That They Don’t Want To Speak...
UNLESS It’s On The Streets...
Through PROTEST Scenes... !!!

COMPLIANCE Is Where...
Poets Once... DARED... !!!
To Openly Speak On Humanity...
And Peoples' Movements Globally...

Is FEAR What Really Runs...
Free Speech Kingdoms... ?!?

Cos It’s...
CLEARLY NOT FREE When Artistry...
Is Placed Inside A World That Hides...
The TRUTH From Minds...
That Are Being Downsized...

Because of Lockdowns Due...
To This... CORONA FLU... !!!

Why Are Groups Enforcing Rules...
To Keep The TRUTH...
LOCKED In Bedrooms... ?!?

Cos’ That Just KEEPS Art CHOKED...
And UNABLE To Grow... !!!

So WHAT If Some Cause ARGUMENTS... !?!
Isn’t That Part of Us Being Human...
Using Our Art And Creative Freedom...

To INSPIRE A Desire...
To RETIRE Empires...
That Are FILLED With LIARS... !!!

Because Unity...
Has NEVER Been Achieved...
In Our Societies... !!!
For Century After CENTURY... !!!

So WHY Should We Deal...
In CONTROLLED Speech...
Within Artistry...
That Should Surely Be FREE... !!!

It’s A Trend That I See...
That Now WORRIES Me... !!!
When Those Making Movies...
And Those On Our TV's...

Seem To Air Their Views...
To The World FREELY...
Even When Their Speech...
Is FAKER Than... FALLACIES... !?!

Although The CLAIM Nowadays...
Is That Movies Being Made...
Deal In Real Stories Based On REALITY... !!!

But... Hollywood Clans...
AREN'T Known To Feed FACTS... !?!

It’s Visual FICTION Mostly...
With... DRAMATISED Themes... !!!

So If What Is Now Displayed...
Is... REALITY Based...
Why Are People So AFRAID...
To... Poetically Deal...
With What Is REAL... ?!?

They Are WEIRD Communities...
Those In Spoken Word Scenes...
And The Field of Poetry...

It Seems That Poets CAN'T DEAL...
With What Now Makes Them Angry...
But Will Follow Policies...
That Treat Humans Like SHEEP... ?!?

I Guess It’s Just ME...
Who Sees A Future That’s BLEAK... ?!?

Where The Use of Poetry...
ONLY Deals In FREE SPEECH...
Over Some... TRAP Beat... !!!!!!!!

Or When It’s In A MOVIE...
Where It’s Vetted By Teams...
Who Are Those Who Control...
What Is Said And What Is Seen...

Because of... Policies...
That Are Probably NOT As Free...
As They Are CLAIMED To Be... !!!

These Companies That Now Stream...
Have Agendas For Their Means...
And AGENDAS That Now Feed...
Some... Pretty SCARY Themes... !!!

Much Like People Who Feel...
That EVERYTHING That They Read...
Or Now Hear... Poetically...

Should Just Feed... UNITY...
And Words of LOVE And PEACE... ?!?

When As I’ve Said Before...
We’re STILL Embracing WAR...
And Have Found No Route To Peace...
And Racial Harmony...
That Deals In UNITY...
And... REAL EQUALITY... ?!?

Poetry Should SURELY Be...
Something RESTRICTION FREE... !!!

When... TECHNOLOGY...
And THIS CORONA DISEASE...
Is Spreading So QUICKLY... !!!!!

Well So They Say...
... “ ALLEGEDLY “... ?!?

That I’m Now Thinking SERIOUSLY...
When It Comes To Future Scenes...
of... Poetic Artistry...

“Is This Really How Things
Will Continue To Be ?”

Now This Piece of Wordplay’s...
Gonna Speak On Frames...

But Has NOTHING To Do...
With A... Snooker Game... !!!

Or Where Pictures Are Placed...
To Make Them Look GREAT... !!!

The Frames That I Speak Of...
Go A LONG WAY BEYOND............
THAT Kind of Stuff... !!!!!

Like The Frame of Mind...
That You Have To Find...
To Write Great Rhymes...
Like The Kind That I...
Now Sit And Write... !!!

About How... Frames...
Can Be What... SHAPES...

EXACTLY How It Is....
That You Choose To Live...

And Who It Is That You Pick...
To Have RELATIONS With... !!!

It’s A Funny Old Thing...
When You Really THINK... !!!

Because It’s Just A Word...

But When It Is OBSERVED... !!!

Can Prove To DISTURB...
The CALMEST of Nerves... !!!

When Frames ENCASE...
MORE Than Your Brain... !!!

You See THAT’S A Frame...
Where Going INSANE... !!!

ISN’T Far Away...
From Where You Stay...
And Choose To Lay... !!!

It’s A DANGEROUS Place... !!!

When Being Framed...
Can... “LOCK Away”...
A DERANGED Mind State... !!!

Or... Leave You To Face....
The Type Of Court Case...
Where Police Accusations...
Bear... NO RELATION...
To What Is... TRUE... !?!

EVEN WHEN There Are Clues...
That Provide CLEAR PROOF...

That Police Have Played...
The... Framing Game...

To Convict By The Use...
of FRAUDULENT Moves... !!!

You See Frames Are DEEP... !!!

And REALLY Do Reach...
WAY BEYOND The Beach... !!!

And Indeed Can Feed...
........ HUMANITY.......

In Various Ways...
That AREN’T Always GREAT...
Like... BEAUTIFUL Lakes... !!!

Because Frames EXIST...
In A LOT of Things...
From Home To Abroad...
Frames Create ACCORDS...
As Well As... WARS...

And That’s For SURE... !!!

They’re A POWERFUL Force... !!!
That SHOULDN’T Be Ignored... !!!

As I Said... BEFORE...
When It Comes To The Law...
And Those Who ENFORCE... !!!

And What About The Frame...
Where Politicians ROAR...
In The Commons And Lords... ?!?

Because I’m Really NOT SURE...
What They’re Roaring For... ?!?

Is The Frame That They’re In...
Really Worth ANYTHING... !?!

To Those In The Frame...
of The Modern Slave...
Who Works EVERYDAY...
For A Paltry Wage... ?!?

While These Heads of State...
Try To Make The Case...
That Their Policies Frame...
A Way For Them...
To Avail MORE PAY...

When What They Relate...
RARELY EVER Demonstrates...
That What They CLAIM...
In The Things That They Say...
Are Things In The Frame...
Or... REALMS of TRUTH... !!!

That... Help To Improve...
How Society Moves... !!!!!!!

Because To My Mind...
What They Frame Are LIES... !!!

Pretty Much... ALL THE TIME... !!!!!

Which I Guess Is WHY... ?
Within Human Kind...
SO MANY... Try...
To... Hide Behind...

The Frame of Deceit...
And Of Course DENIAL...

Well My Frame DEFINES...
An... HONEST Guy... !!!
Who NO LONGER Has Time... !!!

To Join The Frame...
of Those Who Play Games...
With OTHER Peoples’ Lives... !!!

Because They LIKE To Play...
With... Peoples’ Brains...

In Ways That Are...
... INCREDIBLY LAME... !!!

It’s Such A SHAME...
That... ALL They Do...
Is Make FRAUDULENT CLAIMS...

That Prove That They...
Really Have NO SHAME...

Which Is Why These Days...
The Decision I’ve Made...
Is To Keep These People...
OUT of My Head Space... !!!

As Well As The Place...
That I Have Made...
That Keeps Me SANE... !!!

And Now Is The Name...
of This Poetic Wordplay...

That Is Simply Called.........

....... “ FRAME “.......

Now... “ It’s Just Who I Am “... !!!

A Man Who Chats FACTS...
In Spoken Word Tracks... !!!

Or YES... Poems...
That REJECT Nonsense... !!!

Because What I AM...
Is A Rejector of Sham’s... !!!

And The Type of Plans...
Made By IGNORANT Mans...
Because Who They Are...
Is... Darker Than Dark... !!!

While I Am A Man...
Who Has Dark Skin...

Who Chooses To THINK...
Instead of Being STUPID... !!!!

Like Those FALLING For Tricks...
Because ARROGANCE Lives...
Where It Shouldn’t Reside... !!!

Inside of The Mind...

of A TRULY WISE GUY...
WITHOUT Gangster Ties...
Or... Foolish Pride... !!!

BECAUSE... Who I Am...
Is Really NOTHING Like THAT... !!!

I’m The Type of Chap...
Who Is TIRED of Chat...
That STINKS Like CRAP... !!!

It’s Just Who I Am...
An HONEST Man... !!!

Whose Seen Them Come...
And Seen Them... GO... !!!!!!

IGNORANT Folks...
Whose Use of Prose...
And Rhymes That Flow...
Are THOSE Now Known...
As Being.... “ DOPE “.... !!!

BUT... Are They REALLY THOUGH... ?!?

These Days I Think... NOPE... !!!

Because I Think The Dope Label...
ISN’T One That Tells Fables... !!!!!

Because THAT Dope Quote...
Is Trying To Tell Folks...
That Those With BIG SHOWS...
Be SNIFFING That Coc’...
... In The Studios...
Where There Creations Grow... !!!

I’m NOT One of Those Blokes...
Or... INDUSTRY **’s... !!!!!

Cos’ That’s NOT Who I Am... !!!

I Now Stand Up TALL... !!!
Having Been In Stalls...
At BIG AWARD Shows...
Where What Was SHOWN...

Is That Girlies Love To Take...
That Drug.... *******... !!!

And Will ALLOW Males...
To... Have Their Way...
And SPREAD Their Thighs...
If What They SUPPLY...
Really BLOWS Their Mind... !!!

Which I Guess Is WHY...
I REJECTED That Life... !!!

Having HAD THOSE NIGHTS...
Where I Sniffed Coc’ Lines... !!!

But That’s Who I WAS...

... NOT Who I Am... !!!!

Because I RECOGNISED...
That It WOULDN'T Be WISE...
To Let THAT DRUG DESTROY My Life... !!!!!

Because Who I Am Is A HERBAL Guy... !!!
Who Is... NOW The Type...
Who Likes NATURAL Highs... !!!

And That’s Lead Me To Write Poetic Lines...
That Now DEFINE Who It Is That... I...

Have NOW BECOME... !!!

A... CREATIVE Guy...
Whose Preference Is LOVE...
Instead of Drugs And Fights... !!!

A... FORTHRIGHT Man...
Who Now Uses My Hands...
As Well As MY MIND...
To Write REALITY Rhymes... !!

And THOSE Words Like THESE...
Are Now Words of FACT...

Because The TRUTH Is THIS....

....... “It’s Just Who I Am”.......

Not an open book when it comes to honesty and feelings,
Judgement and rejection are my fears,
Although, I’d rather be rejected than to be judged.
Nothing more I want than to come clean, break the chains that I keep over my shattered heart, just let everything out.
But unfortunately, it’s not that easy.
People that can be your future will always pay the price for people in the past and that’s not fair.

Now When It Comes To...

.... “ My Life’s Story “....

It’s... NOT About Glory... !!!

Or Creating Fallacies...
About My History...

It’s NOT About Fantasies...
It Just Reflects... REALITY... !!!

About The Things I’ve Seen...
And The Places I Have Been...
And It CLEARLY Now Deals...
With My LOVE For POETRY... !!!

My Story’s Had MUCH Pain... !!!
As Well As... Happy Days...

I’ve Played Sports...
... Been In Courts...
And A WHOLE Lot More... !!!

It’s DEEPER Than Most Think... !!!
Because It Has Some Things...
That Some Would NOT Believe...
Have Been A Part of My Life...

That Have Made Me ANGRY...
But Have Also Made Me Smile...

From The Days When...
... As A CHILD...
I Told Some SILLY LIES... !!!

To These Days Where I Now Write...
What My Life’s TRUTH DEFINES... !!!!!

My Thinking That DEFIES...
The Vibes That DESTROY Lives... !!!

Cos’ I’m A... PEACEFUL Guy...
Who Has NO TIME For Racist Vibes... !!!

Or IGNORANCE That Rides...
With FOOLISH Acts of Pride... !?!

My Story Has Been NICE...
Just NOT... ALL of The Time... !!!

Because of VIOLENT Fights...
That Saw My Mother’s Eyes...
Be BLACKENED By The Guy....
Who Claimed Her For His Wife... !!!?!!!

Who Then...

Cheated And Resigned...
To Causing PAIN And STRIFE...
That Truly HURT Her Mind...
And BODY Til’ She CRIED...

Because She LOVED This Man...
Who Then Became My Dad...

But What Is REALLY SAD...
Is That When Things Turned BAD... !!!

My Father Turned His Back...
And Like A COWARD... RAN... !!!

AFTER He Had Made Attacks...
That Left Her Life RANSACKED... !!!

SCLEROSIS Then Began...
To Make Me Learn To STAND...
And YES Become A MAN...
Who Had To Then WITHSTAND...

The PRESSURES of What Came...
When SICKNESS Left Her LAME...
In Ways That RE-ARRANGED...
My Life Story’s... Range... !!!

NO ROVER But Much Colder...
Than Anybody’s SHOULDER... !!!!!!

I NEARLY Got Bowled Over... !!!
But Learned To Carry Boulders...

WhIle Peers of Mine...
Were Forming Their Lives...
With Children And Wives...

While I Had NO Time...
For Me To Build And Find...
A Woman Who Was Right...
Or A Wish To Have A Child...

Because I REALISED...

That I HAD To Do Right...
And Put ALL That Stuff Aside...
To Be By My Mothers Side...
And Make Sure She Was Alright... !!!

But When My Mother DIED...
She DIED Right In MY ARMS... !!!
But By Then I DIDN'T Cry...
Cos' I Found That I Was CALM...

Because I Felt That She...
Wouldn’t EVER WANT To SEE...
Me LOSE My STABILITY... !!!

But It Was Time For Me...
To Find Some INNER PEACE...
And To... Live For ME...
And Try To Be Happy...

But... LUCKILY...
By The Time She Passed...
I Had Met Someone...
Who Began To Love...
The Man That I'd Become... !!!

But It Was ALWAYS TOUGH...
For Her To SEE...
What... TRUTHFULLY...
Was MY LIFE's Story... !!!

So To Her I Say...
That I APPRECIATE...
What You Did For Me...

Even Though In The End...
It WASN'T Meant To Be...

But You Will ALWAYS BE...
... SPECIAL To Me... !!!

Because of The Way...
You SUPPORTED Me...

But Eventually I FOUND POETRY...
And Started To Write So FREQUENTLY...

That... Pieces Like THESE...
Were Things I Wrote DAILY... !!!

And STILL Do NOW...
That Make Me PROUD... !!!

of The Way That I...
... Utilise MY MIND...
To Write Poetic Rhymes...
That Are SMART And TIGHT...

That Some Folks Find...
To Be The TRUTH Designed...
In... Lines Upon LINES...
That Come From My Mind... !!!

My Story Though...
Has Left Me... ALONE...
Because Creative Zones...
DON'T Allow For **’s...
Or... Allowing FOES...
To Get TOO CLOSE... !!!

Because My NEW HOME...
ISN’T Where I Was Born... !!!
I Left England To Go...
To Where Bajans' Roam...

Where My Parents Were Born...
Where I’ve Faced Some SCORN...
But Am NOT Forlorn... !!!

Because My Life Draws...
From A Strength of Thought...

That Will NOT ALLOW...
My Head To Go Down...
Because of The CLOWNS...
That Have Tried To Surround...

And To Make Me REACT...
Like Some IGNORANT Man... !!!

I’ve STUCK To My Guns...
Travelled Now And Had FUN...
And Made Creations...
Just Like THIS ONE... !!!

And Have Now Made Some...
Where Good Music Runs...
Alongside My Words And Poetic Verse...

But It’s Fair To Say...
That SUICIDAL Traits...
And Depressive Veins...
Have NEVER Really Been...
... That Far AWAY... !!!

But HEY That’s OKAY... !!!

Because I Have No Wish...
To Live... FOREVER... !!!

And DON’T Fear Death... !!!
Like A Lot of Heads Whose Stories END...
May Well Leave Them...
With A World of REGRETS... !!!

My Story REJECTS...
... REGRETTING Things... !!!

Because I’ve Had Women... !!!
Had... PLENTY of ***... !!!
And Have Lived A Full Life...

But Now My Fathers Life...
Has Now... FLATLINED...

... I Find That I...
Am In A Place of PEACE...

In These Corona Times...
Where Things Are Really CRAZY... ?!?

I Really Don’t Know...
Where My Life Will Now Go... ?!?
But Hope That ONE DAY...
I’ll Look Back And Say...

That I’m Proud of The Way...
That I’ve USE MY BRAIN...
To... MANAGE My Pain... !!!

And Have Used Poetry...
As A Way To BREATHE.......

That Has TRULY HELPED Me... !!!

To Now Be Able To Share...
............ Some of...........

“ My Life's Story “ …………